The Dear Love School

the reason

  ❝Not a religion that separates us, but a god who never wanted us to be together.❞

Kaylindra zeiden pratama

  ***

  

     I still smiled faintly, recalling that sense of speech, it really made my heart feel calm. And it also felt like my heart was pounding so fast.

  Even after the senses said that, the atmosphere between the two of us was very quiet, there was no talk or debate like before. I thank the kite, because if we didn't fall for the kite, it might last longer. And maybe the senses will say something else, maybe.

  Right now, my senses and I are heading home. I decided to return after the time got late.

   "Thank you for today's senses." I said after the senses stopped the motor in front of my house, I also gave the helmet I used before.

   "Together, I'm also happy if you're happy." he replied accepting the helmet I gave him, the senses put the helmet on the front of his motor matic.

  "Oh yeah, this is for you." I gave a paper bag containing gifts of peng and siti.

  "No need, for your father and your mother." Refuse it, I immediately shook my head.

  "I already have one. Come on, this is my thanks to you, for treating me today." I force the senses to accept the souvenirs brought by siti and eneng.

   "Mm, okay fine. Thanks." With a little hesitation, my senses took the paper bag I thrust at him.

  "Not stopping by?" I ask again, father and mother must be very happy to meet the senses.

  "Other times, I have to go home soon." The answer is, the senses turn on the motor.

   "Dwelling"

  "Ah, why?" I'm confused, the senses are not running the motor.

  "Whatever happens, you're the reason why I can be happy." He said along with a sweet smile.

  Then the senses launched his motor left me still surprised, again and again the senses make my heart rhythm beat unbecoming.

  I chuckled, feeling like sense speech had a lot of meaning and meaning. Maybe senses like me? Or just my feelings? I don't want to assume first, but I'm obviously comfortable with my senses.

  I quickly shook my head, dispelling all the illusions that couldn't have happened. I opened the gate of my house, entered the house while greeting.

  "Assalamualaik." Exclaimed quite loudly, there was an answer from inside the house that must have been the father and mother.

  And sure enough, when I entered the living room there I saw my father, mother and sister who were gathering together.

   "Where's the date?" Ask brother coal tease.

 

  I glared then immediately approached the foot of coals and then stepped on his foot intentionally.

  "aw!" Shouted her brother in pain, I stared at her horror trying not to care by sitting next to her.

   "Bun, here's a souvenir from the same siren." I put the paper bag on the table, the mother who heard the name of the enem and siti was immediately surprised, she quickly grabbed the paper bag and opened it.

  "Same elneng siti? Are they in Jakarta?" Ask the mother curious.

  "Yes, the school again there is a study tour event to Jakarta, so all meet."I replied, Brother Bara and father nodded in understanding.

  "Well, sponge, lembang milk, colenak, yoghurt lembang milk." Pekik mother excited, while removing some kind of souvenirs from the paper bag.

   "Mother kangen very much the same sponge lembang." He said, I just shook my head confused, even though mother can buy a sponge in Jakarta.

 

  But the mother always said, the good lembang sponge is just directly from the lembang. Well, it feels different.

  "So where did the senses go on deck?" Dad asked, I seemed to think for a moment.

  "So to the mini park, to the same old town to monas well." My answer.

Dad glared in surprise he even put the newspaper he was reading. "Well, far away is also the deck, keeps that paying off all the senses?" Ask dad again, I just answered with a small nod. Assented.

  "His son is so oca, it's been a walk in payin anyway." Said brother embers, I immediately looked at him with a look of horror, sometimes the brother coals are annoying.

"I'm glad I'm a natural woman. What about the sister who is always paid for by the same woman? There's no shame." Answer me in a sharp tone.

  Father and mother laughed hard enough to make the contents of the family room rowdy at once. Father and mother also know kak bara is a man who is much sought by teenage girls, to the extent that kak bara often get tracts from girls who like it.

   "Ck Oca sucks." Grumpy with a face that does not like.

  I just returned with a small smile.

  "Bother the senses once, tomorrow the sister must give the senses a gift." Mother's advice. I agree to your advice, honestly I feel embarrassed and troublesome senses, because frankly from now on I did not spend a penny.

  It's not that I don't want to, but the senses reject it at all costs.

   "So oca has also given souvenirs and siti to the senses." My answer.

  "Good, but tomorrow you'll make special food for the senses." Mother said, I only returned with a smile.

  "Then I take a shower, oca's body is sticky."

  I say goodbye to my entire family who are in the living room, going to my room to clean up, like what I said earlier.

  Today, it's been enough to make me happy, a lot of things I've never experienced before. Everything feels different and so special when together with the senses.

   ***

   Morning with a fairly cold December weather, I tightened the knit cardigan I was using. So that the air in this morning is not too piercing, so as not to get bored I play feet in the air, waiting is not a fun thing but I have to do it from now on.

   Yes, I'm at my home bus stop. From today I will leave for school using the bus provided by my school. Yesterday my father decided to use the school bus service to pick me up and take me home, he said.

   I just according to it, after all I also do not want to constantly depend on the coals, I have to be independent.

   Before long the sound of the brake and the car engine broke my daydream, I glanced at it and it turned out to be true it was my school bus. Immediately I boarded the bus, in the bus there were already many students who also use this service.

   Including someone who's been stealing my mind and my heart for a few days. Indra. I saw the man on the bus, with the seat next to him empty. I decided to sit beside her senses, even though her eyes said no. But, I will sit where if I do not sit beside my senses, all the bus seats are full and only the seats next to my senses are empty.

  Oh come on, who wants to sit with a guy like the senses, he's the hate center of kids at school. Except for me who was even relaxed sitting beside the senses.

 

   The school bus drove away from my home complex stop, I glanced at my senses hoping that he would greet me. But in fact the senses even deliberately shifted his gaze.

  What does the senses really want? Yesterday he said that and now? He acted as if he and I didn't know each other and have a relationship.

 

  Nibbling on my lower lip, I tried to make the awward atmosphere between me and the senses stop, not why I felt something was wrong with the senses.

  "Indra's? Have you had breakfast?" I asked him, senses glanced at me with a sad look then the answer I got was a slug, a sign that the man had not done the thing I asked.

   "Mother making this breakfast for you, would you like to try it?" I bid while taking out a city to eat from the paper bag with a picture of a pony that I had brought.

   "No need." Refuse it, but I still insist deftly I open the lid of the lunchbox revealing its contents.

  Fish sandwiches, yes mother made it for me. Actually, this is not mine for the senses, it belongs to the senses later I give it.

  "Let's try." I bid again, thrusting the box of supplies on the senses.

  Indra stared at the few pieces of the sandwich, she also had time to look at me. I give a nod as a sign that the senses need not hesitate.

  Indra picked up a piece of sandwich and ate it, I smiled faintly. At least this guy had eaten a little. The situation on the bus was also quite rowdy, many students were chatting up laughing quite loudly. At least the conversation between my senses will be minimal for them to hear.

   "Tumben uses the bus, usually riding a motorbike." I asked, the senses who were chewing sandwiches stopped doing their activities.

  "Just want. And the goddess Fortuna is on my side." He answered while continuing the activity of eating sandwiches.

  I smiled, the goddess Fortuna is on her side? What does that mean, this guy is weird, but I like him.

   "You yourself why ride the bus, not always delivered by kak bara?" Ask Indra.

   "My father decided to let me ride the bus, he said I had to study independently, after all I didn't want to trouble the coals continuously." My answer.

   "Good then." He said, I only nodded faintly back to pay attention to the senses that were devouring the sandwich.

   "Thank you for the sandwich."

  "Yes, of course." I answered, I closed my lunchbox after senses finished two slices of sandwich and left two more.

   I put the sandwich in the paper bag I was carrying. "I'm always curious about the song you're listening to." I said as soon as I saw the senses were pairing airpods on his ears.

  "You wanna listen?" Giving me one of her airpods, I accepted it and quickly placed it on my ear.

  The music began to sound, a subtle and soothing voice filled my auditory senses, every lyric that sounded as if it represented my current feelings.

  The fort is so high it's hard for me to reach

I'm for you, you're for me

But all of what may be our different faiths

I must go, though love will not

Can go~

  There was a bit of a strange feeling in my heart, hearing every piece of lyrics that sounded in my ears, I didn't know what it was but I was obviously feeling very sad.

   "It is not religion that divides us, but God who never wants us to be together."

 

   ***

   

  As the break bell rang, I immediately picked up the paper bag that I had previously placed on the table, I left the class ignoring the yulan and chika calls who were shouting at my name.

   I had to give this cake to the senses, but the man went back to acting as if he and I didn't know each other, but, yes, that's it. Indra came out first from the class, which obviously the man must have gone to the rooftop, obviously only that place can be made to take shelter when alone.

   I carried my feet up every worn staircase that looked dusty, the place to the rooftop was rarely taken care of, probably because it was not too important either.

  When I got to the final staircase, I pushed the iron door as old as the stairs, the door could be dented, clearly visible in the middle of the door. I don't know how such an iron door could be damaged, the time factor might be?

  And when I got to the rooftop, I saw the senses sitting on the old couch. The difference is, now there is a small tent that covers the top of the sofa, at least because of that tent, sunlight can be blocked.

   I sat beside her senses leisurely, no matter what she was about to say. Besides I'm used to coming here, maybe the senses already know it.

   "You're so happy to come here." He said, still in a sitting position.

  "Ah, yes of course, this is fun." I answered honestly, then immediately I opened the box that contains the mother's artificial sponge.

  "Mother made it for you, he said as a thank you." I gave the supply box to the senses, the senses had looked at him for a while.

  "Why should you bother making a sponge for me?" Ask indra.

   "Because you're good." I replied.

  Indra chuckled, immediately received the lunch box and tasted pieces of chocolate sponge made by mother.

   "I'm not a good person, I can make mistakes, including turning into a bad person." Her speech.

  "If you want to, and if you're evil. You'll definitely take advantage of this opportunity, but since you're good, you didn't even think of doing that."My answer, of course.

  A time like this is an opportunity for the senses, if the evil senses could have done something bad to me.

 

   "You're right, for now I'm a good person, maybe not later." An answer.

  "Indra's? May I ask?" My word.

  "Yes, as long as I can still answer your question."

  "Why? If in class you don't recognize me? Even impressed not to care about me?" I asked in the end.

  Indra, who was eating a sponge, looked at me with a sweet smile. The man placed a box of cookies on the sofa, his senses standing from his seat. Then positioning himself in front of me, his knees resting on the floor.

   "you know how many people hate me? They'd all hurt you if they knew you and I were friends"

  "I know, you've always hidden this from me, I know you've been hurt for helping me. And you shouldn't get tortured just because of me." Clearly with a sad face, I did not dare to comment, all I could do was look at him with a concerned look.

   "Your intentions are good, you want to be friends with me, but I, I can put you at risk. So help you understand, I'm doing all this for you."

  "And if you get hurt because of me, I'll never be able to forgive myself. What then? What can I do without my source of happiness?"

  I'm stunned, is that how much I am in front of the senses? It was so special that the senses desperately tried to protect me.

  "At least we can understand each other, I did all this for your safety. So stay away, when we're in front of a lot of people."

***

   "Ca let's go to the cafeteria." Chika forced my hand to follow her, even though I was being lazy.

  "Lazy ka, lazy." I said while hiding my head among the folded arms.

   "Come on. Yulan's waiting for us there." Pinta chika again, for lazily arguing I limply got up from my seat.

  "Yes, come on." I walked with Chika to the canteen.

  Today I feel very weak, especially when I hear songs that my senses play while on the bus, and his speech. And also what he said on the rooftop made me more curious about what happened between the senses and glen as well as his friends.

  I was confused too, but all I did was be patient, which I would definitely ask for an explanation of the senses.

  Arriving at the cafeteria, I saw Yulan sitting alone at one of the tables. Ah, I feel bad about yulan for making her wait.

  Chika and I walked up to Yulan's desk and sat there. "Sorry yulan made you wait, oca nih lazy." chika curled at yulan.

  "I'm sorry, I suddenly feel lazy." I said honestly to Yulan.

   "yes it's okay, now that we're eating, I've ordered food for you both" replied yulan, I picked up one of the empty seats available.

  "Oh yes oca, I saw a paper bag on your desk. What contents? I'm really curious." Chika asked, I who was eating ketoprak directly looked at the confused chika.

   "It's a cake, mother told me to give it to the senses." My answer.

  "Your mother? How come?" Ask yulan penajaran.

   "The senses you stayed away from at school aren't as bad as the senses I've always encountered outside of school, he's bad because of other people's speech, but he's good because I know him." I answered trying not to care about the look of chika and yulan, I tried to look ordinary by eating my ketoprak.

   There was no answer from the two of them, neither chika nor yulan chose silence and did not respond to my words, of course. My words were true, they all just believe in the words of others without knowing what reality is like.

  "LISTEN, EVERYBODY LISTEN!" I turned my head as soon as I heard a loud scream in the cafeteria, I saw him who his face was so unfamiliar to me, but from his looks I was sure he was not a good student.

  "EVERYBODY PAY ATTENTION, GLEN WILL SPEAK."

  I looked at yulan and chika in confusion, they also looked at each other inexplicably. All the attention in the cafeteria was focused on the man, including me, chika and yulan who were taking notice.

   From the outside of the canteen, glen was seen coming along with his partner, ah the man, the man who was holding my body, what was his name. His name is faren.

  Glen was standing in the middle of the cafeteria right next to the dining table I was at. We all answered him questioningly, would glen say anything about the senses? Or maybe something else?

  "So gini, I want to say something to you guys" explained Glen in a pretty loud voice.

  "We're using formal language, okay?"

  "I want to express my feelings to someone" he said again, making the entire canteen boisterous with various kinds of student cheers.

  I heard it just grunt, like the girl Glen likes. That girl would be very tormented if she had a lover like glen.

  "And that man was, Roosevelt anindia adriana." Her speech.

  I was surprised, my eyes glared unexpectedly, meaning glen liked me? How could?

  I saw Glen step towards my desk, then his body rested on the floor, then glen handed over a bouquet of flowers he had hidden behind his body.

   "Oca, will you be my girlfriend?" Ask.

  I'm grieving, damn it. It turns out that girl is me. The shouts of the students were getting boisterous, they were yelling at me to receive glen, but of course I didn't want to, oh come on, who wants to have a lover like glen? Rugged and also not managed.

  "Sorry, but I can't. I already have a lover." My lie, Glen was surprised by my words until he woke up from his position.

  "Where is possible!? Don't lie to oca." Speak with a high tone.

  "If I lie, I won't accept you, I honestly don't like people like you. Everyone has their own type, right?" I answered, the atmosphere of the canteen was suddenly silent, the entire canteen was silent when I heard my answer.

  "So I beg you, bury your feelings deeply." Added me and walked away leaving glen and my other friends.

  Not to be arrogant or anything, but I do not like glen, there is no way I should accept it out of pity?

  I went to my class, I hope Glen doesn't get revenge because his feelings have been rejected by me, enough kamal to scare me into a relationship. At least I've started a new life here.

   When I arrived at the classroom, I saw the senses standing in front of the teacher's desk, the classroom atmosphere was quiet, rather there were only senses there. I went to him, because what I saw was very serious in his face, like there was something he wanted to ask.

   "Don't lie to your feelings." Her speech.

  I tilted my head trying to digest the sentence said by the senses, until a few minutes I realized the meaning of the sense speech.

  "If I lied to my own feelings, maybe I'd feel pain, but, now I don't feel anything." I answered, I folded my hands and put them on my chest.

  "After all, I already like someone." Added again.

  Indra smiled faintly at my answer, then the man with tidy hair came closer to me. He had looked at my bead very closely, after which the senses passed through my body.

  "Wait me... " His voice half whispered in my ear, I smiled knotfully, until whenever I would wait for you, senses.

   ***

**the song is marchel my love fairy, download it if you are curious the song is very good, the same song in chapter 1 is a song alm chrisye the word of nature if not wrong, if kepo search youtube terrorin and guaranteed likes:)

—with luv ara**