Rivandy Lex: The Modern Military

Psychological Issues: Sheeran Chezka 1.4

December 24, 2025, at 20:33, many stars were shining in the sky that night. Billions of uncountable stars made me gasp at the sight. Every now and then I take pictures of the scenery with my rarely used cell phone. I only use it in emergencies.

Shortly after, Sheeran came out of his hut and approached me looking at the beautiful sky. He anxiously approached me. He held back the half-dead cry. Finally, she boldly called me husband.

"Hey. Husband," call Sheeran to me who's behind me.

"What are you doing here? Isn't it time to go to sleep?" Sheeran asked holding back his feelings.

"No. I'm just leaning in here. Nothing else," I replied staring at the sky.

"You can die, you know," Sheeran said

"I don't really care. I had no other choice," I replied still staring at the sky.

Sheeran is feeling pity. Just looking at me with sympathy. A few moments later. He approached me slowly then raised my head and kept it on his thigh. Sheeran withholding his cry was intending to tell something.

"Rivandy. Can I tell you a story? I want you to hear it. I hope you're listening to my story" Sheeran hopes to tell you something.

"Could only. I want to hear it" I replied without looking at Sheeran.

"Then I start."

"In ancient times, I was born with old parents. I was one of the children in a family that was on the poverty line. Mom and Dad are not working. They are old and old. It seems they cannot live their lives. They are quite romantic but they are not aware that they can no longer. They were sickly and ... just lying on a cold, rough mattress."

"They gave everything to me even though I was worried about all the gifts. I feel ... don't deserve all those gifts. Giving things that are ancient and damaged. Modern times will continue. Mobile phones, laptops, lamps, modern household appliances, LED televisions, and other technologies. It won't be found in this place."

"I can't take that stuff. So I gave it to the parents. I always look after them because I feel sorry for them. In fact, I can't keep this up. I am a human being with feelings. I can't live with them anymore. I fear. There's nothing I can do. I'm afraid to just be here forever.”

"There is no hope. No better partner and ... and …." Sheeran endured his cries during the story.

"Sheerans? You why?" I turned to Sheeran who could not help but cry.

"It's okay. I'll continue the story."

"Since Elementary School, I was labeled as a poor girl. They always laugh at me and mock me because I'm clumsy. I left at 3am and arrived at school at 6am. I do that every day so I can't miss the others. I can't buy the things I want because there's no money."

"Therefore, after school I went to work in a distant place and forced myself to take care of not only my parents, but the village. I don't just take care of my parents. The village chief I take care of too. He's worse than my parents. They cannot carry out their activities. All the little children in this village I help so that no one suffers like me. They're happy enough."

"I don't feel like continuing to live anymore. I. ... just do what I do. 3 hours drive to school, 5 hours to attend lessons, .. 4 hours to work, and earn money per day. I do all of that every day. On weekends, I work on full days and earn money for the village. This is what can't make me sleep. That's what makes me unable to stop. I always do that for the village."

"Why do they live longer? And just charge it. I can't live just to help old people. Everything I can't do anymore. There's nothing I can do to change this."

"I feel like it's all free. The growth of this village is declining. This caused death to the backward villagers like me. There is no doctor's treatment here. Everything is done traditionally."

"I can't imagine the future of this village. This village cannot get the attention of any city government. In fact, they are busy with their own business. There's nothing better than this. I just ... You know. I'm just a girl who only works for the village, especially my parents."

"One day, I found something that caught my attention. I opened something and I saw information that there was. I saw information that would change my life. That is ... Spyxtria Military Academy."

"I signed up there and tried to qualify so I could have a better life than before. I tried so hard to graduate and become an academy student. At the time of the test, I passed the academy test at rank 262. At that moment, I was getting better. I can enter the academy where I can send money to old and hopeless parents."

"But, still. I can't forget them. I left the village and headed to Moscow with the money I collected. I did it for my better life. However, I don't feel better. I still have nightmares that I can't imagine. I left them and waited for their deaths. I rarely can't sleep just because of that. I am a lame. I don't have the heart to take care of them."

"I've heard a horoscope from a fortune teller. If I find the Prince, my life will change. If there's a prince, I can be next to him. If I had a Prince, my life and everything would change. Therefore, I look for the prince in the garden or not at all. And there, I met you. I'm ashamed of myself. I'm so grateful you kissed me, that I'm crazy about you."

"If you don't exist, I'll live with nightmares. If you don't kiss me, I can't meet you. You'll be close to the other girl. You won't understand my feelings. You're only a prince to the girl you like and it's not me. You kissed her and waited for the academy's graduation after a long wait. After graduation, you will marry another girl you like. And you forgot me."

"I'm willing to be a perverted girl just for you. If it is the second, it is okay. I just want to be a slave to you. I don't want you to leave me alone. I don't want you to have an affair with another girl. After all, you are my husband. I will be a perverted wife and will continue to seduce you. This is done so that you are always by my side. I don't want you .. to disappear from me."

"If I did, I'd be a pervert girl and not get married. I'll be people's subscription. I'll be the former. I'll forget them all. I won't remember anymore. I'm a lewd, ungodly girl, and .. often self-torture."

"I hope .. You understand my story. I didn't expect to get an answer. I just want you to hear it. That's enough."

I heard that story. Her tears washed my face. I don't mind that much and I feel sorry for him with that story. If I wasn't around, she'd be the girl fixated on poverty. I also do not understand the Russian government. It's like .. a sad story. I've heard that from Neesan before. Therefore, .. I will take him out.

"Sheeran" called me to Sheeran who shed his tears.

"Yes" Sheeran said, wiping away her tears.

“I've heard your story. It's pretty awful. I didn't realize your perverted attitude. You did it all just for that."

“You are not a bad girl. You're just too focused on that village.”

“Because you introduced me to your parents as your husband. If I were you, I wanted to make a child with my husband and live a married life for 3 years,” I explained with my view.

“But, if you do that, ...” Sheeran tries to express his feelings.

“I'm just kidding. Don't think about it!” I lied to Sheeran.

“This village ... is no longer helped.” my murmur saw the focal point of the light.

“You should leave them. There's no other choice. Them ...”

“No! I can't leave them. I was afraid they would curse me,” Sheeran replied worried about the deteriorating condition of the village.

I got up from Sheeran's thigh back and immediately realized something. I turned around and touched Sheeran's body with his shoulder touched by my hand. I started to say something to Sheeran without taking out that useless lecture.

“Listen to me, Sheeran! They never asked for help. They never told you to work either. You always make their lives longer. So, that's what makes you burdened.”

“According to mathematical calculations, Of the current 70 people will die in this year will increase. Next year only 40 survive. Aurora or a professional doctor won't be able to cure them. They will continue to fall in this pretty harsh life.”

“Even the government won't be able to fix this village. It won't be able to. After all, this road is very remote. It's the same as Dargavs village. There are only bones. This village will be a dead village.”

“Your parents won't blame you. To the village, and all these inhabitants, will not blame you. They always thank you for sending them money. With that, the children in this village will leave the village and continue their lives."

“This is all because you motivated them to get out of this village.You made them try to get out of this village and immediately headed to the city to get a decent living,”

“Cannot be! I made them ...” Sheeran was surprised by what I was saying.

“But, it's not your fault. You're not just out of this zone. You ... get them out of the poverty zone.

“But, I ..” Sheeran listened to my explanation.

“So, don't blame yourself! They will be happy in space. You just carry on your life forward" I said.

“You've tried hard. You just need a little rest. That's better,” my message goes to the hut.

Sheeran just fell silent rigidly at my message. He smiled a little with such a great effort. I want to hold that feeling. However, it cannot. He just fell silent while shedding his tears with a moment.

Take it easy, Sheeran. Your efforts will not be in vain ~ Rivandy Lex.

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At 22:23, I lay in a warm place. I also installed a body-warming device that I used to warm my body just in case. It was given by Neesan's doctor of choice. Soon, a girl entered my room and hid my heating device. Then he approached me, so I woke up from exposure to the cold air that stung me.

"Sheerans? What the hell are you doing? Where's my body warmers?" I asked to hold the cold.

Sheeran smiled faintly. He replied, "I keep it in your bag."

"Why did you keep it? I was cold," I asked immediately shivering.

"Let me warm your body! I am very good at warming my body. Especially for a husband like you," he bargained.sambut unbuttoned.

"Eh?" I was surprised by Sheeran's behavior.

"Don't worry! Because you're my husband. I'll warm me up" Sheeran's response began to pervert.

"Sheeran! Nay! I'm still weak!" Rintihku wants to sigh.

"Don't worry! I'm still a virgin, really," Sheeran blurted uncontrollably.

I had to accept Sheeran's offer. I warmed my body with Sheeran. He warms my body in an unnatural way. Even the weirdest. This makes me a little more comfortable with Sheeran's service to warm my body.

I've always been a loyal customer for Sheeran. And so, I screamed. Holding back my tears as my body warms. I don't really need that body-warming thing anymore. Sheeran alone was enough to vent his passion on me.

I don't care about the people around. I just focused on reacting and immediately getting Sheeran's pretty special service. We did something special.

After the relationship, we slept with.hugging each other. He was happy because I gave him a message.

We hooked up just to warm my body at night.