Queen Kepo

32. Feelings

...The taste is easy to come but hard to admit...

"Queen you why else?" asked Kayla in an annoyed tone.

His friend was dreaming again. This morning, the Queen had already reprimanded the teacher three times, because she did not listen to what the teacher said.

Jeni who was eating her chicken noodles looked at the Queen. Jeni and the Queen feel something has changed about the Queen over the past seven days. The queen was often silent and daydreaming. If asked, the Queen would not answer. The queen must be having a problem.

"Yes yes I eat it" Queen blabbed her meatball noodles with a spoon. But it didn't eat it. The queen has no appetite.

"Kayla didn't tell you to eat, she asked you why?" Jeni chose to keep her spoon. Then his outstretched hand touched the Queen's shoulder.

The queen looked at her two best friends in turn. The Queen knew that her two best friends wanted the Queen to tell her a story. The Queen cannot.

"Gue is okay. Come ah eat again later to rush in" After alternately staring into the eyes of his best friend, the Queen again rubbed his basok noodle sauce.

"It's okay. I don't know from when you become like a rough person. Daydreaming continues" Kayla looked at the Queen with an annoyed look. The queen still doesn't want to tell her apparently.

"And our rest is extended. Because Mr. Rendi today did not enter" added Jeni.

"Is it because of Gavin?" Kayla brought her face closer to the Queen.

While the Queen who was shocked because of Kayla's speech and behavior immediately distanced her face from Kayla.

The queen did not answer. He lowered his head deeply. Jeni and Kayla exchanged looks.

"Lo don't be disinclined by us. If anyone wants to tell a story, tell a story. Don't pin it yourself" Kayla said, making the Queen raise her head.

"We're not going to corner you" Jeni added, then smiled at the Queen.

The queen gathered her courage to tell her what happened to her. About the influence of Gavin's cold attitude on him. About the Queen who missed Gavin. But the Queen doesn't want anyone to know.

"Gavin keep away from me" the Queen began to tell a story.

After Kayla and Jeni simultaneously ask why, the Queen tells them everything. About Gavin staying away from the Queen because the Queen believes Kayla's words more than Gavin's.

"Lo doesn't like being shunned by Gavin?"

It took a few seconds for the Queen to nod her head at Jeni's question.

"Lo always thought of Gavin?"

The queen nodded back to answer Kayla's question.

"After seven days of not talking. Do you miss Gavin?"

The Queen would not admit it. But if he lied it would be free. Because his friends can't be lied to.

"Yes"

"If so fix lo love is also the same Gavin"

The queen rounded her eyes after hearing Jeni's extremely loud and tall voice. Slowly the Queen circulated her gaze throughout the canteen. And accidentally his eyes met Gavin's eyes. Oh how longing the Queen looked into those eyes at such a close distance. And the meeting of their views was only valid for a few seconds, because after Gavin turned his gaze in the other direction. Obviously Gavin is still avoiding the Queen.

"Lo's voice was less loud, Jen" Syndir Ratu with his pursed lips.

Kayla and Jeni laugh at Jeni's innuendo.

"But Jeni said it was real. Lo love the same Gavin d-"

"No. I'm not in love with Gavin" The Queen's voice rose slightly. Anyone who heard it could tell that now the Queen was angry.

No exception Jeni and Kayla who regretted making the Queen angry like this.

The queen, Kayla and Jeni stare at the paper and Gavin alternately. The paper is an announcement of a literary race, such as a poetry contest and others. Gavin deliberately gave it to the Queen, because Gavin knew that the Queen loved to make poetry.

Gavin had intended to apologize to the Queen for her recent behavior. But his intention was removed when Gavin accidentally heard the Queen's voice. The Queen's voice tells her she doesn't love Gavin.

...*...

Now this is where the Queen and Jeni are. In the cafeteria there was no one, other than the two of them. The bell went off a few minutes ago. That's why there are no people in this canteen, not even the owner of the canteen.

After the Queen confirms Jeni's offer to listen to Jeni and Gavin's story. The queen remembered Jeni who was going to tell her about it. It was all because Gavin was being cold to her, so the Queen did not remember that she should know Jeni and Gavin's story.

"Gue likes Gavin from a long time ago. But Gavin likes everyone else. The other person's name is Efrina"

The queen repeated Efrina's name without a sound. I think he just heard that name. A very foreign name to him, but not to Gavin.

"Who is efrina?" asked the Queen in a very curious tone.

"Gavin's girlfriend" answered Kayla, to be honest. Jeni's eyes catch the disappointed look from the Queen's eyes.

"But now Efrina is Gavin's ex"

"Why did they break up?" the Queen asked impatiently. Jeni's words are quite convincing if Gavin and Efrina ever had a relationship and then the relationship ended.

"Gue doesn't know for sure. But this has to do with Deva. Gavin and Efrina break up because of a third person"

The queen said nothing. This time he just wanted to listen to what Jeni said.

"And the third man was Deva"

"Seriously?" Ask the Queen in a high voice. He could hardly believe it if Deva turned out like that.

"The news is like that. But it doesn't know the real thing or not" Jeni replied.

The queen who is a transfer student does not know what happened between Gavin, Efrina or Deva. It seems like the love story of Gavin, Efrina and Deva became the consumption of students at this school, until Jeni knew the news.

"Even though Gavin already has a girlfriend I can't move on from him. I'm trying to escape him, get away from him. Until I received the love of Tyo that I obviously did not love. But I can't. My heart wants to be with Gavin. Whether Gavin has a girlfriend or not, I like him" Jeni continued.

"Gue knew I shouldn't be so happy when I found out Gavin broke up with Efrina. But I'm really shrewd. I feel like the chances for me to get him are huge. But Gavin never gave me that chance. I didn't stop there, I just kept chasing him. Until I found out she was with Kayla and the day after Gavin was with Lo" Jeni wiped her tears.

The Queen looked at Jeni with an indecipherable look. The queen is amazed at Jeni who loves Gavin so much and can even be said to be excessive, when something excessive is not good, right?

"Ever Gavin asked me to make temenin lo, because at that time lo Kayla temen nearest you muchin lo. Almost everyone is still lo. At first I didn't want to. But I thought again, I finally want to nemenin lo"

The queen smiled at Jeni's last words.

"But that was on one condition. That Gavin should kiss me"

Both the Queen's eyes were rounded. Her lips are slightly open. His heart stopped beating. The queen didn't think Jeni would be like this to get Gavin.

"And Gavin wants to"

The three words that came out of Jeni's mouth made both Queen's eyes heat up. The queen wanted to cry, even with a split second her tears would fall.

"Because it's for lo. She lacquered it for the sake of lo" Jeni said that with great emphasis.

The queen in front of Jeni could do nothing but drop her tears. It turns out that Gavin is willing to do what he does not want for the Queen. Now the Queen understands that the kiss scene between Gavin and Jeni is only forced. Jeni did it because of her wish whereas Gavin did it because of the Queen.

So the guilt that the Queen keeps. The Queen lies by saying she does not love Gavin, and Gavin hears her.

"Now Gavin thinks I'm like his sister and I think he's like my brother. Not all of those feelings have to be repressed. No matter how big we feel, but if in fact he does not have the same taste. Our feelings will only end in vain"