SURVIVORS

Chaptre 94. Angry at Jealousy

Widuri and Dewi help Sunil and Alan to handle the meat that has been cut and cleaned. They had prepared the seasoning for the stock of the meat, then stored it in a cold meat storage room.

Widuri was walking down the hallway as Dean floated in carefully and let Nastiti hug her neck. Dean didn't even say hello to him when he passed by the hallway. Nastiti's eyes looked closed. Widuri's face heated up looking at that.

"What are you doing to him?" waturi was angry at Dean.

Dean stopped and turned around. His head lowered, confused what to answer to Widuri.

But in the eyes of Widuri, Dean's attitude seemed clear as the attitude of the guilty person.

"Where are you taking her?" tanya Widuri cynically.

"Download!" fierce command.

Nastiti took off her hug on Dean's neck and looked at Widuri who had turned red.

"I'm lemes, so have Dean take me to fetch water." said Nastiti. He even became a headache to hear the loud sound of Widuri echoing unpretently in the cave.

"Please get me inside Dean," Pinta Nastiti ignored Widuri.

Dean nodded, hugged Nastiti again and left the dumbstruck Widuri.

"What the hell is that? The sound of your screams filled all the holes in this cave. Let's continue to lift the meat in," invited the Goddess who had been silently watching in front of the dining room hall.

"Are you jealous?" Goddess pats Widuri on the shoulder.

"Whatchu mean? I saw her hugging Nastiti, so I asked her what happened. That's it." Widuri defended herself.

"Yes.. But the intonation of your voice just doesn't show that you really want to know the state of Nastiti. You're more like a cop questioning a suspect." explained Dewi casually.

"What time?" Widuri.

"And you're jealous to see them hugging. That's why your voice is shrill and everywhere you hear. Xixii.." The goddess guessed.

"Who is jealous? Don't gossip." Widuri stomped her feet and left the Goddess who was still giggling amused.

"Your face as red as boiled shrimp has answered it!" the Goddess shouted from behind.

Until the afternoon, Widuri could not concentrate on working. Mind everywhere.

On the other hand, Dean diligently finished the stairs down which stayed a little more.

While Nastiti has helped prepare their dinner menu after the body returned fresh.

The day's work was complete. Preparation should have been completed. So they want to discuss again, whether the decision to go down completely and close and leave the cave at this time is the right thing or not.

"You really want to continue the road or not anyway? What's the plan to keep going back and forth?" waturi protest is irritated.

Everyone was silent to hear it. They had been aware of Widuri's mood swings since this afternoon.

"He was quiet all day, but he looked terrible" whispered Alan.

"It's like eating people" Sunil replied.

"Definitely Dean's looking for trouble" Alan guessed again.

Sunil nodded in agreement.

"Ho oh's. And look at that plain Dean face. Like no guilt, "sunil replied again.

"What whispers are you?!"

Widuri.

"Nothing."

Alan nodded quickly.

Dewi and Nastiti could only shake her head looking at Widuri's attitude.

Widuri pointed the spoon in her hand towards Dean. So obviously the sentence was directed at Dean.

"I've never felt like the leader of this group. Don't we always discuss all the steps taken? And I'm just doing my part, just like everyone else. But if you really want to be the leader of this group, go ahead. I don't mind at all." replied Dean scathingly.

"What do you mean?" ask Widuri in a high voice.

"Please mistress be the leader and think for yourself how to get out of this place. When and how, decide for yourself. I'm going to sleep!" Dean got up from his seat and left.

"We're going to rest first, madam leader." Sunil and Alan catch up with Dean and disappear behind the hallway door. They don't want to be the target of an indistinct Widuri anger.

"You're showing me your anger?" Nastiti put her spoon on the plate. The eyes of Widuri were intense.

The goddess pinched Nastiti's thigh under the stone table, but Nastiti flinched. His gaze was straight into the eyes of Widuri who seemed to return that gaze fiercely.

"Who's mad at you? I don't have a reason for that?" rebut Widuri.

"No reason? You were jealous and angry to see me and Dean cuddle up this afternoon. Don't lie to yourself, Widuri. Everyone can see you falling in love with her, but your childish attitude keeps you away from her. Denial makes your emotions unstable, "attacked Nastiti.

"I'll clean up the dirty equipment later. You guys just continue the joke."

The goddess rose quickly and immediately ran away from the dining room that transformed into hell.

"My advice, change your angry nature and negative thinking to others. Or you won't have any more friends" Nastiti came out.

Widuri fell silent and fought in her own mind. Long ago he realized that the room was quiet. I don't know when they left him alone.

"How many times have I been like this? I can't really think mature and hold back my emotions. Stupid.. I'm actually making other people afraid to be around me."

Widuri wanted to lay her head on the table, to rest her troubled mind. But the table was full of dirty eating utensils. Widuri let out a long sigh, then started to clear up the mess on the table.

Widuri walked into the large cave room. He saw that his four friends were already resting. But Dean wasn't there.

'Where is he? Was he really angry this time?' thought Widuri moody.

Sitting next to the Goddess. Open the backpack and take the notebook.

Illuminated by the dim light of the fireplace and the light crystal, Widuri began to write.

Dear diary,

I don't know how much time has passed since I last greeted you. But we plan to leave this place in the near future.

We've prepared a lot of things, but there's always the unexpected that gets those plans delayed again.

I'm well aware of this obstacle, but somehow I can't stand it and really want to be angry.

I thought by blowing up all that anger, I would feel relieved, but I didn't. I just became sad. I don't hate anybody, not Dean. But they took a stand away from me because of my unstable emotions.

Is that really what Nastiti said? I'm the only one who denies falling in love with Dean? Is that denial that makes my emotions stir?

But how could I possibly fall in love with such an unromantic man? His attitude is stiff and stubborn.

Different from Frans when he approached me...

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"French? why do I suddenly remember that bastard? Huh, even the romance turned out to be fake! Damn traitor!" Widuri muttered furiously.

"Well, if I had been unknowingly in love with an unromantic person, then I would have opened my heart and accepted this situation. Maybe this way there's no more cross-crust in my heart."

"But how important is it that I realize how I feel if he doesn't like me? Wouldn't that hurt my own heart?"

Widuri went back to having endless inner war and just made her tired. Finally he kept another notebook and forced his eyes to shut.

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