Sorry, We're Not in line anymore

Introgated Again, Loaded Money

Hira still seems to be wondering where I have the money to go home.

He still kept asking me, about my pp ticket home yesterday.I explained once again, I returned home funded by my sister Sintia.

He still doesn't believe. Until finally he managed to find a paper slip deposit money into my account.

Oh gosh. Why could I lie. Damnit damnit! I know my secret about the transfer of the inheritance money.

I had to tell the truth about the money.

"So you've considered what I've been all along. Where'd you get the money from?" he said while showing the paper the deposit slip.

Again I am still rethinking. Where to start to explain to Hira. I decided to be frank with Hira.

"I got the money from Sintia" I explained.

"So rich is he giving you that much money?" chirped it with a sewot tone.

"You really want to do what you want to do with me?" I said with a tinge of emotion.

You see, I have not explained he has put an emotional tone. So, I also burned with emotion seeing his attitude that seemed to corner me.

Looks like he's positioning me on this, as if he's a corruption defendant. Who tries that emotion not made like that.

I don't want to continue the conversation. I'd rather go in the room, sleep in broad daylight.

Thankfully, I did not work today. Work From Home's. If work. Must be my default, bad mood. All because of Hira. He always looks for trouble. I tried to give up on everything.

But Hira never changed. Sometimes trivial things, he exaggerates and likes to provoke my emotions.

***

"Mas explain where the money from in your account is?" ask Hira again, provoking my emotions.

"You can't, don't you want to deal with that anymore?" I said try to beat him.

"I need some more Mas money, make Sora's needs buy" she told me.

"How much? Buy what?" I was short and to the point.

" Two million," he said.

"What did you buy until you asked for 2 million?" I started to get emotional.

"Make Sora need!" cynical answer.

"He needs what, a baby boy like that. You don't feel me!" I said again, trying to defend myself.

"You don't believe me. Sora it takes a lot of money. Buy milk, buy pempes, buy baby powder, and soap, and more. All this time, you gave me money, mediocre. Where's enough 2 million a month!" it seems like I blame me.

"You are not grateful. Had a husband give money 2 million a month, it's not a little money. If I'm building work, not necessarily I can give you that much money," I said starting emotions.

"Damn. Just giving so much money is already arrogant" said Hira.

"Oh my God, I'm sorry. You must be surprised to hear us quarrel" I said in my own heart.

I heard Hira tried to calm Sora down. Thank God, Sora slowly fell silent. He must have fallen asleep again, after his mother had calmed him down in a sling.

Once again, I was still emotional hearing the swearing from Hira earlier. He no longer appreciates my gifts. He should be grateful. Especially in an age like this, everyone is in a bad state. Economy collapsing. Why can't Hira be grateful for the windfall.

I heard Sora crying again. I'm sure the innocent boy was sad to hear my quarrel with Hira. He is still a baby. But, I know he was sad to hear his parents keep fighting. From now on I will try to be quiet, when Hira wants to argue with me. Is not silence better than arguing. Arguing, there will be no end.

***

I tried to be patient with Hira's attitude that started to make me emotional. I took over Sora who was crying in Hira's arms. I caressed the little boy's head. Sing sholawat songs.

I hope, Sora will grow up later, will be a tough and kind woman.

I see, for a long time his tiny eyes closed hearing the sholawatan songs that I sing.

My spirit now, just because of Sora's presence. Even if I don't always get along with Hira, all I ignore. All because of Sora. My little angel of encouragement.

***

My patience is really tested. This morning, I was going to school. But, at the dinner table I did not see Hira providing breakfast.

Plus, Hira is still demanding the Rp2 million he asked for, I immediately handed it to him.

Without further ado, my emotions exploded. Kumaki him with harsh words. But behind all that, I wanted to teach him a lesson. How to appreciate your husband. Because he always humbled me, just because of the monthly money I gave him, there was less.

Honestly, as an honorary, I had to receive whatever salary that was from school. Moreover, in this pandemic, the school enacted a work system with work from home.

No more out of town activities, which I usually can play a role.

Lastly, before the pandemic, I still remember, a year ago, I was still with Fera, my painting student.

"You don't think so. Today I want to have breakfast, nothing I eat. Keep you with the rest asking for Rp2 million to me. You don't have a brain, huh" I mean to Hira.

She was crying, but I was just so cute. Until he finally apologized to me. I feel like he's been lacking respect for my gifts.

When he apologized, I intentionally didn't respond. He thought that just by apologizing, I could get hurt? ahahaha!

Cannot. Sorry I wasn't ready for that. I want to see, is with him asking for maf, his attitude towards me will change?

Free dong asked for maf, tomorrow he with as he pleased, hurt me again.

These few days, I've tried to be quieter, and talk as necessary. I want to see what Hira's reaction is like to me.

***

Just yesterday he apologized to me. Three days later, it's done. What is not emotion. He said he needed money to refresh. Hahaahaha. Like rich people, need money to refresh?

If I have a money-making machine, please ask what I would love. Inj, my salary money is not up to Rp5 million. He continued to ask for Rp2 million, he said on the grounds for refreshing. Ah, macem wife what the hell is she?!

Nyesel I swear I'm nyesel. Because I'm the tiddler. Why the evidence of my Rp250 million deposit slip was found out. "Women are all the same, double-eyed," I said cursing in my heart.(connecting)