Pregnancy I Didn't Want

Part 9's

(Fring.... Cring.).

My phone's ringing.

I saw my phone screen Bi Narti calling.

"Assalamu'alaikum." His voice greeted me from across the street.

"Waalaikumsallam Bi." I answered his greetings.

"Ardan exists?"

"Still in the paddy field Bi. What's up?" Askaqua.

"Auntie wants to tell you this your brother Darwin is getting married."

"Thank God Bi. Finally..." I was thrilled to hear from Bi Narti.

"Tell Ardan later, yes, to be able to help prepare for the show. The show will be held on November 10." Bi Narti was clear to me.

"Good Bi." My answer.

My feelings are now happy and worried.

On the one hand I'm glad Darwin's already getting married. On the other hand, I'm worried that if I go to her show, everyone will know I'm pregnant.

"Bi Narti called earlier, he said Brother Darwin was getting married. The show's on November 10." Obviously I delivered Bi Narti's message to Mas Ardan

"Thank God. The weathered bujang finally married too." Ardan smiled at the news.

"Later if there are activities at the house Bi Narti Mas go alone. Let me go on the show." My orders to Mas Ardan.

"You're Darwin's cousin. Your family will gather all there when you don't come." He glanced at me in wonder.

***

Three days before Darwin's wedding, all the families prepare for his wedding.

I told Mas Darwin to go there while I was just sitting at home.

"What are the activities at Bi Narti's house?" Askaqua.

"Your cousins all gather there and they make cakes. They're all asking you for Dara." Mas Ardan.

"Sister Dania has come Mas?" I asked my cousin from out of town.

I'm very close to Dania.

"There was. I told you you're the only one who wasn't there."

"Mas. Who knows if I'm pregnant?" Search me curious.

"You're a strange question. You hid your pregnancy. If you don't tell people how they know you're pregnant."

I don't know what to do right now. I don't want people to know I'm pregnant when I attend Darwin's wedding. There was only one way that crossed my mind.

Tonight I took Mas Ardan to the clinic.

"Mas tonight we go to the clinic..." Invite me to seduce Mas Ardan.

"Tumben...? I never wanted to check on you before." Ask wonder.

"Then we'll go tonight." I convinced.

***

I laid off Mas Ardan in front of a clinic.

"Why not at the other clinic? There are often people here who check. The clinic is empty." Ask Mas Ardan astonished.

"Yes, here is Mas. I'm embarrassed to go to the clinic if it's crowded." I told Mas Ardan.

"Mom's gonna do something here." Ask Dilan who I took with us and went with us.

"You wait here with Dad." I didn't answer the question.

I entered the clinic feeling very scared.

"His mother is there?" I asked a nurse who was in the clinic.

"You check on Ma'am. Let's go for it." He allowed me to enter a room.

"I'd like to get checked out by his Midwife directly."

"If you want to check with me, ma'am. Midwife is having an event."

"Please call for a moment. Just a moment, mbak." I forced.

The nurse left me and called Midwife.

"What's this?" Ask the Midwife.

"I'm gonna drop the mother's womb." Without the slightest burden I let out those extremely vile words.

"Astagfirullahhalazim, get in bed let me check." I saw the mother midwife breathing deeply.

"Mother please help me, I don't want to get pregnant Ma'am. Poor my first child was a child." I started sobbing crying.

"Don't. I'm not gonna do anything. Your pregnancy has entered the age of seven months. Soon he was ready to be born into this world." Obviously Madam Midwife

"Mom. Help me. I'm not ready for all this." I was so begging him.

"Mother call this mother's husband to see me." Leech Bu midwife to nurse.

"The mother's wife's pregnancy has entered the age of 7 months sir. Please take care of his wife and child sir. Pregnancy is the most beautiful gift from God. Tomorrow meet me at the Puskesmas to pick up the KIA book" He explained to Mas Ardan.

Mas Ardan glanced at me who was still crying.

"Great are you Dara. The reason you went to the clinic was to check. You left with other intentions." Ardan raised his voice with great emotion.

"Sorry Mas. I'm confused." I kept crying regretting what I was doing.

"I'm more confused Dara. I'm confused by all your attitude. You made me ashamed in front of the midwife. What's really on your mind, Dara?" Ardan is getting angry.

I could only look down and cry. I won't be able to stare at Mas Ardan's face.

In the silence of the night I woke up. I'll get some water. I founded tahajud prayer.

I started to realize everything I've been doing all this time.

"O Allah, Forgive your servant who is full of sin.

I realize what I've been doing all this time is wrong.

If you want what happens to me then I cannot deny it. Only one of my commandments, O God, give my son health and perfection.

Because I would not be able if my son was born with a deficiency due to my mistakes.

Amiin Ya Robbal Al - Amen."

I said Do'a and sobbed in Do'a.