The Long Way to Be a CEO

Just go!

Not long ago I always dreamed about a time when I was a child, maybe because I was missing them. almost 10 years did not know the state of my father and sisters.

One time the three of us were hide-and-seek, and I looked for the two of them who were hiding, running from one room to another in the family home. Running around chasing my sisters, they are very good if hiding, even now I find it difficult to find them.

Looking around every corner but not finding my sisters Felisha and Yuniar. Maybe they're in mom's room, I was looking for them there but they were stopped by uncle.

“Where are you?” he said to me that was heading to my mother's room.

“Uncle Gani.. See Yuni and Feli?, we're playing hide and seek, but they don't know where”. I asked about the existence of the two annoying creatures.

“They are in the hospital, now you are with uncle to follow there”. Why go to the hospital, if something happened to you. I wondered to my uncle but he kept silent not to tell me.

We got in the car and headed to the hospital. Hope Light. The road jammed making the vehicle we used stopped on several roads leading to the hospital. Sitting in the back with uncle Gani, he looks worried for some reason.

“What is uncle..” he suddenly just stroked my hair

“Nothing..” he said later and get ready with the bag he was carrying to get out of the car because it had reached the parking lot at the south gate of RS.

“Come on..” he took my hand and invited me into the RS, enter the elevator and I was still amazed by the attitude of uncle who is usually always cheerful now there is almost no smile that adorns his old face.

“Actually why are we here uncle, who is sick?” tanyaku and uncle just kept quiet without giving any answer.

A few minutes later we arrived at a VVIP room with several people sitting in the front seats of the outpatient room. There was Feli and also Yuni my sisters accompanied by our maidservant Yamah.

“Feli, Yuni why are you crying, we were playing, I was looking for you both turned out to be here.” I said to them.

“Sister, Mom will recover right sister?.” They both approached and hugged. I still don't understand the situation we were in at the time.

We waited a long time, no matter what we were waiting for, almost half an hour on the bench waiting in front of the room. The cold air and also the smell of various medicines pierced my nose, very uncomfortable.

“Mbak, mother why.. What pain mom?” my mother turned her head towards me, her eyes were all about to cry and made me wonder what was going on, and why she came into this hospital room.

“who is patient yes. pray mommy to get well and can gather again and play with you and the younger siblings” her voice is weak to hear, he said, there is a deep sense of sadness seen from the look on the face of mbak yayah and also uncle gani.

After a long wait, the doctor and the nurse in a long white uniform with a stethoscope still hanging from the doctor's neck approached us all. We stood up and asked about the situation of my mother.

There were a lot of things that the doctors were talking about, and I didn't really understand what they were talking about at the time, I just heard at a glance that mom managed to come to her senses from this month-long coma.

“Patients are aware and can be taken, just do not be too noisy and should not be visited by many people”. The doctor left us all to walk to another room followed by uncle Gani, maybe there is something else to tell the uncle about his illness.

It felt so soothing when he rubbed my back and hair. His eyes were a little bit frenzied and not so focused on looking at me. After 1 month of unconsciousness, our mother regained consciousness, even so I still do not understand what disease makes mom to a long coma in the hospital and I am happy that day Mother can be there for me and my sisters.

“Kakak.. have you eaten?” mother asked in a very quiet voice but I could still hear.

“Already bu.”

“Sister do not nakalin your sisters continue yes. as a man you are obliged to take care of your brothers”. He said then he grabbed the hands of my sisters sitting on the edge of my mother's bed.

“Iya Ma'am, I miss Ibu” .

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Memories come up in a very fitting time and place, I miss my mother a lot, after a long time leaving home, she said, mala mini was so very sad because there were no brothers who accompanied me for tomorrow.

The most historic day that I will bear as the husband of the woman I love so much to protect her for the rest of my life until death do us part.

It feels so easy, on a special day no family accompanies, there is a sense of disappointment and also sadness. Maybe I feel a little guilty for leaving home for a long time, leaving my sisters who may now be big and beautiful.

Supposedly as an older brother, I should not be selfish and obey my father's desire to continue business college and occupy a position in his company continue in the company he started from the beginning of his career first.

Like what my mother said at that time, the obligation to take care of my sisters could not be completed properly, I could not, I feel ashamed and helpless to remember what my mother's message was to me before she took her last breath and made many big changes in the family, especially to the father who shortly after my mother died, my father was more silent in his study and also in the office, there was hardly any time for the three of us as his children.

Dad became a forger, always forcing his will on the three of us, there was not much choice for us other than to obey his will. Finally, after graduating from High School I also ventured away from home, after my father yelled at me for not following his desire to continue studying in the wild country to study at a good university in the field of business.

"Go from here, if you don't want to obey my orders!" father's sentence at that time made me hurt and ventured to leave at that time without bringing any money.

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The fact is I am a coward, can not convince parents of my life choices and prefer to flee to Jakarta and study in the Department of Information Technology as I want. I don't understand what business is and the like, I just love the world of computers and the internet which has become my hobby since childhood.

After so far, it seems impossible to regret what I started, at least I have to show myself to be a person that many people and families can be proud of, I will stand with the principle of life that I hold without having to hold hands with my father.

Deep down, I miss them all. Especially the sisters I love very much. I don't know if I show up in front of them, whether everyone wants to accept myself back into the family or not. Probably not either.

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