The Wedding With My Lecturer

Section 55_I'm Not Your Home 3

Eiren chose to stay silent while in the car with Elio. Since the trip, he had only been silent with all his thoughts. Several times Elio said hello was also not heard at all. It felt like I was wrong with his current situation. Many questions began to arise in his brain.

Is Firda a special figure for Elio? Did he see his own heart break? There were still many things Eiren thought about before meeting Firda.

Elio who was aware of Eiren's residence chose not to reprimand at all. He prefers to be busy with his thoughts and hopes this is the best path. It felt so tired when I saw Eiren looking at him hatefully. He only hoped, after this his relationship again improved with Eiren.

Elio turned the car when he reached the open gate of the house. A house that was no stranger to Eiren. After arriving at the front of the house, Elio stopped the car and turned off the machine. His eyes looked at Eiren who was still silent.

“You down now?” elio asked for approval.

Eiren turned sharply towards Elio and nodded. “I want to meet him. The woman you love so much.” Eiren emphasized his voice in the last sentence.

Elio sighed loudly hearing Eiren's words. “Whatever you say,” said Elio who chose to go straight out.

Eiren followed Elio and stepped inside the house. However, just reaching the mouth of the door, a shout made him stop his steps with a flat expression.

“Elio.”

Eiren was only silent when Firda came to memorize Elio in a limp. His heart ached when Elio chose to run to Firda and hold the girl.

He was the same as the others, Eiren, the inner Eiren convinced himself.

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“Elio.”

Elio who saw Firda stepped up limped smiled gently. His steps accelerated and immediately grabbed Firda's weak body as the woman almost fell.

“You must be careful,” said Eio reminded.

Firda who heard nodded and smiled happily. His eyes twinkled looking at Elio who was currently in front of him. “You're coming?” firda asked with a face filled with happiness.

Elio nodded. “Together with Eiren,” Elio explained as he flipped over, staring at Eiren who was just silent in place.

Firda followed Elio's gaze and looked at Eiren fixedly. His eyes were looking from top to bottom. It felt as if her disappointment had re-emerged when a sweet smile was painted on Eiren's thin lips. Things that made him feel weaker.

Slowly, Firda let go of his hand grip on Elio's arm and stepped limped. He tried to get closer towards Eiren who had already stepped closer to him. However, due to the legs that were still too weak, his body started to waver and almost fell down, but a hand strengthened him.

“Be careful,” said Eiren caught Firda's body and re-enforced.

Firda who heard a weak smile. “Thank you.”

Eiren simply nodded and led Firda to sit on the living room chair. Next, he sat opposite to Firda. Elio who was watching took a seat with Eiren.

“You Eiren?” asked Firda in a weak voice.

Eiren nodded awkwardly and looked towards Elio. How did he know about me?

“It's nice to meet you,” added Firda with a sweet smile. His clenched hands held a heart that was growing painful. Something made him feel so hurt. Eiren is too good to be an enemy.

Firda looked towards Elio and smiled. “She's a good girl. I'm sure he'll make you happy,” Firda said in a stifled disappointed voice.

“Sorry because I love her, Firda. Sorry because it turned out that I reneged on our promise,” Elio replied with a deep sense of regret.

“No problem, Elio. I know it. He has become your home and no longer me.” Firda wiped her tears and looked at Eiren with a sweet smile. “Believe him, Eiren. I'm sure, you'll be happy with him.”

Eiren just flinched thinly and looked at Elio. He was still unsure of being able to live with Elio when the man was still thinking about Firda. The new Eiren would open his mouth when an exclamation made him back in silence.

“Firda,” cried Elio with an anxious face.

Eiren stared at Elio and turned to look at Firda who closed his mouth, holding back the sobs that were felt. His eyes looked at Firda's already stiffened hands with a few drops of blood flowing from between his fingers. The first thing he saw.

Eiren turned to look at Elio who already looked so anxious and got up. He will help when someone stops his movement.

“Don't approach him. All this because of you,” firmly Rega who directly approached towards Firda.

Eiren froze again. Is all this because of me? It felt like now he knew what Dora felt like when she was in her current position. Abject. That made him feel even more guilty.

Elio stared at Eiren as he was about to step carrying Firda inside. “Can you go home by yourself first? I will go to the apartment after Firda improves,” Elio said asking for understanding.

Eiren just nodded and stared at Elio's departure along with Rega and Firda. A speck of tears began to wet the corner of his eyes and was instantly removed. Eiren had to step away from Elio's house before his feelings grew more and more out of whack.

“I'm not your house, Elio. I realize that,” Eiren said weakly.

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“Firda, don't do that again. You must not hurt yourself,” Elio said with concern.

Firda who was in bed looked at Elio and nodded. “I'm sorry, Elio. I won't repeat it again.”

“Already,” cut Firda with a pouty face, “I'm not a child anymore. I'll be fine. You better not keep worrying about me and go after Eiren. He must be thinking all sorts of things about us. I don't want him to leave you.”

“No. I'm sure Eiren will definitely understand the current conditions,” Elio said with a relaxed face. He was certain, Eiren would have understood it.

Firda shook his head slowly and rubbed Elio's hands gently. “That's what you think, Elio. You don't know what he's really thinking, do you? I'm sure, he still thinks we have a relationship. I don't want to interrupt your marriage.”

Elio who heard silence for a moment. He was still trying to think about what Firda said. Is Eiren really like that? In fact, he felt unsure if Eiren had any feelings for him. When his mind was still flogging with the same thing, a gentle elution made Elio stare with a questionable face.

“Go. I've let you go with him. I promise it will be fine,” added Firda trying to convince.

Elio sighed slowly and nodded. He got up and started leaving Firda's room. As for Firda, he was only able to stare when the door was closed. Slowly, her tears came down and began to rub her cheeks.

“Now I don't even have a reason to be here, Elio,” whispered Firda with a bitter taste.

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Again, Eiren sighed slowly as his eyes stared at Elio's apartment room. The room that has repeatedly left memories of him and also Elio. His smile slowly rose as he passed by Elio's bed, where he used to spend time with the man.

The bead of his eyes looked around again and observed closely, keeping the matter in his mind.

“Maybe this is the last time I was here,” Eiren said weakly. Yes, after Eiren returned to the apartment, he chose to pack up and also decided to leave the apartment. He chose to stay at his boarding house first and will live as usual.

“Before I love you, I must go from you,” Eiren said with a light laugh.

Eiren sighed slowly and got up from the bed. He started to step out of the room and headed to his room. Slowly, his hand grabbed the large suitcase and pulled it out. Eiren was still closing the door when another voice sounded. He quickly stared at the origin of the voice and instantly remained silent.

“Eiren, where are you going?” asked Elio with a frown.

“Hai, Elio,” greet Eiren with a smile without guilt. Slowly, he pulled the suitcase and stepped closer. He stopped his steps when he was already at close range with Elio.

“Where are you going?" reiterate Elio for not getting an answer.

“I've decided to leave your apartment. I'll go back to Kosan and stay there. I will meet you for guidance on campus,” explained Eiren with a sweet smile.

Elio who heard hardened his jaw and looked at Eiren viciously. “What do you think, Eiren? You want to leave me?” elio growled with clenched hands.

“I'm not leaving you, Elio. All this time I was just running my part and now it's all done. So, I'm going back to my position.”

“You mean?” elio asked with narrowed eyes.

“Firda is up and all our agreements are over. I know, not here my place,” explained Eiren with a smile that started to weaken. I don't know why, it hurts to say it.

“You think I'm messing with you, Eiren?” resolute Elio while staring at Eiren sharply, “I even already really love you.”

Eiren who heard a small laugh and looked at Elio with a witty laugh. “Don't joke, Elio. I can't even celebrate your words.”

“I'm serious, Eiren! I seriously love you.”

Eiren closed his eyes and sighed slowly. He opened his eyes again and looked at Elio with tears welling up in his eyes. “Stop saying, Elio. I would never even believe it,” hissed Eiren who instantly pulled her suitcase.

Elio who saw stopped Eiren's steps and stared intently. “I won't let you go.”

“I beg you, let me go. Don't make me suffer more with your attitude, Elio. You seem to love me, but you will be different when you are with Firda. Don't make me your home, Elio,” said Eiren in a weak tone. He was already too sick to face Elio's absurd behavior.

“You are my home, Eiren. You are my place back,” Elio replied in a soft tone.

Eiren looked up, stopping the rate of tears that started flowing and smiled. “If I am your house, release Firda completely and never take care of her,” Eiren asserted with complete confidence. Just once, he wanted to be a selfish figure and started thinking about himself.

Elio was silent for a moment and looked at Eiren confusedly. There was a worry in his heart. He was still thinking about Firda's condition which he thought was not good enough. However, he also felt unable if Eiren left him.

“I can't choose, Eiren. Firda is sick and I have to help heal him,” Elio said with a weak face.

“If you are still in doubt, do not hold me, Elio.”

“Firda has self harm disease, Eiren.”

Eiren who heard sighed slowly and gazed towards the weak Elio. “Then don't leave him. Stay close to him because he needs you more. I am still much healthier and can live even without you,” stressed Eiren with eyes full of confidence.

Eiren again stepped towards the entrance. Elio who saw was only able to see the nanar of the departure of the woman mentioned. His mind was flailing in the face of a reality that felt so runny for him. Things he never thought about at all. He just thought, if Firda wakes up, the reality he grasped is true. So, he would willingly leave the woman easily. But reality says something else.

Eiren begins to tear when he enters a taxi and leaves Elio's apartment. “All my fault, Elio. From the beginning you only said everything as a covenant, but I love you instead. I enjoyed my role as your woman too much.”

“Bas stupid,” he said with a bated cry.

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