Rhinayung

The Unhealing Medicine

My father slowly walked away from me, leaving my dirty, scarred and helpless body lying on the ground. I tried to wake up with great difficulty, but still failed. My mother seemed to approach me, then help me stand up. I don't want to say thank you to my mom. Anyway, my mother was involved in my torture this afternoon.

"If you told Mom to come home soon, this would not happen. This is the reward you deserve! Take a shower, change your clothes and eat. If you need to, I'll treat your wounds!" my mother said that didn't calm me down, but only made me run deeper.

With slow steps and staggering, I tried to take the change of clothes and towels in my room. Then I cleaned my body in the bathroom. It was a wound all over my body when I was exposed to water. But it's better to keep me clean, than the dirty soil remains on my body to make my wounds widen and worse.

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Finished my bath in the room with staggering steps, then I could only sit limp. My body was shivering because the water in the bathroom was too cold. My eyes felt heavy to open, probably because the swelling was getting bigger.

"Mom, here's your food. Said my father tell me to run out" said Ardya, my younger brother who is still a toddler and so innocent.

I smiled, then thanked him.

"Sir, your wound hurts, right? Bloody ex? I'm treating ya?" ardya said as he ran away from me.

I ate voraciously this time, to restore my strength. I don't think about tomorrow. If I am alive tomorrow, I hope my life will be better.

"Ready! Already, you bobo there. It's seven o'clock at night, you know! School tomorrow, right?" I said later.

After I finished eating, I went to the kitchen and washed the dishes. Walking into the kitchen was a struggle, because my wounds were getting sore. My legs and all over my body felt stiff and stiff.

"Rinayung, this is medicine for your wounds. Let it be Mom who rubs it on your wounded body" said my mother and I did not reject her offer.

I just kept quiet, when my mom applied the medicine. I could endure the pain, so that not a word came out of my mouth.

"Rinayung, this is nothing compared to what your father did to me. Because you were born female. Your father wants a boy. Every day your father hits mom. Even mom's bleeding and not being taken to the doctor by your dad. Mom almost died. It's because of you! Because you were born a woman! Your father doesn't need a daughter! I also don't want to have a daughter! Girls are unreliable! The girl is just a burden and the edges are just in the kitchen! Will not be able to support parents when parents are old!" my mother said in a soft, yet heart-wrenching voice.

I didn't cry a bit, nor did the words come out of my mouth. My heart is frozen and frozen. If I were a viper, I would have bitten and torn my father and mother apart. But baby, I'm just a human being. I don't have the ability to retaliate at this time, I don't know if I'll be alive and given a long life.

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