Sorry, We're Not in line anymore

Curious

Ever since Sabrina betrayed me, I shut myself down to fall in love with another woman. Maybe, I'm numb to be exact. I want to organize myself and my heart.

I don't know when, I enjoy this solitude. To me, all women are equal, the most annoying creatures.

But, I also realized, maybe this is the karma that I have to accept. I used to play women as I liked.

Strangely, I who later cuek the same creature named woman, suddenly thought the same talk Subandi.

Yesterday, he said. He said he had a girl friend, still single. If I want to see him, Subandi is willing to be his matchmaker.

Uh! Seriously, not her offer. Then, if that girl betrayed me, like Sabrina did, how dong?!

Those bad thoughts are haunting my brain. But my mind feels contrary. What's wrong if I try to open up to other women.

Ahahaha! I'm not firm on my stance. Plin.

***

"Mas Bro. Lunch at Pak Man. This time I'm the dealership," suddenly Subandi nongol in my house.

In fact, it's working hours. He must have been out of work.

"Stupid job yes. PNS is not really. Harming the state money alone, if there are five such tails," I said mocking him all out.

"Enak. I took 2 days off, for Mas Bro!? subandi told me.

"For me?" many wonder.

"Yes, for Mas Bro's sake I'm on leave. We're eating Soto Man, yuk!" invite him dusty.

"Hmmm. I'm not wrong with this?" chirping.

"Yes Mas Bro. More money. I'm the city this time. Take it easy" he said, showing his leather wallet. But, he didn't open the contents.

"Beware of lying." I'm joking.

"Oh my goodness, Bro. Believe in the same people alive," said Subandi seeking self-defense.

"Yes yes. Come onl. I take a shower first. Five minutes, yeah. Wait," I said for time.

"Yes. Do not wear it for long" urged Subandi.

I just kept quiet and didn't answer, and went straight to the bathroom.

It wasn't until five minutes, I finished my bath. But, again the bully protested.

I said I didn't shower. Just wash your face.

"But cepet Mas Bro. Bathing fuck. Just wash your face, okay?" his tanyanya mocked me.

"You didn't wear it for long" I snapped.

"Yes already. Yuk. My stomach worms are already on the demo, Mas Bro," he urged again.

I also took the keys to the motorbike, to the side parking lot of the house. The bike that I originally loved did not want me to wear out, because I just washed, finally came out also to the streets.

Along the way, I thought. Did I just ask that girl to be with Subandi. Who knows, that girl is a match with me.

***

I accepted marriage....

bint.......

With gold mating a set of prayer tools...

Ngayals. Yes I fantasized I proposed to that girl. Huhahahahah!

"Woi Mas Bro's. What pesen. How daydreaming." said Subandi who noticed me, secretly glancing at the girl, who was sitting in the corner alone.

Resembled. I thought she was Sabrina. Uh! Goddamnit! Why does a woman's face look like Sabrina.

Subandi followed the woman.

"Hmmmmm. I-i know.....!" subandi lirih.

"That's it, Bro. Forget your Sabrin. We're looking for another one" Subandi said, distracting me from the girl.

"Sabrina is beautiful. But, if it makes a heartache, why is it maintained in the brain. She is just a woman of the past. There's nothing great. I have people already. Get him out of your mind. Throw him into the sea! oceh Subandi at length.

But it is also true, said Subandi. I will begin a new journey of love.

"Well, that's dong Mas Bro," said Subandi encouragingly.

Kulirik once again, the girl. Subandi hurriedly turned my face away, so as not to turn to the woman again.

"Yuk. Just eat this soto. Later to be cold, as cold as Mas Bro is the same girl, it is a real danger like that," said Subandi again, still continue to babble.

I also immediately grabbed the bowl of soto plug, which was in front of me.

We, eat and drown in the bowl of the soto claw respectively. Mr. Man, look chuckled watching Cak Lontong broadcast.

It seems, Mr. Man is a happy man. He could laugh at any time he wanted. Not like my life is sad, because it never get a soul mate.

How good it is to be Mr. Man. Uh! Never mind. Why my brain is talking about Mr. Man.

***

"Talk to my friend, Mas Budiman. He's an elementary school teacher as well, in Pangandaran," said Subandi, who tried to connect me with the girl.

"Greetings," I said a little misbehaved. In fact, I dropped a cigarette ashtray on the girl's desk. Fortunately, the cigarette butt is made of aluminum. So I'm also safe.

"My name is Mahira" the girl told me.

"Call me Hira" he said.

The rest of us were quieter.

"Shortly, Hira's mother came out. Friendly, he shook my hand. I also returned his handshake.

"I'm sorry who's son?" ask the middle-aged woman, to me.

"Budiman, Buk," I replied.

As time went on, Hira did not join the conversation. He would rather leave the three of us, in that living room.

This house, big. Thought. The living room is just spacious.

I assure you, this family is family.

I stared at Hira's back, which slowly left the living room.

"Make milk tea yes, for this mas," said the woman seriously.

"Hira's his shy son, Mas. Please understand" said the mother.

We both just smiled.

"Oh yeah, I've never seen Mas Subandi. Are his office mates Hira too?" ask the middle-aged woman again.

"Oh this is my friend. He is also a teacher. Teaching at one of the SD in Pangandaran," explained Subandi in front of his mother Hira.

I just nodded. Accompanying the conversation of the two. Before long, Hira showed up. He brought two cups of milk tea which his mother ordered.

"Please drink, Mom," said his mother.

After that, Hira went inside again.

Again, I watched the young woman. His mother said he was the first child. But not married yet. While his sisters were already in advance, building a household.

"It's hard when it's the same guy. People like to be choosy. In fact, I have been waiting for him, if you find a male friend, do not use picky. Anyway he is loyal and responsible, it is more than enough." story Hira's mother, at length.

For some reason, I was suddenly curious about the figure of Hira. She's a quiet woman. I was hypnotized, at first sight.

Uh! I also just got to know. Usually, it is. Silent at the beginning. I hope it is true, my judgment, that he is indeed quiet.

Don't be tempted at first sight! My cry in my heart!

You have to trace first, the trail of the woman.

My mind continues to rebel. Not wanting to accept another woman. All this because of Sabrina. Yep! Sabrina's a fucking woman but I love you. Why does her shadow always affect my brain.

***

On the way home, Subandi kept urging me, asking me to accept Hira's presence.

"Actually the same woman, who yes. You or me. If you like him, just tell him. Make her your second wife, or your concubine!" I said half emotion.

"Yeah Mas Bro, relax dong. Don't play gas. I am just a matchmaker. If Mas Bro continued with Hira, I would be very happy. That's my biggest hope, Mas Bro" he said while patting my shoulder.(connecting)