Sweetest Nightmare's

The Masalalu that haunted

The sun has sunk itself in the western horizon. Its light has now been replaced by the beautiful moonlight.

Feli is currently in a car owned by Jay who is splitting the streets of the capital.

Jay volunteered to drive Feli home, as he knew very well that Feli was unlikely to bring his own vehicle.

Two years ago, Feli decided to no longer drive any vehicles with his own hands, especially cars.

The accident that took the life of the father left a terrible trauma and a deep sadness for Feli.

Let alone to drive a car, to ride it alone, actually has given a fear of its own for Feli, especially when he was forced to sit in the back seat.

The reason is quite understandable, because at the time of the accident two years ago, Feli and his mother were in the same car with his father.

Feli and Luciana, then sat in the back seat and watched how the process of the accident that had taken one of his loved ones.

Having a trauma to a terrible event and not being able to forget it, makes Feli feel like his life is really stuck in the past. Moreover, he always blamed himself for the incident.

Jay who is currently driving occasionally turns to look at Feli who from the beginning of the journey just silence.

The girl's head bowed, staring at her clasped fingers that she was playing on her lap in a trembling state.

Jay took a rough breath. "Are you still in therapy and taking anti-depressant drugs?"

Feli glanced at Jay while smiling softly. "certain. Do you think I could still be here, if I don't get therapy and take anti-depressant drugs."

"Is there any meaningful development?" Jay turned towards Feli at a glance. "For example, how much longer do you have to live a life that depends on those two things?"

Feli snorted tired. "Of course."

Jay's forehead frowned in astonishment. "What do you mean I don't know? Didn't you ask the doctor who handled your situation? It's been two years Feli. No way, no change at all, right?"

As explained earlier, that the death of the father left a terrible trauma for Feli, so that the girl was not uncommon to experience anxiety disorders that are quite difficult to control.

Until finally Feli had to deal with psychiatrists and anti-depressant drugs that until now he still consumes if his excessive panic attacks.

Feli chuckled bitterly at a glance. "My condition will not be easily improved, if at any time there are people who remind me of the events of that day," he said with a voice that was so slow as a whisper that was barely heard.

"You shouldn't have stayed with Jane, if it's like that."

Yes, Feli's voice is very slow, but Jay can still hear it very clearly.

Feli let out a rough breath for the umpteenth time. "I wish I could. But in reality, the more I tried to avoid it, the greater the guilt I felt."

Looking at Jay who was still focusing on driving, Feli looked at the handsome man beside him with a sad look, then smiled softly. "After all, I can't leave the house I currently live in, because that's where my good memories with my father are stored."

"But doesn't the house just hold good memories? But must also be a sad memory?" Jay asked while looking at Feli, for a moment.

Feli nodded faintly. "You're right. The house not only had good memories, but it also had sad memories. However, I chose to just shake her happy memories and forget her sad memories."

"Then, why don't you try to forget the bad memories of your father's accident as well? If the memories are sad in your house, can you forget?"

Feli chuckled while bowing a glance. "Do you think I can choose which I can forget and which I can't?"

The beautiful girl clucked slowly. "That's a different thing Jay. There are some things you can forget easily without trying, there are things you can forget for reasons just because you want to forget them, and there are also things you really want to forget, but you can never forget it no matter how hard you try."

Jay nodded in understanding. "Hmmm. I-i understand. I have one thing I can't forget, no matter how hard I try."

Feli's forehead frowned. His little eyes squinted slightly, staring at Jay in astonishment. "What's that?"

Jay stopped his car, turned to Feli and looked at him with a sad look. "My first love in High School."

Feli chuckled in anxiety. "Ah you mean the insensitive girl you used to tell me about?"

Jay's thin lips stretched out, commenting on a soft smile, along with his faintly nodding head. "Hmmm. Either he's insensitive, or he's stupid." He shakes his shoulders. "I still don't understand."

"You should have your own initiative. Express your feelings directly." Feli confirmed the position of his body, so that he could face Jay with a slightly better position. "But you never told me who that girl was. Is she in class with me?"

Jay chuckles in anxiety. He loved moments like this. The moment where he could see the curiosity and the curious spirit of how the look in Feli's eyes looked at him. So adorable.

Licking his gaze while bowing a little for a while, Jay smiled afterwards. "We have arrived. Don't you want to come down? Or do you want to come with me, to my apartment?"

Feli's lips curled funny along with his face which showed an adorable disappointed look.

Feli opened the seat belt that was still crossed on his body while breathing rough. "You've always been like this. Avoiding the questions I've been asking for the past eight years."

Jay chuckles as his net is busy watching Feli's every move. "That's not important. What did I tell you for?"

Opening Jay's car door, Feli smiled sweetly at a glance. "Anyway, thank you for driving me home, Boss sir."

That way, Feli also moved from Jay's car and closed the door again. The girl bent her body slightly in order to face back to face with Jay who was still sitting in the steering chair. "Aren't you going to stop by first?"

Jay smiled thinly. "No. Maybe next time."

Feli nodded faintly. "alright. Then I'm in. Be careful on the road and see you tomorrow." He ended his words with a sweet smile as he waved at Jay.

Jay smiled as he returned Feli's hand before finally starting to drive back in his car and left, leaving the yard of the house owned by both of Feli's parents.

Feli shook his head as his net stared at how fast Jay's car drove from there, unlike when Jay drove himself home. "He can always make me feel safe."

***

"Mother, is Feli not home yet?" Jane asked as she sat herself in one of the chairs surrounding the dining table.

Luciana, who was serving food on the table, turned to Jane. "Yet. Probably still on the road."

"I'm home!" Feli's voice was airborne, along with the sound of the main door being heard opening.

Luciana turned to the source of the voice with a happy face, grinning. "That's it."

Quickly completing his activities, Luciana was very excited to welcome the return of Feli. "Feli Honey, are you home yet?" tanyanya, mince words

Feli who was releasing his higheels also raised his gaze, so that the blind shade and Luciana managed to collide.

Feli smiled happily. "Mother, if I hadn't come home, I couldn't have been here" he sneered.

Luciana smiled softly for a moment. "Why did you leave early this morning?"

"I just want to." Feli gave a glance, a glance. "Is Jane's already home?"

Luciana nodded faintly. "Hmmm. He's in the dining room."

Feli's forehead frowned, along with his slightly squinting eyes, looking at the mother in astonishment. "In the dining room?"

The girl smiled happily. "Maybe his mood is good. He never ate together, did he? I'll see him before I change."

Wanting to walk up to Jane to the dining room, Feli's movements were stopped by Luciana who quickly grabbed her wrist.

Feli was stunned, he stared at the mother's grip at a glance. "What's up, Mom?"

Luciana looked at the princess. "Well, no need. Tonight, I'll take your dinner to the room."

Confusion immediately impede the recesses of Feli. Because, not usually the mother let herself enjoy her dinner in the room.

Chuckling awkwardly, Feli slowly removed Luciana's grasp from his hand. "Mother, your attitude is very strange."

The girl did not give her mother the least amount of time to give an explanation. He just left, heading towards the dining room without the slightest suspicion.

He walks with spirit. Pleasure was evident on the face of the girl. He was very impatient to be able to immediately enjoy his dinner with his brother.

Feli could feel his stomach start to rumble, because he had not eaten any food since this afternoon.

However, soon after, Feli's steps suddenly stopped instantly when the net managed to stare at Jane and Hayden enjoying their food at the dinner table.

The look on Feli's face instantly looked cold and dark in one blink of an eye.

His eyes were bulging, staring at Jane and Hayden with shock and dislike at the same time.

"Feli." Luciana called her name to give a warning, but it was too late, because of that, now Jane and Hayden's attention was directed towards Feli.

Hayden smiled sinisterly at a glance. "Hey Sister-in-law. You just got home? Wanna join?"

Feli smiled sweetly, full of falsehood while trying to quell anger. "no need. I'm full already."

"You sure?" Hayden asked to be sure. He looked at Feli with slightly squinting eyes while raising his left eyebrow.

Felu let out a breath of air while rolling his eyes lazy. He twisted his body and quickly walked upstairs, towards his room. The girl ignored Hayden as much as possible.

It is undeniable that the presence of Hayden lately often makes Feli really irritated. Moreover, Hayden was always there no matter where he was.

Jane chuckles with satisfaction when she sees how wry Hayden's face looks as she gazes at Feli's departure. "It looks like you're going to have to try harder. Look, it's not Feli who's upset, but it's the opposite."

Tbc ....