
A quiet, quiet, lonely night. I stared at the ceiling of the room even though it was dimly lit because, just illuminated by a sleeping lamp. My hands were stretched out to stroke the long black mane of the beautiful little boy beside me. Bored, I turned to look at the figure of a man who was picking up dreams in the sleep realm.
Nah! He hasn't slept yet. I could see the glint of eyes looking at me sharply. Again I was shocked to death for his actions. Why is he so happy to surprise me?
"Sister?" my whiskey.
"Why?" the answer is also whispering.
"Not sleeping yet?" my many.
"I don't usually sleep in tight places" he answered briefly and logically.
"If so, we change places, how? Let me sleep on the sofa, Brother sleep here," I suggested, still in whispered-whispering mode.
"You think I can't sleep here, can I?"
"No, I just don't want Big Brother's body sore tomorrow when I wake up. If I was, right, it's normal." I'm piquing my lips.
"Why don't we sleep there? The bed was wide, enough to sleep three," El suggested, but it made me shudder in horror. It is still imagined that Ali's behavior is so cruel to treat women.
"No, no. Brother, just there," I answered quickly, and then tried to close my eyes hoping for drowsiness to come. But baby, the more forced even the more these eyes refuse to be closed. Apparently, my drowsiness still wants to hide in nature there.
I heard El chuckling softly. I don't know why, I feel like he's laughing at me. "Some one laughs but not a ghost" I said.
"There's nothing sleepy, but it's not you" El Barrack replied insinuatingly.
"Or, uh!" I immediately turned my back to El Barrack. But I heard footsteps approaching me.
"You why? What are you thinking? Did I do something wrong again?" el asked softly, as he spread his body to my side.
"Look! I was wrong because I always said harsh words to you, I always scolded you just because of trivial problems. I'm sorry for that. So, allow me to keep trying to improve myself and keep trying to avoid hurting you. So, let me know if I'm guilty. Rebuke me, if you need to slap me as you like. I'm not messing around with you, Young Grandma. I seriously want to forever go on a romance story only with you," El said at length. At first, I was filled with the words of El Barrack, but when I heard the words Young Grandma, my mood was broken again.
"Why silence?" El wrapped his hands around my waist, then I could feel the warm breath of El sweeping across my free-open nape. Yeah, he's peeping at the nape and then grimacing at my head.
"I've always been haunted by Ali's abusive behavior towards women, brother. Looking at you is like seeing Ali" I said honestly. My body can respond quickly to El's touch so that, the vibrations due to fear just appear.
"Aren't you used to feeling my touch?" El tightened his arms. "Like this," he added.
"For tonight, after I heard Risha was still free out there, I felt my fear getting bigger. I don't know, suddenly the shadow of Ali when torturing Mayang, Mbak Neneng, and Mbak Mira flashed in my head. I feel ... all men-"
"Ssst. Not with me, honey. Now I ask, have I ever done more to your body even though I know you want the same thing?" I shook my head slowly. Yeah, I remember. At that time, I had a big fight with Ali. Then, I got out of the house and chased by Ali's men. Until I hid under the bridge and met El. I hid in El's house, then we had a hot scene, but El immediately controlled his lust.
"I seriously love you, Ca. I just want you, even though your father once cut off" El said. I could see his worried face.
Mem? Mem what? my question is in my heart.
I raise my eyebrows. I let out a long sigh, then turned my body to face El Barrack. "What did you ever have?" tanyaku.
"I mean, your father once abandoned you. So, you're lacking a father's attention" El replied, but sounded nervous in my ears.
"Where do you know I've been abandoned by you?" as I recall, I never told anyone other than Rosa and Mayang about my past.
"Obviously I know. Your father, right, used to work at Ali Suprapto's. I still remember everything. Moreover, when you cry because you want to ride the luxury car of Ali. I still remember."
Yeah, maybe so. But ... why do I feel like there's something El Barrack is hiding from me?