The Long Story

CHAPTER ELEVEN

No child wants to be hated without cause by his mother even he himself bangtung must say sorry or just be quiet , ' he said , he asked himself what was wrong ? Why am I the one who is venting your anger, why should I ? What is this self-power ? Sometimes it is hard to understand the world.

The world is too cruel for a weak child, who is difficult to resist even putting out a word, he said, what a woman in educated to be strong face all problems and exams even insults what I sehina it like a disgusting garbage 😣😣😣.

I am also human like the others, even a tail of animals will keep and protect his child from all dangers instead of , even when he gets a meal he will share it with his son.

But I,,,,,,, was, uh,,,,,,

Even more sad than her , not cared about and not ignored, buuuu I also want to know what my fault is I know my mother but healthy you set a good example for your child not the other way around,.

No matter how bad you are, no matter how much you are still my mother, I know that I realize that but why do you vent your hatred only to me, venting your anger is also only to me while the three of us why only me. 😭😭.

While getting your anger, I only kept silent a thousand languages, and held back the tears that wanted to fall and turn it into a smile even I tried to laugh.

Buuu I want your love back to me, I want to be pampered again like I was a child who was always loving and loving. Not hatred.

Even when I am silent like a rock cannot freeze the hardness of your heart, I always pray that you will always be given happiness wherever you are not sadness..

No child who just keeps silent because his mother is hurt by others will not exist, because a child wants his parents to be not sad.

Whoever it will be no one willing to watch her mother's tears flow surely she will also feel the sadness without having her say it but rather harbored it instead.

I wanted to hug you but didn't I do it because of what ? Because I'm afraid of your anger, I can only hug your shadow from a distance so you can feel that warmth but not your anger does not even dampen.

***God is wrong I am against the wrong if I am silent but why his anger feels so painful from the thorn in my hand,

I feel like I can't hold back that hatred even my tears fall down in front of you I tear I hold hunger, I hold hunger,

O Allah strengthen me with your trials, do not be angry and soften his heart, O Allah***.

Give him awareness and give him the right path to open the door of his heart.

I just want him to smile open sad.

Because I knew it would be difficult to repay her services I knew it would not be possible because I too a woman would become a mother as well.

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You who will become a mother and father do not vent your anger on your child as they do not know what your problem is ? Do not spread hatred to her so that she feels that revenge is not good for her.

Give a good example to your children and grandchildren someday then happiness will envelop your family even warmth will be scattered among you all