Tears of Sholehah's Wife

Episode 24's.

After devouring the food in front of them, Ammar downed a glass of water provided by Jihan to the toilet. Jihan brought dirty dishes to the wash and washed them.

“So I met Miranda.” Beber Ammar suddenly.

Jihan turned around with round eyes. “What did Mas crash into it?”

“Neg. Like your advice, I pretended to act as usual. Although it feels heavy.”

Jihan exhaled a sigh of relief. “Alhamdulillah.”

“And you know what I got?”

Jihan knitted her two eyebrows. “What, Mas?”

Ammar told me what he got from his investigation. After three dollars with Ammar, Jihan was confused by what happened.

“He also knows our friends and stories about Mas. Who exactly is he?”

Ammar raised both his shoulders. “So then, I am still confused. It's like a tangled thread, the more decomposed, the more dizzy the head.”

“Iya, Mas's right. The more we find out, the more confusing this gets. I've also asked about Miranda to some of our friends, but no one knows her.”

Ammar exhaled his heavy breath. “I still don't think for six months I've been lied to by him. Though I have spent a lot of money for him, even I often quarrel with Papa and make Mama cry. All because of defending him, how stupid I was.”

“Astagfirullah, Mas. Supposedly as a child, Mas can not hurt the feelings of parents especially to make our Mother cry. We can be disobedient, Mas. And Mas knew, the ungodly child, his torment was directly in the world. Nauzubillah.”

“Iya, I really regret all that.” Ammar.

“Mas should apologize to Mama and Papa.” Pinta Jihan's.

Ammar nodded twice, without replying to Jihan.

“Now it is better to take a shower and then pray, ask for forgiveness and guidance from Allah.”

Ammar exhaled a heavy breath. “Does God still want to hear my prayer? All this time I've been too far away from him.”

“Mas, God is forgiving and merciful. He will receive the repentance of every servant and God willing, the prayers of Mas will be affirmed. So Mas do not hesitate.”

“Sama-sama, Mas.” Reply Jihan with a happy smile.

Ammar stepped up from his seat and left the kitchen listlessly. Tonight they went back to their rooms, for Joseph and Anita had gone home.

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After taking a bath, Ammar stood in front of the sink mirror, he looked at the reflection of his reflection in the mirror.

There was a warm feeling in his heart when he was near Jihan earlier, a very familiar feeling, a feeling he had never felt when he was with Miranda.

Ammar took a look at his little heart, did he really love Miranda all this time? Or just feel sorry and try to keep his promise? Because the woman who holds a lot of mysteries always comforted him and made him rise from the trauma after the tragic accident.

“Yes God, what are you planning for me? Is this punishment because I have abandoned You? I've been too far from You.” Ammar said as he continued to stare at the reflection of his reflection in the mirror.

Ammar closed his eyes and let out a long sigh, indeed he felt ashamed that he had never again mentioned the name of God, as if he had forgotten his creator.

Ammar opened his eyes and rushed to take the wudu and immediately performed the Isya prayer.

When Ammar finished his prayer, Ammar raised his hand and prayed.

“Yes, God forgive my sins and mistakes all this time. I feel unworthy to ask You, I am too hypocritical, yes, Allah.”

“But I know there is no better place to complain and ask for help than You. I hope you give me guidance on what is going on, help me solve all these problems, yes, God. Aamiin yes rabbal Al - Amin.”

Ammar rubbed his face with both palms, for a moment his heart felt calm, not upset like before. Claiming to God is the most effective remedy when we feel the burden of life is too tight.

Ammar went up from the prayer mat and moved to the bed, he laid his body and looked at the ceiling. Suddenly the shadow of Jihan's face seemed to be drawn in front of her, making the corner of the lips of the handsome man form an arch.

“It seems that what Mr. Radit said was true, I would be interested if I already knew him. Maybe we can start making friends again. I'll fix our relationship.” Ammar told himself.

Ammar's eyes were closed, but his lips were still smiling. So quickly God turned his heart, from anger to pity and gradually felt love.

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