Rhinayung

Love, Do What?

As usual, I went to school today. That complicated math PR is done. The first hour happens to be a math lesson. No wonder, if the majority of my classmates left early. For what sake, try? For PR mathematics!

"Rinayung, you're not leaving early in the morning. Where's your PR, it's done?" pinta Fitri, my friend.

"Yes, already. Wh why? Wanna mop?" I said while putting the bag in the desk drawer.

"Yup!" fitri said briefly.

I immediately handed over the math PR book to Fitri. Many friends copy, but there are also some friends who invite me to discuss. I do, please! I'm not stingy about science. After all, I have nothing to share other than science.

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"Rinayung, you know what?" ask Fitri to me during the first break.

"Don't know," I replied of origin, because Fitri's question is not yet clear.

"That guy likes you" he continued.

I responded casually, not taking it seriously and not even thinking anything.

"I like my friends too. Not just the same, but all. My friends are good with me" I said casually.

"And that has a crush on you, want to be your girlfriend, that's it!" fitri.

"Here you go, don't talk about boyfriends. Not me!"

I am not as excited as my friends when talking about a boyfriend, love or lover. Whatan, anyway? I don't need all that right now. I just need food, school and money.

"Rinayung, many women are chasing Danang. But rejected the same Danang. You are even so! Come, Rinayung! Accept Danang, at least you have a shuttle to school, no need to walk!" talk Fitri to me.

"At least someone is protecting you, Rinayung!"

Ah, I don't want to talk at length about that anymore with Fitri. Fitri's my best friend since 1st grade Junior High. But I never once told Fitri about my personal problems. I know, my personal problems are the disgrace of my family.

"Protect me? From what?" I continued and tried to stop the conversation about this, but it did not offend Fitri.

"Yes, protect! The girlfriend! The hell time, do not want to spoiled or make out the same girlfriend that!"

"I haven't thought about it, Fit! My focus is on school and studying. That's it, that's it!"

"You don't like it, does anyone say Sunday night?" fitri.

"Non-mind, Fit! My parents were odd jobs, my grandmother opened a stall. Sunday night anyway, I used to watch the stalls. If my parents have a job that needs my help, yes I help my parents. So, I can't keep up with current trends. Even to have a boyfriend or date, it's far from my mind!" I said later.

Fitri fell silent, then let out a long sigh. Fitri did not think, why a good opportunity to be courted Danang was not welcomed by Rinayung.

"You must be a nerd at home?" fitri continued with another topic.

"Nor! I'll take care of the stall after school. Mostly while waiting for customers, I read the textbooks!"

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In my teens, I hadn't thought about a boyfriend, let alone love. For what, love? Like my parents, who at first they loved each other and then went out. Finally married and had a child. But baby, my parents' economy is morat-marit. Minimal education. So, only selfishness is present in his daily life. The mind is not used logically. Then I was the victim. Victims of stupidity and ignorance. Maybe if my parents' economy is good and my parents' education is adequate, there will be no DPRT that happens to me every day. There is no negative doctrine for me.

So, I just need food, school and money for now. I don't need a boyfriend, not even in a fantasy.

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