The Fate Or Destiny

Eps. 22. Not Wanting Proximity

Sometimes Keke thinks his two great-great-grandson was born to complete his life. Going through many things with them almost three years, taking the role of mom and dad, it was not easy for him. But in time Keke felt that these two boys were the source of happiness and strength for him. Especially the laughter and babbling of the little one so entertainment for himself when cape, sad or depressed.

"Via.. wake up. Now Via must be school, it's healthy right."

"Via doesn't want to go to school with Keke's mom..."

"Why is... still sick?"

The boy just stayed in bed. He is indeed closed, even though he is forced he can not let out his heart, if Keke or Rommel urges or angry Via only let out tears without a sound.

Since Sunday, this kid has been down. Fever for two days. Yesterday it looked healthy, so Keke tried to wake him up to school.

"Well..."

"Yes already... can add another day not school, but tomorrow the promise Via must go to school huh...?"

Keke turned Livia's body gently.

"Tomorrow the school...?"

"But mami Keke who took Via to school..."

"Can... now can also take between kok... to school huh?"

Via shook his head, Keke finally did not force. Ben had said Via had to be taken to a psychologist there may be trauma, but Keke never knew that in this city there is a practice of Psychologists. Via the gloomy and quiet there may be psychic reasons.

"Alright.. but later eat a lot yes to be more healthy.. later afternoon mami Keke make the favorite Donut Via.... huh? This time Via can help make it..."

"Can?"

"Yes. can..."

The gloomy face of the child was a little glowing.he began to like if Keke involved when making something the kitchen. It turns out that it is true said the Benaya, Via must be diverted, given the activity so that he forgets the incident with his papa.

Hmm subconsciously someone started listening to Ben here.

After the kitchen was clean, Via came down from above.

"Mami Keke... When do you make the doughnuts?"

"In a moment yes..the floor is still wet just dipel..just go up again, later mami Keke call Via..."

"Yes... Via can call Ben?"

"Eh.. don't bother me about that busy thing anymore..."

"But Ben said Via can call..."

"Yes, just call, but if it's not answered don't repeat..."

"Yes..borrow mami's phone..."

"There's a dinner table..."

Before long, someone appeared at the side door, still with a work shirt, a white shirt suit that had been rolled up to the elbow with navy cloth pants. Standing at the door, it was not very clear due to the glare of the sunlight, but the silhouette of the body was already attached to Keke's head.

"Replace... "

His line of teeth was visible, he was smiling coming closer to Keke who was preparing the ingredients of the cake. Only today he received a cake order, yesterday he was more accompanying Via as Ben advised...

"Eh.. Doesn't work?"

"There's a. loose again, there's a little time so I'll take it here..."

"Huh... was told to come here the same way Via?"

"Yes..."

"Eh. time followed, again busy right, the Via there-anya..."

"Well, Rens, I haven't been here in two days, miss her..."

And I miss you...

Wanted to say it was Ben, but enough of his eyes were talking, staring at one point, Keke's face. Keke uncomfortable, immediately busy yourself.

Keke did start thinking about Benaya's words at that time, he was approaching someone, was he? Keke was afraid of the possibility, afraid of imagining being close to someone, including Benaya. He knows he can't resist Ben because of the kids, imagining the kids' joy with Ben. It was heartless to snatch it from them, so even if there was an uncomfortable corner of his heart but he had to ignore it.

Keke refuses subtly to interact for long with Ben.

"You want klappertart? I haven't eaten that for a long time..."

"Oh. Make a donut."

"Oh.. kirain.. I'm up..."

"Yes..."

Why would anyone ignore their child, and why would anyone care. Don't know what Ben's basic caring attitude is, but so far he's captured his sincerity in children.

On the one hand, Keke doesn't want to give Ben any more space than the big brother position he used to be, it's more comfortable for him... although honestly he was tempted by a strange but thrilling taste that had appeared, a sense that filled his loneliness, but as soon as he suppressed the taste, kept neatly in the depths of the recesses of his heart.

Three earthy voices rang out, Ben was holding Lisya with one hand, the other hand was holding Via. He looked so loving, but he was none of the two boys. Keke's heart was stirred again, warmed up, but he quickly neutralized his heart.

"Mami Thethe.. This is papi Bipi..."

The carefree babble of the little one in the sling of the proportionate man greeted Keke.

Huh uh? Bipi that Keke know, often heard first the call of friends to Benaya, but papi...?

"Rens.. I went back to the office..."

Keke only turned his head cursory and threw a fleeting smile as well. Ben lowered Lisya who was heading straight to the front of the shophouse, there was Rommel there.

"Via, Papi Bipi talked to Mami Keke for a while.. can you?"

"Yes..." Via caught up with Lisya ahead.

"Would a psychologist make it to Via?"

"I'm not looking yet.maybe there's nothing here..."

"Masa? I'll find him later..."

Why does he care so much?

"Rens... Just a few nights, no time?"

Keke turned his head, not answering but looking at the face asked clearly on that face.

"I want to take you out..."

Keke stunned... What do you want Benaya, what does he mean? Don't-don't he want to... Oh...Keke doesn't want that situation. How to avoid?

"Sorry brother may not be able to. I ordered a lot, only today I received another order..."

Keke's voice turned flat, not staring at Ben right now. The atmosphere is stiff then and Ben knows what Rens' attitude is, he doesn't want closeness.

"Tomorrow nights?"

"I'm sorry, maybe I can't..."

Like hitting the wall again it feels, when Ben thinks he has found a way to get in, it turns out...

"Well, but there's something I want to say to you.. later find time..."

Keke just kept quiet and did not respond.

The heart is full of secrets, so is the attitude of a person...

Sometimes it's as easy to understand as it's very close...

But I don't know what's going on in my heart, I don't know what's causing it...

Suddenly it was like there was a fog that quickly came covering...

Then the heart and attitude become illegible again.

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