Pregnancy I Didn't Want

part 17's

"Thank God our work is done downstairs." Ardan asked me to talk.

I didn't answer him.

"Become, here I carry Dion." He took Dion in my sling.

"Your mother is clear. Where were you last night?" I'm still curious about Mas Ardan.

"And I told you there was business." The answer.

"What business. Who were you sleeping in last night?" I tried to talk calmly with him.

"I went to Irfan's house last night. His intention was just to make coffee there. I don't know if I overslept." Evidently.

"Emang Erna didn't tell you to go home what?" I can't just trust Mas Ardan.

"Erna didn't know I was sleeping in her house, last night a lot of other friends were there. They came home at 12pm, said Irfan."

I don't just believe him. I'll find out what he did last night.

***

Husband Goddess and her friends were joking in front of her house.

I heard they were discussing online gambling, which is now rife.

"Si Ardan also lost a lot last night, until dawn he played." One of them said the name Mas Ardan.

My heart hurts to hear them, is it true Mas Ardan gambling until dawn.

Doesn't he think of me in a busy house taking care of the kids.

Why could my husband fall into gambling.

"I'm out for a minute." Mas Ardan said goodbye to me around 8 p.m.

"Out of doing again. You won't be home all night." I keep trying to calm down.

"Just a second. Just coffee at Irfan's." Ardan gave a reason.

"If it's just coffee. Inside there's coffee." I said to hold Mas Ardan out for the night.

"Different taste. If there are friends outside. Moreover, I can't ask for rations baby, I'm at home." As he continued to leave.

I can only sigh.

What that's my husband's way of driving out the burnout while I'm trying to take care of my little ones.

I'm still waiting for Mas Ardan to come home, I saw a clock on the wall showing at 01:00.

There was no sign my husband was coming home.

Several times I tried to call his phone, still no answer.

Looks like he's already been flicking his phone.

***

The sun is shining, though,

The light entered the living room. I woke up a long time ago, because I didn't sleep well last night waiting for Mas Ardan to come home. I was in a hurry to open the door. I saw Mas Ardan's motorcycle from a distance.

"Astagfirullahhalazim, it's getting worse. Yesterday home at dawn, now home early." I'm nagging still waiting for him at the door.

Just now Mas Ardan parked his bike in the yard.

Plllaac.... A sandal landed on his face. I can't hold back my emotions.

"Bara. You can't wait for me to enter the house first. Shame on seeing the neighbors." He calmly faced me and pulled my hand to get inside the house.

"Shame... But it's getting more and more." My voice is getting higher.

Plllakkp...

"This is your shopping money." With his arrogance he showed money as a result of gambling.

"Where is this money." I pretend I don't know.

"Just wear. If I love you again."

"If this is gambling money. I don't want to wear it. Remember winning at the beginning is the beginning of defeat." I said advise him.

Mas Ardan left me and went to bed to the room.

I took the scattered money and counted. There are one million and five hundred thousand in total.

I keep it but I don't want to wear it.

Our current economic situation is difficult, not to mention the growing needs of our children.

When everyone has finished planting rice, it is difficult to find income until the harvest season arrives.

Mas Ardan fell into a deep sleep, to the point of not hearing Dion's loud cry beside him.

"Mama's son why does it cry." I carried Dion and suckled him.

Lately Dion's been fussy. Is it because I think of Mas Ardan who is falling in the gambling valley.

Parents said in my village if breastfeeding should not be much thought, later the milk becomes hot and makes the baby fussy.

Maybe it's happening to me and Dion.

At 13:30 wib Mas Ardan just woke up.

"Because, I'm out for a minute."

I haven't stopped him yet, he's been riding his bike leaving us.

It wasn't until an hour that he was back home.

"Where's the money I gave you last night." His face was flushed when he asked for the money.

"For what." I said pissed.

"Fast love me Dara. I'll borrow it later I change." He looks like a hurry.

"No." Refused it.

"Quick Dara." He opened the closet and tried to find the money.

"Don't fuck with you." I said I could only see her because I was breastfeeding Dion and didn't want Dion to be distracted.

He managed to find the money, and I just saw him put the three pieces of red money on the room table.

The sound of the motor is being driven very fast.

"Observe ye Ardan. It's easy to fall off the bike." I was upset with Mas Ardan.

"Mama why?" Ask Dilan.

"There is no dear. Here hug mom." I felt my son's little hands holding me warmly and affectionately.

The embrace of my little angel calms my heart.

***

Why is Ardan's attitude changing so much.

He's very influenced by his friends out there.

I can't do anything right now, though,

Why would he be like that, not accompanying me at home when I needed support to take care of our young children.