The Not To Be Regrettable

61. Recognition

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Throughout the event, Vallery felt unsettled. His mind rages on with the possible fact that Carissa ever conceived a phallus child. Her husband did not admit it, but judging from his girly he can guess correctly that Carissa was indeed pregnant with a child Lingga. Imagining this fact was really painful for him. His mind does not accept. What kind of friendship do they make that leads to pregnancy?

As much as he tried to think positively, but still he could not understand. No feelings, no special relationship but ever been pregnant? Is friendship really that? Inner assuming.

"We're going home now."

Vallery then turned towards Lingga. Stared at the husband for a while, he then nodded in agreement shortly after.

On the way home, the car seemed quiet. No one started the chat, neither Very nor Lingga, both chose to be equally silent.

"Bak Carissa isn't pregnant with your child, is she?"

Lingga chose not to answer immediately, the man remained silent for a while and then sighed. "We'll talk later, Vallery. You change clothes to clean up first."

"But I need that answer right now, Mom. Is it hard to say yes or no?" urge Very impatient. The flash of anger was clearly visible on both of his eyes.

"I need a lot of time to clear everything up. Not just a yes or no."

Hearing Lingga's reply, Vallery snorted. "So really?"

"Vallery," call Lingga in a frustrated tone.

"You don't have to answer that it's clear that Ms. Carissa was pregnant with your child." Very laughed, "so how many women am I? How many women have you hamili?"

Inflamed Linga Emotions. There was a feeling of not accepting that he felt. He felt unable to bear.

"What do you mean, Vallery? You don't say anything, I'm not a nice guy, Vallery, I admit. But you should know, I'm not as bad as you think. I'm not like that. I still know the limits."

The atmosphere this time was suddenly gloomy. Both Linga and Vallery, both of them are equally shrouded in emotion. Still no one wants to give up, or just relieve his emotions.

"We got married because I got pregnant first, Mas. We even do it when we don't know each other. Just know each other's names. What kind of boundaries do you mean?"

The phallus is getting more emotional. "You're blaming me for your pregnancy?"

Very quick shakes. "No. I'm just asking what limits do you mean, Mom? You said Ms. Carissa is the same you do not have a special relationship, you yourself said and confirmed that you are only friends, like I was with Nick. I believe it, Mas." His eyes could not stand the puddle, but this time Veryery cried, "although it felt like I was inferior and hesitant, but I tried to think positively about your relationship. You promised you'd seriously look after me as our baby. I believe it, Mas. But what do I get? You're missing me."

The phallus grew frustrated when he saw Vallery crying. In his heart he cursed violently while grabbing his own hair.

"I know, I was wrong, Vallery. I'm sorry." That's all Lingga can say, the man seemed frustrated about to say more. As if being caught cheating and confused to do.

"So Miss Carissa really did get pregnant with your child?" reset Very.

It took a little longer until Lingga finally nodded.

Shock and disbelief are now feeling Very. Heart's broken. He cried after that. Hearing the confession directly from the Linga made it feel even more painful.

Guilt is eating away at Linga. He was approaching Vallery. But the woman chose to retreat.

"Let's have time to catch myself, Mom."

"I can explain, Vallery. You have to hear the full version so you don't think weird."

Very agree. "Okay, clear now!"

"We sit down first. I made tea."

Lingga then told Vallery to sit on the sofa while Lingga rushed to the kitchen to make tea. Soon after, Lingga returned with a tray of two cups of tea and biscuit bread.

"Drink first" said Lingga while handing a cup of tea to Vallery.

Although actually reluctant, Vallery still received the cup. Sip a little and then put the cup back on the table.

Linga took a deep breath before starting her story. "You're fine, don't cut my sentence in the least."

Despite wanting to protest, Vallery eventually nodded.

"Me and Carissa are friends. We are purely friends, if asked if we ever had any special feelings, the answer is no. We do feel comfortable with each other, but that feeling is nothing more than the comfort of a friend." Linga paused her sentence, then turned to Vallery, the expression of the wife he could not guess. He took a deep breath and then continued.

"We are busy pursuing our own careers. Our love affairs are equally lousy, our parents already know each other closely. They advised us to get married, at first we refused but in the end we agreed."

Very looks like he wants to interrupt. However, the Linga quickly held him back.

"Let me finish first."

Again Vallery was only able to nod resignedly.

"We agreed to start the commitment and plan the wedding. However, fate said another, during the wedding, it turns out we realize that we can not be more than just friends let alone as a couple. We finally got married. Both families are disappointed with our decision. However, in the end it couldn't do anything because of all we were undergoing."

"So how can Miss Carissa get pregnant?"

The phallus looks hesitant when it wants to say it. Her lips are like a mute.

"Mas," call Vallery impatient. Curiosity has become. He hates to assume the no-no. Brain's tired.

"We're khilaf."

"What?"

Linga frustration. He turned his face towards her while rubbing his hair back.

"Sorry, Vallery, my past is too bad to tell."

"What bad? Drink and do****free?"

With a shy holding expression, Lingga nodded, confirming. Both of his eyes were agitated.

"But not as free as you think."

"How free do I think I am?"

"I don't sleep with other women. You're the first woman who was a stranger to me, other than all of you I had a relationship with. Because we're lovers."

"Then what about Carissa?"

"Just friend benefit."

"Friend benefit?" repeat Veryery with a vibrating sound. The sentence kept spinning in his brain like a broken cassette, "how long?"

Vallery looks angry. "Why can't you answer, Mom? Is it that hard?"

Linga nodded, confirming. "Better you don't know. Because if you knew, it would hurt more, Vallery."

"Okay, you're right, I shouldn't know." Vallery nodded as he rubbed his wet cheeks, "when was the last time you did it?"

"I don't remember," I'm honest Lingga, "Rissa is rare in Indonesia."

"What about the baby's condition?"

Linga shook. "He doesn't exist. Rissa miscarried because she didn't know she was pregnant."

"You're sure he's your son?"

The phallus turned to Vallery. "What do you mean? He does like to change partners, but you do not talk carelessly about him so. He must know better who the father of the baby that was conceived, Vallery. He can't lie."

"Do you like him?"

"Astagfirullah, Very! What the hell are you talking about?"

Vallery laughed and then shook his head. "I don't know, Mom. My mind's fucked."

"I wasn't as good as you thought I was, I was wrong. But you should know, if I'm really sincere with you. I love you, Very."

"I need a break."

After saying that, Vallery immediately got up to his feet and climbed into the room. While the phallus is only able to cater for his folly in the past. He thought he could bury his dark past. But it turns out he was wrong.

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"His face is that great? Wh why? Did you get it last night?" seduce Carissa after entering the house.

He put down his sling bag and sat down on one of the sofas. His eyes dizzy looking for the whereabouts of Vallery.

"Where is your wife?"

"In room. Angry."

"Because of me again? What am I abis? I also did not meet you guys, I was with Randu. This time because of what?"

Lingga sighs resignedly. "For my past."

Carissa crossed her legs. "Why? Seingetku your track record is good? Rarely changing girlfriends, never hire a woman carelessly to muasin themselves. What kind of past made him angry?" kepo tanyanya.

"He knew you were pregnant with my son."

Carissa immediately closed her mouth spontaneously. "Seriosly? How can? I had even forgotten to have been pregnant with your child, Ga." she chuckled shortly after.

"Can you still laugh?"

Carissa cengennesan's. "Yes, I can't imagine that, Ga. I've been pregnant with your child, imagine that until I mengahirin your child make amused yourself."

"Kok he can tell?" carissa continued with her curious face.

"There's a friend whose mouth doesn't have a filter."

"Who? A stretcher? Does she know I'm pregnant with your child?"

Linga shook. His three best friends did not even know about this matter.

"No. No one knows them."

"Keep who?"

"Erik."

"What?! Damn, that jerk is a guy. How could he know?"

Linga shook her head while chuckling. "If the matter of speaking aja very fluent Indo lo language."

"What? My Indonesian language is good and fluent. Abject to you," Carissa protested.

"But you can't talk lo-gue," ledek Lingga.

"I can, just not be comfortable" Carissa said in self-defense.

Beside him, Lingga simply nodded in agreement. His expression returned grim. This makes Carissa could not bear to see it.

"How do you plan to do this? You want me to explain to Vallery that we don't have any more relationships. It was just an accident, we also do not often bother to do it. He must know the truth. I talked to him, huh?"

"No, let me tell you myself. But can I ask for help?"

Without a doubt, Carissa nodded confidently. "What?"

The phallus stared at Carissa intensely and shook her head afterwards. "Not being."

"God! Okay, I know, don't tell me I understand. You want me out of your house, right?"

The phallus grimaced with an unpleasant expression. "Sorry, Ris" he said with regret.

"It's okay, I also have to go back to Paris. I'm getting bored here, there's nothing to be done. Randu I don't want to, but I feel like clicking with him."

"Abroad! Don't macem-macem you with him, our assets he's tuh. You can't contaminate his brain. Good boy he."

Carissa was immediately blown away when she heard the Lingga's words. "And I want to be the same plain-solid machine-kayak Randu, Ga."

"No! Anyone can just don't be Pandu!" The phallus shook firmly as a sign of rejection.

"Keep who? Gilang?"

"You want to be an actor?" cynical Linga

"Relieve it! If you want to be an actor, the candidate is ka.mu... Ow hell! Pain, Ga! Joking doang, my gosh!"

Angry phallus is not playing with a joke Carissa who thinks is not funny at all. As a result the sofa cushion landed, hitting Carissa's smooth face.

Tbc,