The Fate Or Destiny

Eps. 67. Learning to live without you

One afternoon, the construction workers had gone home, Keke standing in the second floor area with papa Ramly watching the work today. The terrace that used to be a sun-wash has changed connected with the new building, the plan of the area for an additional two rooms. The poles are finished, just wait for the time to continue casting the third floor.

“Here so room Ike aja, after marriage definitely need a bigger room.”

“My room is now quite spacious pa... this is papa room aja.”

“Let's use that Ike room, papa is also not every day here right... Here there is one more room, if there are other families come and stay there is available room.”

Keke did not answer, this building on the initiative is also the cost of papa, its function is like what Keke is to accept only. The presence of papa and Ben makes Ike no longer decide anything on his own even when it comes to his life, learning to accept others to give or think about his comfort.

“Pa..”

Lody's voice rang out later, now standing by Keke's side. Lody embraced Keke and gave a smile, Keke retorted with a small smile on his face. This older brother does not limit their interaction anymore, he is a warm person maybe because big with papa so papa's attitude is contagious to him. Before Keke knew Lody's feelings for Inge, he was not as relaxed as he now accepted the warmth of Lody's attitude. Papa stopped inspecting the building and walked into the dining room, Lody and Keke followed.

“Drink what brother?”

“Black coffee To... if any.”.

“There's a brother, a minute yes..”

Lody sat around the dining table with papa.

“You're leaving?”

“Iya pa... tomorrow morning. Tonight stay here..”.

“Sister Lody where to go?”

Keke came up with a cup of hot black coffee and put it in front of Lody.

“Mau to Malang..”

“There's an event?”

“Sister work plan there, there is a sister friend who offers..”.

“Loh... which Tomohon who takes care of if brother Lody leaves?”

“There is Elon, all this time her brother who helped, she can kok, the person responsible also.”

Papa looks sad Lody finally decided to leave. He said it two months ago, it turned out he was serious.

“Kak... papa need brother Lody loh, why go?”

Lody was silent, it was hard for him to answer Keke's question because he knew it was true. He could not bear to leave papa Ramly, especially about the business of work on the plantation. These two months he hesitated and kept weighing, but he couldn't work well because of Inge's problems. Inge's attitude towards her deeply disturbed her heart, and she was not strong in the face of Inge's rejection. He can't stop loving Inge, a love he's too late to realize. But he had to learn to live without Inge, stretching the distance with Inge was the best way he thought.

“Go, papa let you go but remember your house is with papa, do not hesitate to go home again if you are not comfortable there. Go, you also need experience, men should have a lot of life experience.”

Papa Ramly looked at his son for a moment then stood up and entered the room. Keke could see the eyes of the crystallized papa.

“Kak... papa sad it seems..”.

Lody just looked down, he knew the papa's heart, the papa's affection for him. But he couldn't think of any other way to arrange his messy heart these days.

“Papa has you, Ke.. there you are, papa will not be too sad.”

“I want to marry you, Brother Lody is not there.”.

“Let's go home by then.”.

“Because Inge right?”

Lody looked at Keke who was sitting in front of him at a glance, looking down again. The sad streak became clearer on that face.

“I was stupid all this time not realizing that I love him, I hurt him a lot. I'm not ready to lose him, but I can't force my feelings now.”

Keke only looked at the tall, burly figure sitting pensively before him. His adoptive brother who is no less handsome with his brother Bensnya, although this brother looks more sturdy posture and brownish skin because it is always in the hot sun. A face that looked sad and so helpless endured his love.

“Inge know?”

“Gak, I'm not saying goodbye.. leave it like that, toch I'm a nobody for him.”.

“He must be sad too, sis... I know how Inge loves Lody too.”.

Lody gave a poignant smile, he knew that too, but perhaps the pain he inflicted on Inge's heart made the affection disappear now.

Some time Keke and Lody, sat there quietly in a different stream of thoughts. Because actually Keke was upset as well, almost two months apart Keke began to know the meaning of longing. There's an uncomfortable feeling waiting for a call from Ben that's so rare this week. In the early weeks there, he called. There was also a feeling of sadness when the phone call from him went unanswered. Holding back the longs turned out to be bad, wondering if sister Bens had no longing either. Ben only promises to control the completion of the early stage work, then leave to take care of their marriage. There are no other appointments, like the one that calls every night.

Since the incident in the kitchen, Papa Ramly has become more protective, asking Keke not to go down directly to cook in the kitchen. Keke asked papa to manage his employees, so he did not need to intervene to arrange all things. Keke only has to control it or just process dessert or food menu that requires expertise, or if the power is needed because of the large number of orders. Time lowongnya so much, automatically turned into a time of longing that torment.

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“Ike... “.

“Iya?”

“Udah to what extent is the marriage preparation?”

Papa asked at breakfast, Since dawn they have been awake because Lody has to go to the airport early in the morning. He didn't want to be ushered in by papa and Keke, just a driver. Finally Keke cooks for papa, and they're at the dinner table now having breakfast at 6am.

“Ehh It.. I think most of it is fixed. Inge knows the details.”.

“Still need how much more, later papa transfer..”

“No need pa... from kak Bens still there..”.

“Papa has told Inge... ready is the best for Ike's wedding..”

“Iya.. Inge talking it...”.

“If money from Ben is not enough tell papa..”.

Keke smiled a little. At that time Ben also said that the money was not enough to tell him. Ike himself was confused by the concept of marriage, he just wanted a simple marriage, he rejected some of Inge's ideas that were too well according to him. Ben could not be invited to discuss, let alone the progress of their wedding preparations, now rarely call just asking for news.

Is he too busy?? Or…?

This sentence always breaks Keke's heart. He knows one fact that all the staff live in one house, the same as here, Ben has his own house. That's a little disturbing, there are female staff in the house too. He was not comfortable with that fact, even though he tried to get rid of the thought. Which makes him a little serene, Bensnya does not have a bad track record about women. But still, he needs news, he needs information.

After the wedding, I don't think he's ready to live far apart like this. Now learning to live without Ben makes him stressed, irritated and sometimes angry after sending a text and not reciprocated.

Brother Bens…. What else is there anyway???

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Sorry, I rarely go up, focus on my mom. He was trying to live without our father, and it was hard for him.

Thank you for praying for my mom.

Blessing 😇

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