The Love of the Widow

Chapter 32. Ainaraku Darling Ainaraku Malang

The Suratan of destiny cannot be denied.

All have become the provisions of the Creator.

Everything that lives will come back to him.

Ainaraku.

The painful news I got when I had just finished praying Isha and was sitting down praying for her healing.

Mila's sister gave me the sad news.

He followed me to the Mushalla hospital.

Hugged my body from behind while sobbing.

I felt my body tremble strongly in his arms.

I slowly opened the face I was wearing.

Mila led me to the PICU room where Ainara was in intensive care .

My mother-in-law hugged me tightly.

He fainted right in front of me.

Father, Mila and a nurse immediately helped her.

I went into the room.

No more seeing medical devices in my son's body.

His whole body was covered in blankets.

I open slowly.

I looked at her little face as if she was sleeping.

My heart feels so painful.

It hurts more than when I lost Randy.

I gently stroked her straight hair.

I see my tears flowing.

Kupeluk Him.

I carried her already helpless body.

"Ainara... wake up son!!! do not leave Mama... !!!!!Mama can't take Nara. Awake Nak.. We're going home yuk!!!" I said with a trembling voice.

Ainara did not respond.

And all dark.

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I sat in front of my son's body.

Mom and Mama-in-law flank me left right.

None of the mourners came I ignored.

My mind is far away.

My eyes continued to look at the face of my little angel who was now wrapped in a shroud.

My heart broke when Mira came to hug me and kiss Ainara's body right in front of me.

I went back unconscious.

I wasn't even strong enough to take Ainara's body to the funeral.

My body is so weak yak is helpless.

I feel like a dazed person.

For three nights of study Ainara took place, not once did I get out of my room.

I'm sick and have a high fever.

I just lay in bed hugging the last shirt Ainara wore before she died.

Mom went into the room.

"Drink a little warm tea, son! let there be a little energy!" he said he gave me a glass of warm tea

I sat on the edge of the bed, obeying his orders.

Mother stroked my hair, her face teary.

"All has become the provisions of ALLAH dear. You must be strong through all this! Ainara was already happily gathered with her Papa. They must be sad to see their mom like this!!" mother told me.

"Aina also wants to join them Buk..!! Why is Aina alone. Aina wants to come with them!" I said crying in my mother's arms.

"Astagfirullah.. istigfar Aina..!!! GOD does not test a servant beyond his means. GOD knows what is best for his people. Maybe behind everything that's happened there'll be a rainbow for you. Grieving because being lived by loved ones is natural. But you have to remember, we are all just the creation of GOD. The world we live in is only temporary. And every living thing will return to him. Just waiting for the time of the determination of our owner. So, I hope you can be strong and strong living it. Multiply the istigfar and ask forgiveness to the Creator. I'm sure you can get through this.It's not easy, but trust me, I'll always be there to strengthen you!!" his advice while kissing my forehead.

I was still crying sobbing in his arms.

"Astagfirullah.." I said slowly.

"Keep Me in the face of your trials, O ALLAH..!! Titip My husband and son are in your arms. Find us one day in your paradise, O ALLAH.!!Aamiin" I said in my heart.

"Goodbye to my Ainaraku. The jewel of my heart.My little angel.Having you is the best thing in my life. God will gather us back in his heaven. Aamiin!" I say it again in my heart.