
My days are full of pretense. What I did, was completely out of sync with my heart. Yeah, the more days I'm getting like an evil robot controlled by a male demon in the future denizens of hell.
"Rinayoung! Where's your stolen property?" snapped my dad right behind my ear.
The voice boomed, making my ears hurt. However, the pain of my ears is not as painful as my weak heart. My tears, too, cannot be compromised. Always comes out when the male demon forms me. Those tears made me look weaker and made the heart of the demon gleeful.
Yes, I nicknamed my father the demon of the future inhabitants of hell. The nickname is very accurate in my opinion. His behavior does not reflect as a dominant parent with his noble task, which is to educate and raise his children with faith and compassion.
"I, I don't want to steal anymore!" I said with a bowed face and a slow cry.
I glanced up, the eyes of the demon prospective denizens of hell were wide reddened. I'm resigned, I don't know what else will be done to me. I was limp and weak, my stomach was not filled with anything but water from yesterday afternoon.
"What say! Want to die quickly in my hands!" he shouted while grabbing my tangled long hair.
I could only cry, unwilling to take the word of mercy out of my mouth for the demon-creating man of hell.
"Based on a bad boy! I'm your father. Yourparents. Because of me, you are in the world! Let's choose one! Or die in my hands!" he nodded with a voice louder than before.
I don't entirely blame my mother for not standing up for me at all. I know, my mother was also a victim of the ferocity of the male demon that would-be inhabitant of hell. Maybe my mom was tired of rebelling, my mom was tired of begging. Decided to obey and serve.
"What a fool my mother! Why not ask for help for myself or for me? My mother's brother is many! With evidence and witnesses, my mother should have dared to complain. Either complain to his brothers or local community leaders. Ooh, is my mom so out of love? A deep love for the demon of the future denizen of hell? What made my mother fall in love? You idiot! How stupid!" I murmured in my heart in the midst of this torture.
"Rinayoung! Run my orders! If you don't get stolen tomorrow, just get ready to die in my hands!" continued.
I'm ready to die now. Killed now I'm ready. Why would I live, if it were only a sin I committed? Wouldn't that just torture me and take me to hell later?
"Eat this! Today your food rations are reduced. Just one meal for today! Why are you kept if you don't produce!" he snapped while giving me a plate of rice with an omelet.
I glanced at his face. The more disgusted, the more hateful and the more I want to die. But I must die in a state of repentance, my heart rebelling if I have to die at this time. What a great sin I have. I want to finish this meal soon. So that I may rise to my knees, and apologize to God, my Lord. After that, I would die. To die rather than live only to sin.
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