Sorry, We're Not in line anymore

Ribet

Sunday night, the night I was waiting for. It's been a month, since Sora was born, I haven't gone to sea.

In fact, every Sunday night, Subandi, fishing. But I refused. You see, Hira is not sincere if I want a fishing permit.

In fact, my priority on Saturday-Sunday, I go to sea, with Subandi. All that I do, solely for the sake of looking for additional, to meet daily needs.

Now, not just looking for additions to daily needs. My spending list is growing. Buy Sora milk, once every two weeks. Not to mention the need for pempes.

***

I need to find a way to get out of the house. If you can't get out of the house, you miss the opportunity.

According to Subandi, if the fishing is patented, it can be quite the result.

"Mas, aren't we fishing today?" ask Subandi via chat.

I'm confused as to what to answer. Because I have to compromise first with Hira. He could not be left until Sunday.

"Later at midnight, Sora was crying. It's hard later if it's alone" said Hira looking for an excuse. But what he said was true. Sora loves to cry at midnight. Even if crying is hard to stand still.

Had to be persuaded many times, only then could Sora be silent.

Until I finally decided not to go to sea.

Wait for next week, hopefully Hira gives me a chance to channel a new hobby, while looking for additional money.

***

Coming home from school. Agree with Subandi, coffee at Pak Dollah stalls favorite coffee shop subscription.

About half an hour to get there. There, I saw Subandi had arrived first.

I parked my car on the side of the road. Crackling with motor parking. The parking lot is not too large.

So, people park as long as there is a place. Moreover, the parking lot is also not there. Obviously parking visitors in this coffee shop as well. Just like me.

I was in a hurry to find the place where Subandi was stuck with a glass of coffee.

Subandi I saw her waving her hand at me, as a sign that she was telling me her sitting position.

The chair in front of him and I sat there. A young male waiter approached me, handing out a menu of food and drinks available at the coffee shop.

Without looking at the menu book, I immediately mentioned the message of milk coffee and fried noodles, using flat eggs.

Before long, the waiter delivered my order. I'm sipping the milk coffee bit by bit.

It was only ten minutes that I enjoyed the afternoon after teaching at school. Hira called. She asked me to come home, because Sora was crying.

In my heart, I'm sprained. Did you, since Sora was born, my life has not had time to relax? Must take care of the child. Isn't that the wife's job?

There are a thousand questions that until this moment I can not find the answer.

"Bro, I'm sorry. People home phone. He said I was told to go back quickly. Because my son was crying all the time, waiting for me to come home," I told Subandi.

Fortunately Subandi did not take a headache and he understood and did not ask much.

"Wad. Okay okay Mas Bro, monggo not opo-opo. I'm still here a long time ago, enjoying the afternoon" he said, and I quickly walked away from him.

On the way I was really upset. It turns out to be tough, the test if you are a father. But, it's okay, I'm trying to accept. Perhaps, I was upset that I had not been able to adjust to the situation. I'm not used to taking care of kids.

***

"Geez, can't I just take a moment off, hang out at the coffee shop with a friend?" I said I began to feel emotional facing the attitude of Hira who seemed to rely more on me.

"Friends? Who is your friend? Tumben, is your school going slow? It's important to hang out with friends instead of going home to pay attention to children?" he said with a sharp tone.

Getting such a rant, I prefer silence. Because, if I answer, surely the business is long and days will not be finished.

"Yes sorry it was slow," I said, and immediately approached the bed of Sora who was fast asleep.

Hira said, the little boy was crying. When I got home, the boy fell asleep. I mean, I can't relax for a second. But what's wrong, give me a minute. At least an hour and two hours. Maghrib I went home.

Without me asking, Hira tried to explain. Sora was crying incessantly. Slowly, finally falling asleep.

The next night I tried to catch Subandi. But, against Hira.

"Lho. It's not Saturday night Sunday. Later Hira cried at midnight how. Don't lure!" he said protest, forbid me to leave.

Because I am emotional, I protest too.

"Can't you appreciate me? Just moment. I'll relax for a moment you protest. Want to find additional, you also do not support. Meanwhile, you said I should have some effort. To meet the needs of our family. What do you want, now?! I'm getting confused to face your unclear attitude right now!?" I said with a high tone.

Worse, he silently remained speechless.

In fact, I left him asleep. If his attitude is like that, I'm starting to not respect him anymore.

Just because there's a bond, so he's just like me. In effect, he is the one who dominates in the household.

Because they are still unsatisfied. I forced him to get up and make a sound.

"hero. You should listen to me talk. Now what do you want!" I said getting emotional.

He woke up from the fall. Then, he said whatever. The answer made me more emotional.

"Gini aja Mas, give me the money to spend every month Rp5 million, I must be calm" said Hira.

I got more emotional and I snapped at him.

"You don't think so. What is my salary? Atm is the same as you. I never asked for my salary. All I give round and round, same Atmnya. Less?" many emotions.

"Mas, living a month on two million, is not enough. How much milk and pempes Sora need to try, you count!" hira said starting to nyolot.

"So how much do you want?" just pissed.

"I told you earlier. Five million a month is from you. My salary money, for my needs dong," he said cynically.

His answer was increasingly stirring up my emotions.

"Find a rich councilman there. I'm sorry I can't take it if you ask for up to five million monthly money" I said.

"So you don't want to be responsible with your child?" the question seemed to corner me.

"Whatever you say. If you don't want to, here give me the same atm, right now," I snapped.

He's quiet. Then gradually left me alone in Sora's same room.

But, because I was emotional as well, I left the house. I'm stater motor. Drive to Subandi's house.

Arriving at Subandi's house, uh said his wife, he went fishing. So, I turned right. Go home and take the fishing line, then follow Subandi to the fishing rod usually.(connect)