The Wedding With My Lecturer

Section 48_Missing you

Elio let out a long sigh when he got to the car. Since two days ago he had decided not to meet Eiren. Ignore the girl and choose to calm down at the hotel not far from the apartment. He was still too afraid to go home and see the hateful face of Eiren. It felt sad to hear the words of Eiren who said that he was only a candidate and had no right to govern.

I didn't even expect to do such a thing, Elio's inner self with a whipping mind. It's like he doesn't know himself.

“Arrrgghh,” Elio hit hard the steering wheel of his car and ruffled his hair riled. “Sials. I miss him,” grumbled Elio with a hardened face and a taste that began to flail.

Elio looked out and breathed some fresh air. He wanted to calm the flailing mind. His job was a mess and his heart floated out of nowhere. Lately he thought he really couldn't focus on just one place. He mikikran Eiren and Firda who continue to ring.

“Sials. Kenpaa my life so runyam,” grumbled Elio while leaning his body on the hood of the car. His mind could not be invited to compromise at all.

Elio lay down while looking at the ceiling which was so beautiful tonight. It was sprinkled with stars that made it feel perfect.

“You know, Elio? I like the stars so much.”

“Why?”

“Because although small, the stars are very useful and also beautiful. She managed to decorate the night sky and make it beautiful. Like you made me feel perfect."

Elio sighed as the memories came back. A memory where he was happy together with Firda. The sound of the phone is heard and immediately grabbed by the phone in the pocket of the pants. His eyes stared at the name of Rega that was plastered in front of the screen

Again, Elio grumbled with a lazy face.

Elio chose to ignore the call and enjoy the night air that felt so cool. Makes him feel comfortable. However, again the voice of his phone was heard and remained with the same name. Angrily Elio turned off the phone and kept it in his pants pocket.

“I just want to be alone, Rega. Don't bother me,” Elio said with a flat face.

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Rega let out a loud sigh as his third call was only answered by the operator. He lazily put down his phone and headed to the bed where Firda was lying at the moment. His smile was sweetly drawn and sat by the bed.

“E...e..lio,” said Firda stuttered and looked at Rega with a weak look.

Rega who heard grasping Firda's fingers that looked so thin. “I think he's busy. You know what, Firda? When you're in a coma, he works pretty hard and also like a workaholic. He does all the work. In fact, he who is notoriously diligent also never took a shower because of too much work spirit. Is that not crazy?” said Rega trying to comfort Firda who was not excited at all.

Firda who heard smiled faintly and looked at Rega softly. He wanted to say many sentences and explain everything, but he had to swallow the bitter fact that he himself had not been fluent in speaking. It's just, he felt there was something different about Elio when he woke up.

Does Elio really hate me?, inner Firda with tears that suddenly flow.

Rega who saw Firda's tears were about to flow immediately wiped them slowly and spread a smile. “You don't have to cry, Firda. He's just busy for a while and he'll come back to see you. He must be happy because you are awake,” Rega said kindly.

“Be..ben.ci,” asked Fida with glazed eyes.

Rega shook his head gently while watching Firda's face clingy. “He doesn't hate you, Firda. He was only surprised that he had been waiting for you for so long. He just has to adjust to your life again. Don't think about what he said. It was all just to cover up the real feeling of being happy. You know what he looks like, right?” chirp Rega with confidence.

“Don't cry, Firda. Trust in my words. He still loves you very much and in fact he believes that what happened is not purely your fault. I'm sure there's a misunderstanding here. I believe in you,” Rega added with a soothing smile.

Firda who heard just smiled and tried to believe. May everything you say be true, Rega, Firda's mind while closing tired eyes.

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“What was yesterday I overreacting with, huh?” muttered Eiren with a face scowling irritatedly. For a few days Elio did not return home. Elio is not in college.

Eiren sighed softly and looked at the door that had not opened at all. He felt that he missed Elio who usually always accompanied when Eiren was doing thesis work and corrected him immediately. However, some days even the script was just dangling and not taken care of at all.

Eiren broke down and stared at the wall clock that attached him over the television. It was already three in the morning and his eyes still remained perfectly open. A heavy breath sounded tired from his direction.

“I feel like something different happened to you, what really happened to you, Elio?” eiren said he was curious about Elio's life, especially the room that should not be touched in Elio's house. Eiren still remembered, there was someone lying there.

Eiren chose to close his eyes and let out a loud sigh as drowsiness began to strike. Ever since Elio didn't come home, he always found it hard to sleep. His eyes only closed when it was three in the morning.

“I am tired of facing your absurd nature, Elio,” Inner Eiren while closing my eyes and entering the dreamland.

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Elio decides to return to the apartment and sees Eiren's condition. He remembers leaving her just like that. Her feelings begin to fear if Eiren eventually leaves without her knowledge.

Elio just opened the door and frowned in surprise because the living room light was still on. His eyes looked around and found Eiren asleep on the living room sofa. Slowly he walked in and closed the door, stepping towards Eiren who was still deep in a dream.

His eyes looked at Eiren when he arrived before the girl. The sighing again sounded along with Elio who was sitting on the floor and started to stare at Eiren's face fixedly.

“Why are you sleeping here again?” he muttered softly with fingers stroking his lover's cheeks slowly, tucking in a few strands of hair that covered Eiren's face.

Eiren who was still asleep in his sleep was disturbed by the soft rubbing of Elio's hand and opened his eyes. His eyes looked at Elio with a typical view of waking up.

"You home?” ask Eiren weakly.

“Why are you sleeping here, Eiren?” Elio asked back.

“I ask you, Elio,” grumbled Eiren with a slanted body and looked at Elio's face so close.

Elio nodded and smiled. “I miss you,” he said as he slowly kissed Eiren's forehead.

Eiren who got a light kiss just kept quiet and faint. I'm just trying to enjoy my current role, Elio. Before in the end I will leave you forever, Inner Eiren.

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