The Beautiful Cheating

The Silly Debate

I'm still staring at Maya's grave. My guilt still lingers in the depths of my heart. This lip did not stop saying sorry even though all I spoke to was a tombstone.

El grabbed my shoulder, he was very understanding. Gave me space to talk to Maya's grave for a long time.

"I'm sorry, May. If I wasn't reckless at the time, if I had obeyed Ali's request, if I had been-"

"Enough, Ca. What are you saying, huh? Think logically. What happened to Maya was the fate God had set for her. Again, if you were to comply with Ali's request, would you be able to guarantee Maya's safety?" El Barrack kissed my old forehead. "Now, we must proceed immediately before our existence is known to Ali's people." I nodded obediently, then with the rest of my strength, I brought my body to my feet with the help of El.

"I'll go first, okay? Next time, I'll be here. Again, I'm sorry for my stupidity. I'm sorry." I wiped my tears. And soon, I left the funeral full of flowers.

**

During the journey, I could not develop my smile anymore. My mind is empty, my heart and soul are fragile. Again I caused others to lose their lives. In fact, El Barrack has tried to open the topic of conversation so that my attention is diverted. But unfortunately, I'm not interested at all.

I stayed with my silence, my pain, and a million regrets. These tears can no longer gather in the eye. Falling down accompanied the million regrets I was feeling.

"That regret will come later. However, regret will not change what has happened. Like rice has become porridge. We can only change what needs to be changed, fix what needs to be improved. Don't fall in the same hole, because we deserve to be called fools until it happens. Remember, the future is what determines us. While regret will only lead us to the black hole and hampered into the beautiful future" said El Barrack at length.

I'm speechless.

Correct ...

I can't be stuck with the past. I have to keep moving forward. Shouldn't the past be a memory?

But, it is very crowded if you remember my journey that is steep and hollow. Moreover, right now my position is not a single girl or a single girl anymore. Except women are married and already have their own rights and obligations.

That keeps my brain distracted. I want to be free soon, despite having to bear the status of a widow. But at least it's better. I can't continue to be one with Ali Suprapto, I can't possibly indulge the lusts of enslaving hers that can't be controlled.

"They are the same as you, some are cheap, and some love Ali, Ca. Maybe we can help them. But do they want to follow the path we've made?" el asked, there is a point as well. Because all this time, the good with me is just Mbak Mira and Mbak Neneng. The other two are cute and don't want to know about me.

"Before we try, we won't know the result, brother," I said.

"Well, but now we have to get to the Sumbing Mountain Villa first. Just later we think of other matters." I nodded, and clasped El's left hand perched on my thigh. El smiled, then brought my hand to his lips and let out a kiss.

I blushed, I'm sure my face must have shamed. This heart is always pounding when this sweet moment takes place.

"Udah married, let's get a sneak peek, '" seduced El to me, while displaying his charming smile.

"What if I'm embarrassed? Just a madman who has no shame, including you." I stuck my tongue out, glad to be able to reply to El's taunts.

"No pa-pa crazy. You're crazy about me, aren't you?" I pursed my lips. This man was indeed the most able to twist people's words.

"Nobody is crazy. You're the one who's obsessed with macarin me, until you know married aja still aja hembat," kekehku, this time he must be mentally hit. But his face was ordinary.

"Have wanted. How, dong?"

"You're chasing the mulu, how is it?"

"Well, yuk!"

I can close my lips. I got this mental ...