Sorry, We're Not in line anymore

The Fucked-up Dinner

Baffled. Want to attend or not at Subandi's dinner invitation with Ratna.

"Hira, will definitely be invited to the event too" I thought to myself.

This time, I attended dinner. I admit, I'm lacking in company. To be present at such socialite events, I really avoid it.

Understandably, I always feel awkward being in the crowd of many people. Want to attend is also confused, because it does not have a decent dress for dinner events.

That dinner, wasn't for classy people. Uh! Never mind. I don't have to come!

"Dreeett.dreeett"

My phone's vibrating. Whatsapp login message from Subandi.

"Mas Bro. Don't forget yes. Tonight, it's nineteen o'clock ya"

Oala. My intention is not present. Uh. Subandi chat to me. This way. Long time ago, I thought.

I'm putting my painting activities to work. At first I imagined the look on Hira's face.

But, until this moment, I have not wanted to know him further.

Because, I'm still traumatized by my past with Sabrina.

***

In the dining room of my house, I remembered Sabrina. There, I once took her to dinner.

Promise will not leave each other. In fact, the promise was witnessed by Mama.

Yes, that's the silliest promise ever uttered by two different kinds of human children.

He's kind of a demon. I'm kind of an angel. Ahahaha! How not, because he betrayed me.

Here, I'm the victim. Getting hurt without a break. I was a fool at that time, for believing so easily, for his sweet promise.

Uh! That girl, it's the same. A seductress who also likes to hurt.

But, nevermind. I'm the bego.

In the dining room, Mama also once put hope to Sabrina, later she will be the daughter-in-law of his pride.

Since then, Mama has always been kind to Sabrina. Sabrina is his son-in-law.

Everywhere, Mama always asks for Sabrina. Good cooking, it must be what Sabrina remembered.

Lebaran, make a cake, until Mama wants to faint from exhaustion, the cake if it is ready, delivered to Sabrina's house.

Fucking fuck! Yep. She's a bastard who has ruined the beautiful dreams of Mama and me.

Why haven't I heard from you until now, Sabrina's dead! Because, like that, I can freely move on with my life, with joy.

Now, you're shackling my feelings. Sabrina, I really want to hear about your death.

***

The sound of knocking on the door of the living room, breaking my daydream.

*Dog dog dog dog dog dog dog!*

I rushed to the living room. I saw from the thin curtains of the living room, which came Subandi.

I chuckled to myself watching him come. I open the door of the living room, while putting on the face of a sleepy person.

"I'm sorry I couldn't attend. Because of that heavy sleep. Now what time is it," I said pretending to be in a daze.

"New at 19 Mas Bro. That's why I had the same permission as Ratna, to pick up Mas Bro," said Subandi.

"Without Mas Bro, Ratna did not want to start her dinner" Subandi added.

"Lohs. How could he. Don't make fun of you" I chanted, laughing loosely.

"Si Mas Bro doesn't believe people are alive" he said, scratching his head. That, Subandi's trademark, if you talk to me. There must be a headscarf scene.

In fact, I never knew he was scratching because of the combo or there was a nail. Ahahahaha!

Uh just finished talking, he's scratching his head again.

"Hahahahahahahah!" Subandi laughs.

"Mas Bro, plisssss dong. Come with me tonight. Let me not be silent with Ratna. It can be destroyed if Mas Bro does not help me tonight," pinta Subandi said.

I had to come along. Ask permission to take a shower for a while. Because from morning, deliberately do not want to take a shower. It's lazy again.

"Wait five minutes, I take a duck bath" I said as I rushed to the bathroom.

"Okay Mr. Boss" Subandi said.

***

I stepped towards the table where Ratna, Subandi's wife was waiting for us both.

But, I, I don't want to continue that dinner. I immediately ran away, even though Subandi was yelling at me, to ask for an explanation.

"Mas Bro wait," said Subandi looking like a confused person.

Uh! Women are the same. Goddamn bum! More a jerk than an asshole.

In a matter of seconds, I sped off with my tiger bike, leaving the restaurant where Subandi and Ratna had invited me to dinner.

All the way home. I cursed myself. Why am I repeating my stupidity! Never trust a woman. They're assholes!

My phone's vibrating. Subandi must have wanted to persuade me. Anyway, why the hell, me, Hira and that guy. That's fucking Hira, for sure!

This Subandi has no feelings anyway, invited me, invited Hira and her man.

Indeed, me and Hira, not lovers. But, didn't Subandi try to unite me with Hira. Then why should there be a man between me and Hira. Uh! It's a silly dinner story I've been to.

I instantly blocked Subandi's mobile number and whatsapp number. Once again, I want to get involved in Subandi's set-up. Nope! I can't be a fool like I was yesterday! Enough Sabrina made me a fool.

I had no intention of coming. Why am I being stupid, picked up right away. I should have refused, earlier.

I locked my house meeting. All the lights are off. Except the porch lights. Enter rooms. Then light the candle. Sitting cross-legged on a fur carpet, round in shape. Yeah I try to reflect.

Duh Gusti's......

Why is my life falling apart like it is now.

Give me happiness, which I have never felt.

Just a little, God. Let me feel it. I closed these eyes.

Unable to power, I shed tears.

O Allah, is this as weak as I am, to be humbled by women?

***

I heard the sound of knocking on the living room door, being knocked repeatedly. I'll make sure of that, Subandi. Even from inside the room, I memorized his voice. The answer is, I vaguely heard, and I made sure he was Subandi.

"Assallamualaikum Mas! Dog dog...dog dog....!

"Mas Budiman, it's me Subandi. Mas. Please open it for a moment!" he shouted again, I heard from the room.

I deliberately didn't open the door for him. I want to teach him a lesson.

Not everyone can be played like me. I have my pride.

"Mas.....Mas Bro..please open the door, briefly Mas Bro," Pinta Subandi repeated.

Honestly, I really don't want this to happen. I am very friendly with Subandi. He's the best friend I've got. Hopefully, this anger of mine, just for a moment. I don't want to be hostile to Subandi. But, again, I just wanted to teach her a lesson, so she could appreciate the friendship.

"Mas, open the door for a moment" a woman's voice shouted from outside.

Whose voice is it. Ratna's voice, isn't it? Ah nope. I memorized Ratna's voice. So, whose voice it is.

Hm. But nevermind. I don't care whose voice it is. I don't want to open the door, meet them.(connect)