The Beautiful Cheating

The Roboh Fort

I chose to sit on the swing that was on the balcony of El's room. Enjoy the beautiful mountain atmosphere, hear the song of fir trees. Peaceful but contrary to my current mood. I find it painful to roll back memories when El yells at me or when he says spicy words to me.

I inhaled a deep breath, then I let out slowly. Not bad, tightness that had pressed the chest a little sagging. It's just that the urgent tears that wanted to come out I couldn't stand it. Dropping from one and getting longer is getting louder.

I wiped my tears with my thumb. Too much it feels that new dating is like this. I have to show my tough side. For the sake of father and Ninda!

And just as I was about to enter that room again, I bumped into someone. A familiar smell in my nose. Yes, El Barrack. I don't know when he came. But clearly, dealing with him only added to this wound in the heart. Moreover, seeing the gaze of his eyes that often change.

"Crying in silence is one way a woman vents suppressed emotions" said El relaxed.

"Oh yeah? Since when did your job turn out to be so know-how and sober?" ask me casually anyway, let it look elegant in El's eyes.

"Since you were present in my life, and became a ghost in my sleep." I knew El was teasing me. I don't know, the more here the attitude is often difficult to guess.

"If it's true that I'm a ghost in your sleep, why don't you forget everything that smells like ghosts? For example, a offerings or a grave might." I displayed my faint smile, though my eyes were still unable to stare directly at El Barrack's face.

"The ghost is too pretty and too dear for me to forget. Let him be present in every blink of my eye. Just so you know, just by looking at it, I feel lucky to have been met by a ghost as beautiful as him," said El softly, he looked at me intensely. But I still refused to look at him. This fortress must be sturdy, must not collapse just because it is rained with false seduction.

"Then, what if the ghost no longer admires you and no longer wants to be present in your dreams?" I ventured to look at El's handsome face. I gulped down a rough saliva as I looked directly at the protruding jakun and moved up and down.

"I will try to find a way to bring it back, even though I have to play the jaelangkung though" whispered El, as he brought his face closer to mine. I know what's gonna happen next. Therefore, I stepped my feet back to avoid the end of the scene.

"Ca, what's the matter with you? Why is it that since you got here, you're different?" el asked, somewhat annoyed as it seemed.

"I'm just not in the mood yet. I'm sorry" I said, and I moved my feet into the room. But El held my arm, then carried my body into his arms.

"Say, what's my fault? Is it because of my words?" I flinch not intending to respond. "Say, Ca? Are you hurt by my words? If so, forgive me," he added.

"Yes what? Don't make me lose my temper, Ca," said El, and this time full of emphasis.

"Please! Please anger me! I'm ordinary, brother. I'm used to your changing attitude. I'm used to your harsh words. I'm used to any torture!" I began to lose control.

El looked silent and looked at me deeper. I was misbehaving, but my mouth had already taken out the uneg-uneg that had piled up inside.

El and I remained silent for a while. Until finally, El sighed violently and then pulled my hand and took me into the room. He threw my body into his bed. I quivered in fear, thinking maybe I would be tortured, slapped, or beaten. But apparently, he supported my body that lay on the bed.

"Actually I brought you here to say goodbye. Because tonight, I have to go back to Jakarta. But there's even a surprise from you. It seems like there's something I need to do here before I get back" El said, then he kissed me long ago.

"I'm sorry if all this time I was often angry not clear with you. Sorry if all this time I've been rude to you. I'm sorry, honey. I did not think that you who always follow all my words, it turns out that the inner hurt due to my own actions."

"Sister, you're heavy" I said, trying to distract him.

"Please, Ca. Don't keep avoiding. We're gonna finish this all right, okay? I don't want your love for me to diminish just because we lack communication" whispered El, then kissed my nose. I blushed, my face felt hot getting this sweet treatment.

"I feel unworthy to be by your side, Brother. I am an ordinary man, poor. No scholar, no conglomerate, I'm just a slave. I am too brave to accept your love as big as the ocean. Your attitude to me all this time has been very good, he admitted that too sensitive. I was too selfish to expect you to always be sweet, when I had never given you anything other than trouble" I said, and looked as if El shook his head.

"Do you measure love only in terms of possessions and thrones? If yes, then it's wrong." El changed her position to lie next to me and embrace me.

"Love is sacrifice, sincerity, protecting, appreciating, and loving. Love knows no logic because it comes from the heart. So don't think me and you are different castes. Love will unite us. I promise, I will correct my mistakes. Don't reduce your love for me, even if it's only 0.1. I'm sorry, huh?" I foolishly nodded obediently, then forgot my stance of wanting to build Takeshi fortress.

But, can El keep his promise not to make those mistakes again?