Sweetest Nightmare's

Hayden Story | Half FlashBack

How exactly did Felisha know that Hayden and Jane were working together to get her autograph?

Let's just say, it was a coincidence, a coincidence that managed to make the heart of Feli torn apart, but he tried to remain strong in front of Hayden and Rosa.

This morning exactly one truth that Feli had known.

That time ... Feli was about to ask Hayden about the location of his clothes that he brought to Hayden's house.

Because, Feli has not been so poultice, precisely in the closet next door, his clothes are arranged, because Hayden was the one who kept it last night.

What's more, given Hayden's extensive walk-in closet space, making Feli, who is said to not like to waste time, prefer an instant way to ask.

But who would have thought, his intention was to bring Feli by accidentally hearing Hayden's words that surprised, because at that time Hayden was making a voice call with Jane.

Feli wants to be angry.

But does he deserve?

After he learned what Hayden had experienced from his in-laws - Emely, since the events of that night, or rather the so-called night of treason two years ago, did he have the right to be angry?

In the end, for the umpteenth time, Feli prefers to keep everything alone, as always.

Just then, Feli paused his intention to ask Hayden and chose to go to the room.

"What exactly are you planning on doing Hayden, Jane?" Feli kept wondering.

Either in the mind or mumble without it intentionally. The same question kept spinning inside his head, like an immortal tape capable of driving himself crazy at any moment.

'Should I ask? Should I ask everything?'

Feli ended up crying over all those annoying questions in his mind. He stayed in the room long enough and escaped all his confusion and disappointment, along with tears that did not stop spilling.

Then, the other thing that makes Feli worried is, when he talked to Rosa at breakfast.

As Feli said, "because of me, it was the girl who betrayed him two years ago on the day that Hayden would propose to me."

Of course Rosa was very surprised, as well as not believing. Rosa's eyes were puffed up, looking at Feli, shocked.

Feli let out a rough breath while giving a quick smile. He released the palms of Rosa, which he was still on his stomach while leaning his body to the head of the chair he was sitting on. "Surprising, isn't Bi?"

Rosa was speechless, nailed or rather frozen in the same position.

"So, Hayden's been living here since two years ago?"

Rosa. He blinked his eyes repeatedly before finally nodding his head, in response.

Feli's forehead frowned. His eyes narrowed slightly, staring at Rosa, full of laughter. "Is Aunt Rosa close enough to Hayden? Until Hayden told me about his love story?"

A rough gust of breath escaped from Rosa's mouth. "Please take it that way."

Feli nodded faintly while confirming his sitting position. He is ready to ask various questions about Rosa, while enjoying his breakfast.

"Did Aunt Rosa not mind, if I asked, what did Hayden tell Auntie?" said Feli, asking very carefully while starting to enjoy his breakfast that has been arranged on the table.

Feli and Rosa no longer make eye contact. Only Rosa was busy watching Feli carefully and carefully.

The atmosphere was a little tense as well as a bit awkward, as if the breakfast session, had been converted into a question and answer session, no doubt like a police investigation session on a crime suspect.

"Young Master Hayden didn't just tell her the story of the pill. The aunt who decided to ask first, since Aunt was not strong, seeing Mr. Hayden's increasingly chaotic behavior, was getting chaotic."

Felisha who was chewing food with a downcast look, immediately looked up, looked at Rosa while showing a calm look. "What does Aunt mean?"

"Auntie works with Mr. Hayden, after two months he's been living here. Every day, Mr. Hayden always comes home drunk and looks so frustrated. Auntie guess, it's probably a work problem. But one night ...."

Two years ago ....

Rosa witnesses how devastated Hayden's life is, after learning that her lover is sleeping with another man.

Perhaps, more precisely, that night was exactly three months after the heart-breaking incident of Hayden Brent Wilson took place.

Let's just say, that night was the culmination of Hayden's frustration, which had already erupted, finally exploded.

That night Hayden returned home, while Rosa was still there, preparing food for dinner.

Rosa knew very well, what time Hayden would usually go home, because Rosa's house was located not far from the house that Hayden occupied.

Almost every day, Rosa always waited for Hayden to come home first, before he returned home.

"DON'T!"

Rosa was made stunned and slightly jolted because she heard the main door of Hayden's house open with a loud slamming sound, followed by Hayden's very loud swearing.

Rosa, who was in the dining room at the time, did not waste much time to immediately approach Hayden.

"Good God, Mr. Hayden. Are you all right?" Rosa asked while kneeling before Hayden who was sitting on the floor with his body leaning against the wall.

Eyes closed. It's fucked. His face was full of bruises, like a fistfight with someone. Really, worried.

Rosa was made to panic, confused and also anxious, at one time. He tried to touch Hayden's shoulder, making sure that Hayden was still unconscious. "Hayden?"

Hayden opened his eyes slowly. Her weak-looking Netra, like a drunken person, collided face to face with the Netra Rosa who was staring at her, full of anxiety. "Baby, why are you making me like this? You're messing up my life."

Rosa was confused. He tried to shake Hayden's shoulder slowly. "Be aware, Son Hayden, this is Aunt Rosa."

Tears of pain instantly escaped from Hayden's bruised eye patch. The handsome man bowed lethargic. "I know."

"Why did you come home in such a state? Did you fight with someone?"

Hayden slowly looked up. He smiles. Smiling, full of pain. "I fought with my own heart. I can't forget it, Bi."

Rosa's forehead frowned. His eyes narrowed slightly, staring at Hayden, astonished. "Forget who?"

Hayden wiped the rough tears that still piled on his cheeks. "I can't keep all this alone anymore. Can Aunt listen to me? Just listen to it. Auntie doesn't have to do anything."

Rosa just nodded, assuring. How could he refuse, after seeing Hayden screwed up like that.

Actually, Rosa had been used to seeing Hayden come home drunk, not even rarely he heard Hayden crying in his room, locked himself after enjoying dinner.

Hayden chuckles bitterly at a glance. His eyes were straight, heading towards the front. However, it looks so empty. "There's a girl I love very much, Bi. About three months ago, I was going to propose to her, but I found her with another man in her room."

Hayden let out a rough breath. "I saw it with my own eyes, but my heart ..-" He paused his words long enough, turning his eyes away, looking at Rosa with a sad look, "this stupid heart of mine, this stupid one, continue to reject the truth. My heart still believes it. My heart believes that it is impossible for him to betray me. I wanted to hate him so much and forget him, but my stupid heart just asked me to love him" she said.

Hayden chuckled bitterly for the umpteenth time. "This house." He spoke as he loosened his gaze, scouring every corner of the space. "I even moved into this house, just to imagine, how my domestic life would go, if that night I managed to propose to her and get her married."

"You mean, you bought this house, to live with your wife?"

Hayden nodded faintly while throwing a sweet smile. "Hmmm. This house is the one I wanted to live with after we got married. The design and interior inside, even I adjusted to his taste."

"You only hurt your own feelings Hayden. You shouldn't be doing this, if you really intend to forget it" Rosa said in a gentle, loving and understanding tone, like a mother.

Hayden chuckles bitterly. "I know." He looked at Rosa with his eyes already glazed, even tears had escaped from her fertilizer since the beginning he spoke, telling her the story of the pill. "Then, what should I do, Bi? I can't forget it, but on the other hand, I don't want to remember it."

"Have you asked for an explanation? Like, why would he betray you?"

Hayden mangangguk. "He was just silent. Didn't say anything about that. He just kicked me out."

Rosa snorts. "You asked him directly? That time too? At the same time, when you saw her with another man?"

Hayden nodded once more.

Rosa smiled, making Hayden astonished.

"What's after that, you're not trying to ask her again?"

"No. And I don't want to" Hayden said.

"alright. Don't do that. Not now, but later, after you've defeated your own ego." Rosa breathed a rough breath. "You still love him so much, son. That is why your heart still wants it. No matter how hard your ego keeps telling you to hate it and forget it, you will still love it, trust it, because your love for it, is very sincere. You love her with all your heart. One mistake he made, no matter how big it is, it will not shake your love, because your heart still feels, how warm and strong your love is, between one and the other. Let me guess, you dated this girl long enough?"

"Four years."

Rosa chuckles in alarm. "seen? Four years, isn't that a long time? Now tell me, does your girl make patal mistakes often, as long as you're dating her?"

Hayden shook his head faintly. "No. Quite the contrary. I made a lot of mistakes, but he always forgave me."

Rosa let out a rough breath while throwing a knotty smile. "Then, can't you forgive him?"

Hayden clenched both palms, until the veins and blood feathers that propagated there, also on his wrists were clearly seen to tighten. Highlight his eyes sharp, a condition of hatred. "How could I forgive him so easily, if I saw him with another man in his room, and when I asked for an explanation, he kicked me out?"

"See. That's egomu. Your heart can forgive him, because you still love him so much. But your ego is not, because your ego feels that his actions have hurt your ego. You should be able to control that Hayden, if you want to fix everything. Maybe not now, but later, when your ego is no longer in control of you. But make sure, you can fix everything, before it's too late."

From then on, Hayden began to improve. Not in an instant way indeed, because like what Rosa said, Ego Hayden too mastered himself, to be able to cover his true feelings to Feli.

Hayden was still often intoxicated, but at least, the more days, the less, not as bad as at the beginning he moved - occupying his barumya house.

...***...

"I'm sorry, because it took me a long time to fight my own ego" Hayden said, sounding so painful.

Feli and Hayden were sitting on the edge of their bed. Feli said, whatever Rosa told him this morning. And he didn't stop crying.

Guilt, gratitude, anger and gratitude, bersamuk in his niche, at one time. Trying to highlight each other, to make Feli feel worried and do not know, what he should do.

Hayden gently rubbed Feli's back, trying to soothe and comfort her, as much as possible. "Is it feeling better?"

Feli nodded faintly. Tears were unceasingly flowing, drenching her beautiful face.

Hayden smiled anxiously before finally, clutching the wife's tiny body into his arms.

"You believe my p-pad, don't you? That I didn't betray you?" Feli said - asked stammeredly in between her cries.

Hayden nodded faintly as he landed a kiss on the top of Feli's head. "certain."

"L-then k-why are you as if b-trying to hurt my feelings s-before marrying me? Y-you even came to my house and said, You want to propose to my brother. You also b-said, that k-you hate me. D-and the most p-severe, you made me think, that you had impregnated Ja-Jane. U-what's all that for?"

Hayden chuckled furiously as he closed in, at a glance. "I'm sorry. I just want to see if you still love me or not."

Feli quickly escaped from within Hayden's arms, looking at Hayden who still had a happy hue on his face with a sharp look. "What does that mean? How do you know if I still love you or not, in that way?"

Hayden shrugged, indifferent. "Eitherway. Maybe it was my ego asking. Let's just say, it's retaliation."

Feli's crying broke again. "You are outrageous, Hayden," he whined as he beat the chest of Hayden's field with his palms clenched.

Hayden's laughter broke, seeing how upset Feli was towards him. "I know, I know. I'm sorry."

Hayden grabbed Feli's two hands, grasped them tightly, but still put tenderness first.

"Stop crying and tell me to leave you, because I'll never do it." Hayden said as he wiped off Felis tears with the pads of his thumbs.

"You planned all this with Jane? What's for?"

Hayden let out a rough breath. "Of course to make you mine. But Jane thinks that I hate you, so she invites me to work together, for profit, I can take revenge on you, while she, gets all your father's wealth."

Feli stunned. Tears were coming back from her mouth.

Hayden clasped Feli's palms together, rubbing them very gently. "But I accepted her offer, just because I didn't want to miss the chance to marry you and try to fix things. You believe me, right?"

Feli gave a quick glance. "Eitherway. I don't know. What if you really want revenge on me? You can do anything to make your ego satisfied, right?"

Hayden let out another rough breath. "Babies. You know I love you so much, don't you? You think one mistake you didn't make on purpose could just make my love for you disappear?"

Feli's forehead frowned. His eyes squinted slightly, staring at Hayden, astonished. "Aren't I intentional?"

Hayden nodded faintly. "Hmmm. I know a little bit, what happened two years ago, it's not your fault, it's the wedge man's fault."

"W-how are you sure about that, w-while I'm alone, not remembering anything that happened that night?"

The corner of Hayden's left lip swooped sharply, mapping out a meaningless horrified grin. "You don't remember, Aunt Rosa told you that two years ago, I came home battered? I had a fight with someone that night."

Feli's eyes are patterning. His breath was closed for a while. His heart was beating at such a fast tempo.

One guess, just popped into his mind.

Chuckling softly, the beautiful woman shook her head, in disbelief. "That's impossible?"

Hayden nodded faintly as he gave a cynical smile, full of satisfaction. "Yes, that night, I had a fight with Jimmy."

Tbc ....