Three Years Different

41: What Can You Call Family? If There is No Mother, Umma ...

Za-zanitha's? L-mother? Did you mean Mr Gautama my mother? inner Mardiyah with widened netra. His ears don't hear wrong, do they? Did Gautama Adiwangsa name Zanitha? Mother, right? He just realized, the grip of Umma Sarah is getting tighter. Mardiyah understood that the purpose of this grip as if to say not to want to be left.

"You're like someone I know, son," continued Mr. Gautama.

"Your face ..." That view remains the same as if it implies sadness. "Same. Like he was reborn."

"What do you mean, Mr Gautama? Do you know a woman named Zanitha?" asked Mardiyah who still did not believe what she heard.

Mr. Gautama nodded. "He's someone I know very well."

"Then ... What do you mean by saying that I am the flesh and blood of Zanitha?" Mardiyah stared straight without blinking. "Do you know that the woman is pregnant?"

Mr. Gautama sighed and shook his head. "I don't know about her pregnancy. But after I found out, it turned out that Zanitha was pregnant and even she had to live alone, support herself and give birth to the child alone."

Actually ... what is the relationship of Mother with Mr. Gautama? inner Mardiyah who still does not want to tell the fact that the figure of Zanitha is her mother. "Maybe only my face looks similar, sir. Don't confuse me with someone you know. Because I don't think I've ever had a relationship with the people of the city. Besides Miss Harsa, and my other work staff."

"But you live in an orphanage, son. Obviously you may be related to Zanitha" said Mr. Gautama.

Mardiyah looked up, turning to look at Umma Sarah. "Umma .. before meeting Mardiyah. What did Mr. Gautama and Doctor Gumira talk to Umma?"

"He asked exactly what year you were in this orphanage" replied Umm Salamah.

Mardiyah.

Doctor Gumira said, "Year 1999, right, son? You born? We don't know exactly what month. But that same year we heard the news that Zanitha was ending her life."

Deg.

Someone who gives life. Why did it end like that? Mardiyah did not believe it. Her mother ... how could it be? It has been explained in the written letter that the mother said, if you want to meet and directly look at him. But this is all what?

Falsehoods.

"Zanitha ended her life by drinking poison" continued Doctor Gumira, for a moment he looked at the older brother. "If you're a kid, ask me what kind of relationship my sister and Zanitha have. Clearly all I can explain is my own brother."

Mardiyah still did not believe this. Perhaps Zanitha is meant by these two Adiwangsa different people than his mother.

"Zanitha ..he was my lover once," explained Mr. Gautama.

Netra Mardiyah glazed, Umm Sarah's hand grip was getting tighter. Then he asked, "Love? Then what did you do to him ... until you can conclude that Zanitha is pregnant?"

Mr. Gautama looked down unable to look at the netra owned by Mardiyah. "I'm .. I never said I was a good person. Even rumors about the bad Adiwangsa family were spread everywhere. I know that, son. But I'm not a bad person either."

"Don't be kinky, sir."

"I know .. I was wrong. I do something, forcing the will of others above my power. Then I foolishly left him as if what I was doing was natural."

Mardiyah took and made a breath several times, her neutrality was not separated from Mr. Gautama who lowered his head, he paused his speech for a moment.

"Even with his firmness, I left him by marrying another woman. I heard people gossiping about him saying that he was willing to give everything ... Not at all."

No. No. No way, inner Mardiyah. His left hand squeezed firmly the robe of his right hand is still held by Umma Sarah.

"Because in my own view she is a good, hard-working woman, she is persistent, potentially and certainly. Therefore I also chose him as a secretary who helped me handle everything."

A secretary? Ja-so .. The person that Brother Devina and Regita discussed is Mom? Means you're not a mistress. Nope. Not at all. Brother Devina did not know the truth, inner Mardiyah shook her head slowly, her tears had fallen on the tail of her eyes. The wounds he had kept tight were visible, he was weak, he was afraid, and he was worried about everything.

"Go," said Mardiyah slowly.

Spontaneous Mr. Gautama looked up. While Doctor Gumira like holding his brother's hand then he said, "Son Mardiyah ... You are really Zanitha's child, right? And if I may, we'd like to do a DNA test on you, son."

"I said, go" Mardiyah repeated.

"We--"

Mardiyah spontaneously rose.

Mardiyah was about to turn away. But his wrist was held by Umma Sarah, he also stood up. Same with Mr. Gautama and Doctor Gumira.

"Remove, Umma."

Umma Sarah shook her head. "Mardiyah .. what if it turns out she is out---"

"Not Umma." Mardiyah. "No way .... no."

"To ... long, don't cry, son." There was the sound of Mr. Gautama trying to get closer, about to reach Mardiyah's hand. But in a flash. "Sorry."

"Mardiyah, Dengerin Umma, son."

Mardiyah shook her head, her tears dropped so much. Even suddenly his chest felt tight, his legs felt weak. Until the next second, he sat on the floor.

"Son! Oh, God ..."

"Astaghfirullah."

Mr. Gautama's big hand ended up touching his shoulder. Mardiyah pushed him away. "Go ... Umma please Mardiyah ..."

"Why, why?" Mardiyah bowed with sobbing. "I-mom .. nope Umma."

Umma Sarah looked at Mr. Gautama and Doctor Gumira. "Please, can you wait outside?"

Both out. Umm Sarah pulled Mardiyah in a paddle several times her back on the pat. "Nak .. already. Shhhh, it's Mar."

"family? U-umma said family? Mardiyah did not want to! Gi-gimana can be called family? If there is no Umma ... In the letter, I promise, I promise to meet Mardiyah, I promise I want to know the name Umma gave, I promise everything. But ... but what is Umma ...? Mom lied! Mother left Mardiyah forever without knowing what her face was like Umma ... By Allah, it is better that Mardiyah never existed in this world ..."

The last words heard by Gautama and Gumira made both of them grumble. Even unconsciously the tears of Gautama dripped, Gumira realized that until in his guide the older brother sat on a wooden chair.

"Mirror ..."

Gumira looked at the brother.

"What punishment do I deserve?" Gautama paused, the man lowered his head, his ears still hearing a painful sob from the child's lips. "I didn't just hurt Zanitha. I also hurt the child he loved."

"Sister, all men have committed sins-"

Gautama refuted, "I know, Gumira. But my sin is too much, Zanitha is a good woman. How could I have treated him inhumanely?"

"Sister-"

"Gumira .. I can't hurt Cecilia by saying that Mardiyah is my daughter. But I also can't hurt my daughter by not considering her a child." Gautama looked up, then looked at the Netra of the Brother. "You heard it yourself, didn't you? Even in his entire life he never looked at Zanitha's face."

"Even Gumira .. I do not have a single happy portrait with Zanitha. Then what happiness will I give her later?"

Gumira replied, "By knowing that Brother is Father is enough, Brother."

"Not enough, Gumira. Because as a child, I also wanted to know what kind of mother gave birth to me in this world. You do too, don't you?" Gautama leaned his back on the chair staring straight around the orphanage. "Then how can I explain to Rajendra, Abhimana and Abhimata? They would not all be that easy to accept Mardiyah. Even the ones I feared Rajendra and Abhimana hated Mardiyah."

"Abhimata will not, Brother."

"Yes .. maybe he'll just be disappointed in this father."

The sound from inside was no longer heard. Suddenly, Umma Sarah looks out. "Father of Gautama and Doctor Gumira."

Both rising.

"It is not my intention to drive away. But if I can ask, please leave the orphanage. I will persuade Mardiyah as much as possible. Because ..." Umma Sarah paused. "I know. Mr. Gautama and Doctor Gumira are his family."

"Thank you, Miss Sarah," said Dr. Gumira.

"To ensure. I want a DNA test, Doctor. So that ... your extended family believes that Mardiyah is the flesh blood of Mr. Gautama."