Should I Joke (Again)
41. Bullshit
Since the change of leadership, Rei has often met the Eagle. Whether it's work or other activities, the same is the case today. It has been two months that Rei has had to interact with the new leader often. To be honest Rei felt uneasy, even he would rather go than face to face.
And during that time the Eagle always looked for an opportunity to be able to get close to Rei, trying to take the attention more precisely. Although the Eagle knew it would not be easy to get Rei's heart again. Don't ask about Ardan, this man does seem ordinary when facing Rei, not because he doesn't care about Rei's past. But wouldn't it be better if Rei could solve his own pending personal problems.
Ardan is not a cool and cuckoo duck, but rather restrains his ego. He did not want to be considered too meddling in the personal affairs of his lover with one of his ex. He was jealous, even emotional, when he knew the story behind the leadership's attention to his unusual subordinates. Ardan knew it all, indirectly he saw for himself how his attitude towards Rei was.
Until finally Rei expressed his frustration at having to accept the forced lunch invitation. That's where Ardan knew who the Eagle was, his male soul said he'd snatch hers. Yes Ardan has already marked that Rei is his woman, his and he will never want to give it to another man, let alone his ex.
Don't ask me where, everything about Rei Ardan knows. And the source of his trust is none other than his own brother-in-law who is in fact Rei's adoptive brother. All the information about Rei had been he cantongi, even the list of guys who had been close to Rei and what his background Ardan knew. That detailed? sure is. Ardan does not want to be cheated, let alone deal with his former lovers.
Actually no one wants Rei to cover up about his past, especially if it concerns the issue of love that is not as beautiful as his shadow. But Rei needs time to organize his heart, as well as the present even though sometimes there is a sense of guilt for having to cover it from Ardan.
Rei promised to resolve the matter as soon as possible, because he did not want any misunderstandings in their relationship. Lying that Rei didn't know Ardan was jealous, he knew even very well. It was seen every time they met the Eagle, his jealousy became excessive. Like today, when Rei had lunch with Ardan suddenly the Eagle did not know he was joining their table.
Want to refuse but not feel good, because this is still working hours. Inevitably they let the Eagle sit. Although awkward, they still act romantic as usual. Rei fed Ardan, and Ardan wiped the food stain on Rei's mouth with a tissue. So sweet! and it did not escape the sight of the Eagle. Smirk's smile was created on his lips.
"Quietly, not long after, I'll be in that position. We'll be together again, Rei" Eagle
"I know what's on your mind, man. And I'll make sure you never get it." Ardan
The gaze of the eyes that had been observing each other was also not spared from Rei's sight. His heart was careless, did not want to linger there let alone there was an ex that made him uncomfortable.
"Lord, why should there be this position. Help me" Inner Rei.
And done, although not much debate that occurred but it looks like the drums of war have been anchored. Both men maintain their egos. Will fight for Rei to be his. But it seems like Ardan's rival this time is quite heavy. Let's see how far Ardan can overcome his rival.
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Returning to their respective activities, after lunch that left a pique, this afternoon Rei again got a surprise from the leader who began to dare to show his fangs. I don't know it looks like Rei has been lazy to serve him but the longer his attitude gets more annoying.
That's why Rei never felt at home for a long time there, if in the past when his best friend was still working maybe Rei will have a body guard ready to take care of him. But now Rei had to fight on his own.
The eagle again sent a gift to Rei's desk, and of course it caught the attention of his co-workers. Especially clearly stated who the sender is. Although Rei did not like it but he never threw it away, just collect everything because one day Rei will return it to its owner.
Tonight Rei was invited to eat at one of Ardan's five-foot stalls. Although already has a restaurant business that is quite famous, Ardan still likes to eat or hang out at street stalls. As long as the place is clean, good food will surely be desired. And he's not even shy, because before opening a restaurant business, Ardan had worked at a street stall when he was in college.
Some of the knowledge he got from the sellers that became his reference dare to open a business until finally developing as it is now. Ardan even invited his fellow comrades first to his restaurant. As the saying goes, even though it is above it remains grounded because above the sky there is still sky.
And here they are now, Rei and Ardan enjoying the seafood of his order. After eating Rei began to tell the events in the office that upset him. In the car they talked seriously.
"Mas, promise me don't be angry. And let me deal with my own problems with the Eagle" Rei.
Ardan exhaled, although his heart was unwilling but he could not forbid Rei. His fear and jealousy loomed again, and he could not afford to let go of Rei.
"Why do you still accept it, give it back and stay away from it. I don't like watching you receive gifts from him. I can even give you more than he gives." Ardan
"I know, but that's not what I want. The more I refuse him, the more he will be encouraged to give again and again. And I don't want that." Rei
"Don't tell me you still like him, and want to go back to him" Ardan said softly, his face no longer showing a calm expression.
"What an empty tooth it is, I never once had any intention of returning to her, not even in a dream." Rei started to feel cornered. The rumbling in his chest made him tight, but he did not blame Ardan for thinking like that, it was just that Ardan's childish attitude caught him off guard.
"Mas will never understand how much it hurts me, even to cry again I can't. But I'm trying to calm down because I don't want to regret it one day, even if it's gonna boomerang for me." Rei's tears dripped, disappointed for sure because Ardan should support him instead of limiting him.
Both are silent, no more discussion. Ardan started driving his car, driving Rei home and taking a break. Because he's the one who needs rest. There were no good-night kisses as usual, the two did not even look at each other. The flat face that Rei looked on as well as his cold demeanor meant that he was not okay.
Rei closed the car door with a slight brusque, Ardan to his surprise. Looking towards the woman who had left him in a state of annoyance.
Aagghjs....
Ardan hit the steering wheel, then drove his car back home. Fortunately, all the residents were sleeping, so Ardan did not have to explain why his face was now bent like that.
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Finally finished also this chapter, and write it on the bus on the way to Malang. It stopped halfway because of the many obstacles, especially laziness. There will be a lot of conflict in the future. Prepare gaess' bucket so it doesn't flood.
