The Love of the Widow

Chapter 9. Blurred.

I got out of the room with sobs and brought my suitcase.

My father and mother-in-law, who were sitting watching the news in the living room, were shocked to see me.

"Where are you going? " ask Dian my sister-in-law while stopping the Korean film she is watching.

"Sir Aina wants to go first." I replied to her.

"Aina said sir, Buk, please let's all eat Aina's drink while being father and mother's daughter-in-law! " i said while greeting them.

"What's really going on, son? you got into a fight with Rayhan? " Ask my father-in-law.

"Let Mas Rayhan alone explain Sir! " answer.

I went out of the house with my suitcase.

Rayhan was surprised to see me.

Immediately released the hand grip Doctor Rio.

"Aena? going Where? " ask her nervously.

"I've seen all of them. I'm going home to the boarding house. I'm waiting for divorce papers from Mas huh?!!" I said hold back the anger.

"But why? You misunderstood Aina. This is doctor Rio who became therapist Mas" she explained to me.

"Mas.. I've seen all of them.! no one misunderstood. I saw with my own eyes you guys kissing Mas!! my eyes are still very normal!!! And it can't be wrong to see. Enough Mas.!! When are you going to lie to me?? every lie will be discovered?!!" I said again with a high enough tone.

I can't hold back my emotions.

I show him all my heart.

I was angry even to the point of revealing his face.

The doctor just looked at me in shock.

Maybe he didn't expect my reaction to be this exaggerated.

I came out of the fence with unstoppable tears.

With the taxi I ordered I went to the boarding school where I used to live when I was not married.

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Aunt Rahmi was surprised to see me coming with a suitcase while crying.

He immediately brought me a glass of water to drink.

"Why? What the hell's going on? you got into a fight with Rayhan? Husband wife betengkar It's ordinary Aina! no need to run away from home! " aunty Rahmi said as she rubbed my back slowly.

I hugged him while crying sobbing.

He stroked my head slowly.

I gather my strength to discern everything that has happened these past three months.

He hugged me again.

I came back crying.

"So how do you want? " ask her to me.

"I don't know Nte either. I'm confused!?! " answer.

"have you rest now.! We will talk again tomorrow! " Aunty Rahmi told me.

I close my wet eyes.

My mind is far off.

"What do I need to bend, ALLaH? How do I explain to my parents in the village? Is divorce the best way? My marriage just happened Three months ago, should it end this way? " i am in my heart.

I got out of bed.

I'm heading out to the bathroom.

I washed my face which was hot and painful in the eyes.

maybe because I cry too much.

I took the water to calm my heart.

I Try to pray istikharah asking for guidance of ALLAH SWT.

I poured out all my turmoil in a bated cry over a blue container.

"Take Me, O GOD..!!" I whispered again in prayer.

I feel so Tired.

I saw the clock on the wall of the room showing 02.40WIB.

I'm putting my body on top of it.

Back I'm privileged.

And then I felt my eyes start to get sleepy.

"May I get some brightness tomorrow in the face of this problem! Aamij!! " i said again in my heart.

The sound of rain suddenly roared from outside the house.

I'm feeling back to what my heart is.

"Help Me O ALLAH!! Give me strength!! " i said in my heart.

Again..

I came back crying.