Tears of Sholehah's Wife

Episode 57's.

Jihan sat pensively on the porch of her simple house, looking at the dark night sky and accompanied by the sound of crickets filling the silence. Jihan still has not found the answer to her heartbreak, she is still confused to make a decision what, should she accept Radit's proposal or reject it?

Jihan exhaled heavily, Jihan knew Radit was a good man and sholeh, but she did not love the man. His heart still belongs to Ammar who may have forgotten him by this time. But Jihan realized, she could no longer keep her feelings and expected the man who was now illegal for her.

“What decision should I take, yes, Allah?” Mummer Jihan slowly.

Salma and Arif who saw Jihan daydreaming for themselves approached their daughter, and sat nearby.

“What are you doing alone here?” Ask Salma.

“I thought about the request of Mr. Radit and Bu Yuni, Ummi. I'm still confused what decision to make?” Answer Jihan.

“Nak, if you do not want to accept it, then reject it carefully. But if you doubt, then pray istikharah! Ask God for guidance to be given the determination to choose.” Pinta Arif's.

“Already, Abi. Every night I always pray istikharah, but still I am still worried.” Complain Jihan.

“Nak, istikharah it means looking for the best. Now you ask your heart what is best for your life, for your future, and your religion. If you are still worried, then read Surah Al-Fatihah by including things that make you worried and ask in your heart that God gives you guidance.” Arif advised his daughter.

“Iya, Son. Because all the decisions are in your hands, so you must be sure and think about it carefully, so do not hurt and regret again like before.” Salma.

Arif gives a warning look at his wife.“Ummi!”

“Abi, Jihan has failed and disappointed in marriage. Ummi doesn't want him to experience it again.” Salma was upset whenever she remembered Ammar's actions towards her beloved daughter.

Arif just sighed at the grumbling of his wife, he knew Salma was hurt by Ammar's actions, he was the same. But he just doesn't want to remember that incident anymore.

“Iya, later I will do as Abi suggested.” Jihan Sahut who does not want to respond to the speech of the ummi.

Arif smiled as he rubbed Jihan's head covered in a headscarf.

“Yes already, then now we're in! It's tonight.”

The three rushed into the house and prepared for a break.

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The night is getting late, the dark sky studded with stars seems to be a witness to night silence. The cold and the sound of crickets getting louder so adds to the silence.

Jihan returned to perform the prayer of istharah, asking for guidance from God so that her heart would not hesitate to choose and steady to make choices. After the prayer, he read the prayer of Istikharah.

“Allahumma inni astakhiru bi ilmika, wa astaqdiruka bi qudratika, wa as-aluka min fadhlika, fa innaka taqdiru wa laa aqdiru, wa talamu wa laa alamu, wa anta allaamul ghuyub.”

After finishing the prayer, Jihan did not immediately move from the top of the prayer mat, she did what Arif suggested earlier. Jihan opened the Qur'an and read the Surah of Al-Fatiha, in her heart asking that Allah guide her, remove doubts and strengthen her heart.

Suddenly his heart seemed to tremble when the shadow of Ammar's face suddenly appeared in his memory, without feeling his tears fell dripping, but he hurriedly wiped.

After he finished reading Surah Al-Fatiha, Jihan closed the Qur'an and cried as she pleased. His chest became increasingly tight when he remembered how much he loved Ammar and everything that happened between them.

“I'm sorry, yes, God. I have solemnly loved Thy creation, beyond my love for Thee.”Said Jihan softly, she realized maybe this is the way God rebuked her for loving Ammar too much.

In a different place, Radit was praying hajat that he had been doing this week, pleading with God for what he was fighting for. Wishing the creator to grant the hope he has long desired.

“Yes Allah, yes Rahman. You know I love one of your servants, so let him be lawful to me, be a part of my life and step with me towards Jannah. Make everything easy, God. Aamiin.”

Radit rubbed his face then let out a long sigh, his heart restless and troubled waiting for the decision from Jihan. Since the death of his wife, Radit felt like life had stopped. He lost the spirit to keep stepping towards the future, feeling destiny was so cruel to him.

But when he met Jihan, he seemed to see the future in that figure of tenderness. His heart seemed to find a glimmer of hope to rise from the slump, without him realizing so quickly that Jihan reigned in his heart, turning deep sadness into a desire to achieve happiness.

But upon hearing Jihan marry someone else, Radit's heart breaks again. He felt that the universe was making him joke again, when he started trying to get up, reality threw him into the deepest abyss. But Jihan's smile always made her endure so as not to fall back.

And when she learned that Jihan had separated from her husband, Radit hoped that this time God would really give her a chance. Until then the mother told about a woman named Jihan and widow status, woman berparas ayu nan soft, sholeha woman who has stolen the heart of the mother. Radit believes it's the Jihan he knows.

So he rounded his determination to come and ask for the woman he loves, enough that this year he has established his heart, he does not want to wait and waste another opportunity.

This time, God will unite them in a holy marriage. Insha Allah.

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