The Night Woman Repents
THE WMB 87
after he hit me, kamren kmaren.
in January 2007 I was a month late ...
yes almost two years also I was pregnant at the end, I think I have a fever, dizziness not passionate..
" let's inject to the midwife, later it will not be treated suck" said arul
" come on" said me .
arul take me to the midwife , until there I am in the exam ..because in the village there is no doctor , so to the midwife sja
" mother has menstruated" said the doctor .
" oh it's my 12 month blum month dok?" said me again , forget me if not menstruation .
" like pregnant women, let's testpeck" said midwife .
I'm on the midwife tespeck, and her results are 2 lines thick, instantly arul happy ...
god's end has up ruining my prayer.
which I have been waiting for a long time ...
gleefully bought milk, and told me to rest ....
yeah her start was good, cyg with me, excess attention, because I was pregnant her child ....
at the age of 7 months pregnant, our economy is soaring, our sales are big profits, maybe this is the child's rezeky in my stomach .
but there also arul mengulah , he often came home late, I was silent, afraid my fetus was sad...
" why go home late? , is it because of a lot of money ?" say me .
" don't get mad, I'm looking for more for our little one to be born!" said arul .
" oh look for extras on my "ketus card .
" don't begin to provoke my emotions" said arul lying in the room .
" give up I'm lazy to make a fuss "my word .
" here I want to hold my son" said arul while holding my stomach .
arul I love you, but that was when you proposed to me and married me. I know you won't change, my love has died since you hit me , if not from your own conscience .....
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until I was 9 months pregnant still arul, not brubah too ....
the 9th month of 2007 was born our beautiful daughter, thick-browed, small pointed nose, and had thin and tiny lips...
we named raisya ananda ,,
arul is very happy, because I gave a beautiful princess like India ...
arul did change but only for a moment .
when our baby was 5 months old ....
I help sales arul ..I sell around with my bike ,,
yes fish sale ..
" fish, fish, fish, fish ," my screams called out to customers at the village stiap ..
" nya fish" said the buyer .
I'm full of passion to sell, yes I'm a super woman who doesn't like to stay home when my child is born .
again pregnant I still look for money by selling acc that I made myself, long necklace used to sell hard that year..
I trus walk in the upper village , from 10 am to 6 pm, my son does not breastfeed ,, he drinks formula milk ...
my chest is big but the water is small, maybe my chest is sulking because it is special for his father ahahaha ..
this afternoon my fish was not finished yet, I was still wandering around where my feet were ..
it was my struggle to help my husband.
after the fish was gone, I went home
" has the fish gone ?" arul
" just finished thankfully" said I .
" how come cyg quickly home, how did the fish run out too?" say me again
" it's over "said arul ...
" are the other members home ?" say me .
" it's all coming home, it's their deposit!" said arul .
we make our own boiled fish at home, his factory in the back .
we have 3 members ,
arul and I also peddled fish in the village .....
every day that we do, money was collected not enough ,,,
I collected money for a plan to contract the house ..it is impossible to ride high school mom and dad..
morning when going to sell ..
" ckckc where I keep it. I like to keep it here my savings,!" muttered to myself.
my money is lost, I look for it can not, in that money my sale. I laboriously collect ,,,
" there can't be a thief, who knows I keep money here just my husband" muttered me ...
" yun yun, your son cried" said the mother who cooked in the kitchen .
" tow mak "say me .
I also forgot my money for a moment, while changing my son's pants that peed again ..
done that I went on looking for my lost money ,,,
but also not met..
because the day starts at noon I sell again just first ......
I also sold my bike ride, when I sold in the lower village near the river ...
I found my husband's fish basket.
my heart asked me, 'Why fish basket is here. isn't he selling ...
I tried to peep it turns out oh it turns out, this depraved husband is gambling again ...
" arullllllll !!!! " my triac from under the river ..
at once he was surprised, and immediately jumped to meet me ,,,,
" you yes!! , I die and sell, you are good here ! . My money you stole too!! , that's money for us , for our son, I collected it not for my pleasure ,,,, !?" I snapped while hitting her in the chest ...
" silence!! , do not be here if you want to make a fuss, my fish has run out anyway I am looking for entertainment let our money be double, I just play cards. not a maen woman !! " katus arul ...
" you can't change yes, '!!, I'm disappointed , quickly you're done that's all, or I'm screwing up your place !!! , " I said while lighting up my mama's motorbike, which I use to sell .
our own motor arul who brought ...
when I found him in the gambling parlour, sad his taste,, dead and I fought the heat trick until my skin was clean was charred due to exposure to sunlight. but not appreciated. ....
on the way I sell my fish , let it run out quickly. This is enough I sell, pain I help my husband if after all his money in making gambling ...
vain my sweat ,, vain all ...
when I want to go home I meet with ndar and wati. ..
" yun yun "call ndar from afar .
" ndar,,, wati "my word on the bike ..
we also stopped on this palm path.
" yun brubah you yes, udak so mother mother, kok so black you yun. because the sale is yes, but still beautiful kok eheheh" said ndar.
"he ndar, this is a fish I've run out of "my word again .
" sit here , we crita crita , it's been a long time we did not join , just a moment yesterday see your child , " said ndar .
" we are afraid yun to your house, about your husband will be fierce, what else join us, sorry yun" said wati .
" it's okay woi. it's my fate " said me .
I also confided with them , about the behavior of my husband who does not want to brubah , I think in the love of the child he will make his real no , they were sad ...
" if the king is still alive, surely he is marrying you yun, he is kind and gentle, he said politely" said ndar ...
" huss ndar, your mouth, do not say that, this is already the hand line of each person" said wati ..
hearing the words ndar immediately I cried sobbing in the plukan mreka ...
I can no longer bear this inner torment ...
" already yun, now you focus on your child, kasian he is still a child, your child you take care of in " said ndar.
" he yun, do not you think about the behavior of your husband, take care of your child, spirit if you are sad see your child" said wati .
" thank you woi. I am calm because I met klen , only klen who would like to understand me, from our time Junior High" said me ...
when we finished our conversation, this crazy husband turned out to be passing by and angry..
" pulangg!?!? , sell kok chat, pain klen there ??? " said arul ..
" my fish is over, so I can't talk to my friend "get back to me .
" yun we go home yes, it's okay yun, besides your husband is already here" said ndar and wati .
" clen no longer need to say say sma yunita, ok ," said arul .
" hey bang, before you know your brother's wife, we have known for a long time.You have memorized his nature, do not have to say that " said ndar ...
" i told you not to , you hear me !!" said arul .
" i'm sorry my husband is that, yes, you can go home" said me .
ndar and wati went home , their faces were tight I don't think I liked my husband either...
" satisfied you are, make my friend go face it "snaps me ...
" you sell what gossip, you want to scratch huh hah, it's enough you used to itch !!" ketus arul .
" now you see it's over, eh I don't think you're out of fish, money doesn't look !!?" I said while hitting the fish basket .
" have fought now yes, have been good against yes, yes, go home ayok "said arul .
" go home first, I want to calm down,
I've been going crazy over your treatment all this time!!" snatch me
" go home I said !!" arul
" indeed, if the stone meets the stone will never be finished, yes, I have been water for you, slalu tried to give in, making sure I give you a massage !!!" said triak triak .
" go home I say ,, at home finished , don't be ashamed on this road !?:" snapped arul
" no I don't want to, please understand me once, I don't want arull!" my truck
" oh want to play force yes, , come to where your power is strong as my compulsion huh!!" arul said gripping my hand .
" it hurts !!" let go !!" said I don't want to go with her .
forcibly got me on my bike ,,,,
and we went home ....
with our storm ...
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when my son was 9 months old in 2008 we were spilled due to his gambling ,,, members on the run ..
I haven't helped him in a long time, either, because I'm upset...
for what I sold his money was stolen when I saved ,,,, our economy was completely squeezed ..
here is our great quarrel ...
" trus playing gambling, and gambling, I can't stand it anymore like you!!!" say me .
" so what do you want huh!!? , what do you want !?" arul said he wanted to hit me .
" you don't know to be watered, so please realize, please save our child he is still a child, please I ask for help, ', if this is how I can't stand I ask for a divorce !!!!!!!!" snatch me
"plakkkk plaakm" his last punch stuck to my cheek ....
" it's good that you berate me, my mama never cursed me !!! " ketus arul grabbed my hair.
" let me say, ', take your hand off!! , if you don't take it off, I'll triak and get out of here" I said in tears .....
his hands stopped grabbing me, enough arul. I could not stand 3 years I fought it was not brubah also ...
I started raw when his treatment was last time on me ....
I'd like to split up, but I'm my mom's kasian ..
since the incident he hit me again ..
I never spoke to her ..
joking in our household
there is no more .....
we talk only as necessary ,,,,
when she fucked me, I swear I was numb, my love has gone ...
my love's been dead to him ever since his hands played to me.
I don't care anymore about her ..
" yun your son cried" said mama .
" he mak "say me .
I look at my son, what is wrong I God think I, I think I married will be happy, it is not .......
rice has become porridge, I have to live my fate this, although bitter I taste right ...
" take my meal" said arul .
" patience, raisya is still drinking" I said .
I take his meal even though it is not sincere, he was unemployed , sometimes came home with money, came home smelly drink. ....
my mom asked, but I covered .
I think he was suspicious ..until today my mother interfered .
" how is rule? , how do you get a new job?" said my mother .
" not yet ma'am, kyaknya I want to wander aja bu out of town. om I have business there, less members "said arul .
" oh so you want to wander, it is your child's rule already there, so you have to gather and gather again raisya great raisya" said mama .
" he opens next week I leave. try to go there first, if it is well established, I bring yunita and raisya there " said arul .
cih firmly established, if gambling is not lost right when the established ,, ? I thought in the heart
go away are you, if you can not go home again. hand over what people want to say, all this time I survive ...
I'm trying to fix all this.
appreciating all her, sacrifice my inner pressure to resist the same shame mama , ..
this time I won't give up again ,
I swear I'm sick and hate arul.
women will not be steadfast in gini right trus continuously....
bullshit lady can stand at husband's
in his inner torment ,, no one is patient .
except in sinetron ....
