Tears of Sholehah's Wife

Episodes 10.

Ammar was focusing on watching the screen of his laptop, from earlier, the man with a sharp nose was just silent. Although his body is here, but his mind is wandering out of nowhere.

“I hope for the Ridho of God through you and perfect my religion and worship with you. By God, I only wish it was from our marriage. So please don't take me this low and accuse me recklessly!”

For some reason the words of Jihan kept spinning around her head, ringing in her ears as if she was constantly repeating the same sentence.

Miranda who realized the attitude of the lover became curious.

"What's really going on? What were they talking about in the kitchen?" Miranda wondered in her heart.

“Sayang.”Miranda called Ammar on purpose, but she did not respond to the call. Not because he didn't care, but he didn't hear it. Miranda is increasingly confused by the lover's suspicious attitude.

“Honey! You why the hell?” Shouted Miranda, making Ammar surprised to hear it.

Ammar spontaneously looked at Miranda. “Why are you screaming? I think I'm deaf!”

“After I called, you didn't answer.” Miranda pouting.

“Sorry, I didn't hear that.”

“Where to hear? Your people daydream. What else is pikiri? You have a problem?” Miranda asked curiously.

“No, there is nothing. I'm just focusing on reading this.” Deny Ammar while pointing at the laptop screen.

Miranda could not believe it, she was still not satisfied and still raised questions.

“What did your mom say to that woman?”

“Not there, just ask me news.”

“Oh. He was lucky to be loved by your parents, while I was hated by them. What am I wrong? Don't-don't you also prefer him from me.” Miranda said with a sad face.

“Eh, how do you say that, anyway? You know I promised I'd always take care of you. Where might I choose someone else.” Ammar said with one hand rubbed Miranda's cheek.

“Can one day you change. You finally fell in love with her.”

“You think distance!” Reply Ammar.

“She's your wife, while I'm ..” Miranda bowed sadly.

“Yes right, Honey?”

“Iya. Now smile, dong!”

Miranda smiled and hugged Ammar's body, she was satisfied to hear the man's answer.

“I won't let Jihan take Ammar and destroy all my plans.”Inner Miranda while smiling cynically in the arms of Ammar.

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Since his confession to Ammar, Jihan's heart really could not calm down, she felt troubled. Ammar's unreadable gaze was still reflected, as if implying deep doubt and hatred. It was very different from the look of Ammar that he knew back then.

Not to mention those painful accusations, it felt like Jihan wanted to shout in anger when her sincerity was in doubt. Shame and sadness rippled in his heart. His faith was almost shaken by the pain he felt, he knew this was wrong.

Jihan rushed to take the wudu and immediately performed the Dhuha Sunah Prayer.

After finishing the prayer, Jihan beristigfar as much. Begging Allah for forgiveness SWT.

“Astaghfirullaahal ‘adzima alladzii laa ilaaha illa huwal hayyul qayyuum wa atuubu ilaihi. I ask God for forgiveness, whom God has no right to worship except Him, the All-Living, the All-Caring, and I repent to Him.”

After reciting the istigfar repeatedly, Jihan now rests her hands in front of her face and prays a prayer, begging for peace of mind.

“Bismilbornrahmanirrahim. Allahumma inni as-aluka nafsan bika muthma-innah, tu’minu biliqo-ika wa tardho bi qodho-ika wataqna’u bi ’atho-ika.”

“O God, I ask Thee a soul who is at ease with Thee, who is sure to meet Thee, who is Ridho with Thy decree, and who feels sufficient with Thy gift. Aamiin yes rabbal Al - Amin.” Said Jihan with tears, hoping for the calm she soon got.

Jihan realized, when she felt angry, sad and depressed, only Pray the best way she had to do.

Patiently plead with God for help, by maintaining firmness and maintaining fortitude, and refraining from temptation in the face of hard things.

“Make patience and prayer as your helper. And verily such is severe, except for those who are solemn, those who believe that they will meet their Lord and that they will return to Him.”

That is a sentence that Arif often said to Jihan, hoping that his daughter always knows where she should complain and ask for help in the most difficult situations.

As a Sholeha woman who was filled with understanding of religion since childhood, Jihan certainly knew which ones were good and not good. He also obeyed every commandment of God and his parents.

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