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Buying New Sandals Is a Problem

Every now and then, I want to shop, even if I only buy a pair of sandals. Not the hundreds of thousands of sandals I bought. I am more comfortable wearing cheap sandals even with a price of Rp20 thousand. What sandals, if not plastic sandals. This time I did not go with Hira. Because I want to walk alone sometimes. Actually want to go three, together with Hira and Sora. But this time I chose myself.

At home, the sandals I put on. Hira knows my new slippers. He immediately grumbled. He said I wasn't scrimping. This time, I bought new sandals. On holidays, I also never want to buy sandals or new clothes. To me, it doesn't matter. After all, it is old, why buy new clothes or sandals. The old ones can also be used.

''He said you have no money, Mom. How did you buy new sandals?'' chirps Hira suddenly. Of course his comments made me emotional.

''Only once did I buy sandals, you were angry with me. The price is also not much, only Rp20 thousand. You buy a bag or new shoes for school, I never protest.

Soon he also replied to what I was doing. The next day, he didn't come home all day. The reason he went with his friend.

''Mother macem what she is, neglecting her duties and responsibilities as a mother. His son shopped away all day. It was fortunate that he drank a bottle of milk.'my grunts were full of emotions.

''What exactly are you. Intention to be a mother or not. Your son lives all day, you shop with your friends. Very much you are the same child myself, I said half emotion.

''Lho there will be his father, holiday, work from home, '' he said. His answer made me more emotional.

''Yes, this is how it is, from now on we leave Sora in the orphanage.'' I said still with explosive emotions.

''Crazy you Mas!'' his screeches.

For a long time, I intended to leave Sora at the orphanage, if indeed Hira did not take good care of Sora. I'd see him every week, if he was the one I put there.

''Crazy you are!'' he said he was getting more emotional.

''You are crazy, what a macem mother, leaving her child alone all day.'' my ul still blames her.

But again, he defended himself. He said he needed a refresh. With that reason, I also felt guilty, for rarely inviting him to refreshing.

Especially since covid 19, I hardly ever take him out. But, in order to cover up my mistake, I will not speak about it. For me, she was still wrong for neglecting her duties as a mother who had to look after her children.

If you say take care of Sora, let me take care of her in my own way. I want to put him in an orphanage. Anyway he'll be safe in my care.

''Where is your instinct as a father, leave the child in the orphanage?'' snapped it.

''That's my business. Because how many times have you done this. You are negligent with your duties, I told him.

''Yes already. It's up to you, what do you want to do with Sora, he went to the room.

Seeing Hira's attitude, it was strange. Lately he likes to leave Sora alone with me. Moreover, with me at home for work from home reasons, he is free to travel.

''Yes, if you want to divorce me, divorce me. We hope to get here, '' the challenge.

I was silent and did not respond to what he said. Because I never gave a word like that to Hira.

I really want to slap him. I regret choosing her to be a wife. In the past, I adored him a lot. Loving him with all my heart. But the human heart is rapidly changing. As fast as my feelings were also starting to change to him. He's not the Hira I used to be.

***

I don't know how many times there's been a fight like this. First, because of a small problem. But, the effect spreads everywhere. He also started not taking care of the house. Dirty clothes pile up, I wash them. Dirty plates, everywhere, untouched him.

Because of the problem, my new sandals I throw away, rather than bring up new problems. I relented and preferred to wear flip-flops, everywhere.

My condition is really changing now. Stylish a little, so trouble for Hira. He said I couldn't save. I bought something cheap. Still in his eyes, I'm a man who can't skimp.

It's my fault where I tried. Buy clothes or sandals once in a while, isn't that my right? But, it was all a problem for Hira. Yes already. It seems the longer the more bleak my household becomes. Why it's like this. My dream marriage, I can't make it happen. Hira started to change.

***

I complained about what I was going through to Subandi. He said I have to be patient. That's what Subandi says when I confide in him about my household.

''Piye kabare, '' said Subandi.

''Fire but languish, '' I said and made me calm while talking to him.

It's true what he said. The key is to just be patient. Without patience, everything will be destroyed. I'm trying to digest what Subandi always says. But, it seems like the limit of my patience is already on the verge of limit.

''How is this yes. Confused I faced my wife, I said to Subandi.

''Usually, Mas Bro, if women like to protest, it's a sign that he asks to be kissed!'' said Subandi and we also let off laughter together.

''Basic bloated kowe, '' I said to him.

''Yes, try to kiss him, definitely not protest against Mas Bro, ''' Subandi added again.

''Hahaha this kowe is-there, '' my chirps.

''Seriously, this is Mas Bro, try kissing him during a lot of protests!'' subandi Tehir.

''I have not tried this trick of yours. I, always emotional, if he does strange.'' I said details tell the story of Subandi.

''Aneh piye toh Mas?'' ask Subandi full of search.

''Yeah, he likes weird. I just bought sandals for Rp20 thousand, he protested. He kept saying I couldn't be spared. It felt like he wanted me to slap, obviously I was full of emotions.

''Sabar toh Mas Bro. Her name is female so. That means, he also asked to buy sandals. So, he will not protest to Mas Bro, if bought sandals. Go on, Bro, slippers him. Buy all dong Mas Bro.'' explained Subandi smart-ass.

''This ah kowe does not defend me, even Defend Hira, '' my protest against him.

''It's not like anyone Mas Bro. Try my trick. Women must be devastated, if often given gifts. Although small and cheap in price, he would be proud of the exorbitant you know Mas Bro. Believe me my words, '' still Subandi who spoke at length.

I just kept trying to digest what Subandi said. Maybe it's true what he said just now.(connect)