The Long Story

MISSED THE FATHER FIGURE

Sometimes I like to think negatively,

I'm part of them, isn't it? ***Gue his flesh blood ngak, kok rich gini really, painful times, as if - I will ride here ngak di considered in acuhan even not in care, it hurts, as if,

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Yahhhhhh 😭😭

If father is still alive maybe I will come wherever you go, even living on the streets I would be well as long as I am with you, live happy days yahh.

Yahhhh😢😢😢

I miss your presence, though,

Your hug, your affection yeah,

I still need you in my life well ,

Well it feels like I want to give up on living this life 😢 no where this leg I want to take step yahh*** .

******lest I be given the opportunity to embrace you in this real world I might overflow this emotional, angry, sad, depressed feeling to you yahh, yah,

So that you know how much I need you in my life well you mean so much in my life you're your daughter's first love .

Son lost father called orphan

The child loses both parents in an orphaned cell but if the person loses the child there is no call

They just meet their own needs is me while I still ask that even then sometimes can ngak, sometimes I have to resist my own desires😢😢, I still want to, it feels sad when I nolongin mother selling without any pocket money but I never complain still just wrong.

I resisted my wishes but he got what he could without him realizing the rights of the orphans he had been eating without wanting to share and love ,

Notah what they want from my presence, want me destroyed even I ever want to be kicked out of the house that I consider comfortable but real hell for me 😢😢, , I often nanggis in silence it's hard what's my fault what because I look the same father .

Is not the child a blessing and sustenance for his parents but different from me, I like a disaster that only nyudahin life ngak berrti in his life.

***Yahhhh it feels tired if rich gini, tired of having to give up, tired to keep going - keep strong yahh, tired of surviving in this situation well, tired of surviving in this situation,

Wellh it feels like I want to come to nature but it's a sin, yahhh😭😭😭

How many more tears should I shed, how much more patience I hold how much power I desire , yahh give your son a path that can protect me from his cruel life that can keep, that you can entrust yahh I need protection, affection, yahh***.

The painful thing for her daughter is not actually a broken heart, a breakup , but left behind by his first love olrh father figure who left him for eternity it is the most painful even the cure did not exist.

You used to stretch play not too far but now you're the one playing too far so it's hard for me to find where you are .

You are the light of my life and you are also the lamp of my life, parents who should give a good example and role model to imitate their children but this instead has a bad impact to imitate.

This is not what I want and I want not the hatred I seek but rather the affection not the treasure I want but your care buuuu