My Yakuza Boyfriend's

Chapter 20 - Memories

The sound of the fence opening surprised me. I peeked right away. The person I've been missing for the past few days is now only a few meters away. Tora's home. The man went back to his own home. My luck really came.

"What am I supposed to do?" I was confused myself, misbehaving like a hot worm. The idea came up to cover it. I'm gonna pretend to be asleep. I lay down without a blanket on the sofa. As soon as he carried me later, I would shout to surprise him. His facial expression must be funny.

I heard the door opened. Tora took off her shoes and replaced them with sandals. His footsteps were clearly heard on the wooden floor. Maybe he saw me. My sleeping style must have convinced her that I was slumbering.

Tora pulled the zipper on her jacket. Soon, I felt his presence right in front of me. I hold myself to peek. He must be squatting. Tora's breath hit my face.

"Tomomi," he whispered in my ear.

Apparently he was going to wake me up. It's different than I planned. Should I move?

"Tomomi," Tora stroked my face. His fingers are cold. I felt his lips on my cheek.

I took a deep breath, then moved, but my eyes were still closed.

Tora no longer calls my name. He was silent, but took my hand and held it tightly. "I'm sorry, Tomomi," he said softly. "You must be mad at me. I should have been with you more. I forced you to stay with me, but I wasn't even home."

Good, Tora understood my suffering without her for days.

"I miss you."

I miss him a lot too. My heart rate is growing faster because Tora kissed my lips. Can't be arrested anymore. I opened my eyes immediately. "Tora-san," I said as the man let go of his kiss.

"Ah... Sorry," Tora looks misbehaved. It should be noted that his appearance is now quite sad. Shabby and dirty. His face was greasy with hair that began to grow in the jaw area and above his lips. And he stinks. Didn't she shower outside?

"Okaeri," I said.

Tora smile. "Tadaima," he replied.

"Your job is done?"

"Already, thank goodness. Because of those duties, I left you alone. I'm really sorry," Tora lowered her head as a sign of regret.

I wanted to scold her, but seeing her like this, I felt sorry. Tora's not having fun out there. He works until he doesn't care about himself. In fact, he still thinks of me by asking Kei to visit here every day. I can't be selfish. "It's okay. There's Kei-san bothering me," I said.

Tora chuckles. "I'd better take a shower. My body is so sticky. Wait for me."

"Yes" I replied without knowing what Tora's request meant.

Long enough Tora shower.

Why should I wait for him? Shouldn't he tell me to sleep? Besides, it's like this. I have to go to school. Or do I not just sleep? But what will I do until dawn?

"I'm done. Are you ready to move into the room?" ask after coming out of the bathroom.

"Eh? Waita minute! Move to that room... That means..." I sat up quickly. Tora's question just now was like wanting to invite me to do something in the room. Or is my mind just dirty? Obviously, my heart wanted to jump out.

"ah! That's not what I mean," Tora laughed. "You're so naughty, Tomomi-chan," he said spoiled. Just this time he called me with chan frills. And that makes it look like a host. "What's up, Tomomi-chan? Aren't you happy being called that?" tora asked with a contrived smile. Amusingly.

"Stop it" I said.

"Let's go to the room, Tomomi-chan," Tora approached me.

"Oi! Wait!" I avoided his capture.

We circled the sofa a few times before Tora fell down because her long legs hit the coffee table. "Oh.." he groaned while holding onto his shins. He also collapsed on the sofa.

"Felt!" myrag.

"Take a look at you, Tomomi-chan!" Tora's breath was piqued. "I was too excited" he laughed.

I sat down next to Tora and rested my head on her shoulders. "At 5 o'clock. I don't think I'm going to sleep because I have to go to school" I said, then yawned.

"Sleep. You're sleepy" Tora rubbed my head as if I were her child.

Tora's treatment calms me down. My nerves are loosening. "You alone?" my many.

"I can sleep all day because of the holidays. Sorry, Tomomi, it's making you sleepy."

I chuckle. "Cursing is natural, Tora-san," I said.

"Then, go to sleep. I'll wake you in an hour."

I closed my heavy eyes. I can feel the ups and downs of Tora's shoulders. A quiet atmosphere like this is so much fun. Tora did not speak a bit. Only his big hand was stroking my head. I was a little surprised because he kissed me on the forehead. In the past, it was Grandma who used to do it if I couldn't sleep.

I am so grateful to have a family that loves me. My grandmother and my two uncles and their families have been willing to accept me since childhood. Even though Aunt Koharu didn't notice me, at least she never hurt me. The real family will not betray. May he have the happiness that I feel today.

Now, Tora is my family. I will not betray him.

Tora's promise to wake me up was not fulfilled because she herself fell asleep on the sofa. When I woke up, I was in his arms. Tora's arms wrapped around me tightly. His feet are on my feet. It really made me a bolster pillow.

The sunlight had penetrated the window. It's too late to go to school. I'm just ditching.

I looked at Tora's face. His pointy nose makes me wonder if he has a lineage of strangers. The mustache and the thin beard on his face did not bother me at all. Tora looked masculine. Her hair is starting to get long. I can't help myself not caressing him.

Tora is the best Yakuza in the world. He never killed anyone, although he may have often helped care for the bodies of his friends. Joining the Yakuza clan does not make him a criminal. He loves his sister, he cares for me a lot. From the outside, he looked ferocious as his face was indeed creepy, but behind that, he was warm with his smile and crisp laughter.

"Tora-san," I whispered.

"Hmmm..." I didn't think Tora was so easy to wake up to. He tightened his embrace, almost making me short of breath. To him, who was a big body, I was more like a puppet. Slowly, he opened his eyes, then smiled. "Good morning," he said.

"Morning. You didn't wake me," I said, pretending to frown.

"ah! I'm sorry, I overslept," he regretted. "It's too late, huh?"

I'm nodding. "It's okay. I'm just gonna skip the hook."

Tora yawned in front of me, making me imagine a baby tiger just waking up. So adorable. Especially now that he rubbed his eyes. "Eh? Why are you smiling like that?" tanyakanya.

"There's nothing" I deny.

Tora tightened her embrace. "Tell me!" his orders laughed.

It would be embarrassing if I said that. "No mauu!" myrag.

"You never reveal what you think."

"Because it doesn't matter."

"If it's not important, why are you thinking about it?"

"Because it's funny."

"I'm funny?"

"How do you know that's about you?"

Tora laughs. "I know you very well, Tomomi-chan," she said.

"ah! You call me that again" I pouted.

"Isn't that a sweet call?"

"Too sweet."

"Two? Tomo-chan?"

"That's a man's name!" my protest.

Tora. "Today we're off. What are you gonna do? How about we go for a walk?" tanyakanya. "I'll be with you all day" he looks excited.

Let's get ready to go. I wore pretty good clothes, tops and short skirts, to compensate for the appearance of Tora who was already perfect from there.

Our walking activities are dominated by eating. Tora wants me to get fat. He kept watching so that I would always finish my food. After eating, we watched a movie at the cinema. I let him choose the movie he likes. We were full because even while watching, he bought a lot of snacks. No wonder his body is so big.

However, the energy produced by the food immediately burned as we walked. Tora is not using the car because it is being used by one of her friends. We went around and ended up sitting in the garden chair due to exhaustion.

"You want to accompany me to visit Misaki?" ask Tora. I'm saying it makes him very happy.

Cellphone's ringing. I answered a phone call I didn't know who it was. "Hello?" my broom.

"Good afternoon. With Ayase Tomomi?" ask the caller who is a woman. How to speak politely.

"Yes." Yeah."

"We would like to inform you about the condition of the patient named Tonomura Misaki. Therefore, we hope you come to the hospital."

"You better come soon. Doctor Minami will explain it directly."

"alright. Thank you." Thank you." I disconnected the phone.

"Who?" ask Tora.

"The mental hospital. We're leaving now" I said.

Just now we were planning to visit Misaki, there was a call from the hospital. I can't conclude what information Doctor Minami will convey about Misaki's condition just from the phone just now. The woman who called was very polite, not sounding rushed or panicking. They never called me before. Doctor Minami once said that Misaki was cured. There should be no bad news. I hope everything's okay.

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We came to the hospital immediately. Some people are watching us, maybe because they recognize me who used to come back and forth. We went straight to Misaki's room. Tora The cat is not in place, but the bed is a mess. On the floor, there was a shard of shard that I later discovered was Misaki's vase. Doctor Minami and 3 sisters stand around Misaki's bed.

"Misaki," called me, then approached all of them.

"Ah, Ayase-san," said Doctor Minami.

Two sisters gave me a gap to look at Misaki. My breath was choked when I caught the wounds on the girl's face. His cheekbones were swollen, his forehead was covered with bandages, and the corners of his lips were blisters.

"What happened to her?" tora panicked. His voice is high.

"Sorry for our negligence in watching over patients" Minami said. "He was fighting with his roommate" he bowed deeply.

"Yamazaki-san is?" my many. It's just fitting that he doesn't exist.

Doctor Minami nodded. "Can we talk in my room?"

Tora and I followed the doctor into his room. We passed through the other patient rooms. Most of them were crying and daydreaming. I wonder if this is the impact of a ruckus for a madman.

Doctor Minami was sitting in her big chair, while me and Tora were sitting across from her desk. "According to the nurse who saw the incident, Misaki was beaten by Yamazaki-san. His head was slammed against the wall. Yamazaki-san we're checking. He is not my patient. It looks like he's having a fear that triggers a sense of self-defense" he said.

"But Misaki has never and does not want to hurt anyone" I said.

"I know, but Yamazaki-san also has a tear in the left temple. Maybe Misaki hit him with a vase."

"Then, what is the cause of the fear that Yamazaki-san is experiencing?" I know why Tora Cat went crazy. Makoto once told me his outline. But, in my opinion, Tora Cats are not the ones who would haphazardly hit. Moreover, I noticed lately, his relationship with Misaki was improving. He no longer told Misaki. Also, his mind should be calm because of frequent gardening.

"Hmmm..." Doctor Minami refused to answer my question. He looked towards Tora.

"Oh, he's Misaki's friend and I. We did want to visit Misaki today," I said. "his name... His name is Matsutomo Hideki," I made Tora's name haphazard. I used the fake name just in case Makoto came and talked to Doctor Minami. Makoto is also related to this incident because he often swipes the Cat Tora. The hospital might call him too.

"Yo," said Tora, who I found disrespectful.

"I don't know the details, but her doctor said that Yamazaki-san was severely depressed because of the loss of her husband who was having an affair with another woman. His mental disorder can arise because it is influenced by negative thoughts in him, so he hallucinates. The main cause is the memory of her husband's affair" Dr Minami explained at length.

"So you mean, in the shadow of Yamazaki-san, Misaki is the mistress of her husband?" ask Tora.

Doctor Minami nodded. "Can be. Yamazaki-san really likes beauty. She wants to look beautiful because she thinks by being beautiful, her husband will come back to her. However, her husband still chose another woman. Maybe Yamazaki-san considers Misaki a threat and she starts hallucinating. Then, in his shadow, Misaki laughed at her defeated self beautiful or older. In fact, the worst shadow is that Misaki wants to harm him, so he feels he has to defend himself."

This is a bit different from the Makoto version. "Didn't her husband die in an accident?" my many.

"No, Ayase-san. Her husband is still alive."

Makoto is lying. I don't see any effect if Makoto is telling the truth. I mean, Tora, the cat is not who I am. If Makoto says her husband is alive, what am I going to do? Because it was so annoying, I thought that Makoto was the woman who became the mistress of Tora Kucing's husband. Then without feeling sinful, he came to visit Tora Kucing to declare his victory.

Of course those are my bad thoughts. I'm trying to get rid of him. Now, the most important thing is Misaki. The poor girl was once a victim of violence. If he experiences it again, I'm afraid it will have an effect on his psyche. But if he can defend himself by hitting back at Tora Cat, maybe Misaki is fine.

I feel sorry for Misaki, but also for Cat Tora. I can't imagine seeing Tora having an affair. With the promises that he had been saying, apparently Tora also revealed them to others. It must have been very painful. If I were Tora Cats, I might as well inhabit this hospital. I'd go crazy if my boyfriend cheated on me.

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Misaki's room was already quiet once Tora and I got back. Misaki's eyes are still closed. Breathing regular. I just noticed a blue wound on Misaki's lower arm, as well as a grip on her wrist. Tora The cat must have held Misaki's hand with his own. Very strong he.

I remember when Seiji almost raped me. One can have more power if one wants something. The adrenaline's gotta be peaking. It's terrible to think about, but that's human. Frighteningly.

"Why would he hurt my sister?" ask Tora. Both of his eyes fixed on Misaki's face.

"He was unconscious when he did it" I said. I hope Tora understands Tora's actions Cat. I myself do not understand why Tora Cats consider Misaki as a threat. Does Misaki remind her of her husband's mistress? Misaki is a pretty girl, but doesn't Cat Tora like pretty girls? Why didn't she attack Makoto who was also beautiful?

"I knew. I was just thinking, is it possible that the negative thoughts of Yamazaki-san came from outside."

"You mean?" I looked at Tora, curious at her opinion.

"That time Yamazaki-san asked me what my relationship with Misaki was. I said I was his sister. She seems surprised, then says that she likes Misaki. He also gave me a message."

"What message?"

"Don't let Misaki fate like her."

"Eh?"

"If Yamazaki-san was so concerned about Misaki, why would he beat her up like this? I guess, there are other things that affect the soul of Yamazaki-san. He's been fine all along, hasn't he?"

I'm nodding. Yes, from the time Tora Cat became Misaki's roommate until before this incident, I didn't see any awkwardness in her. The woman was indeed chatty, cynical, and obsessed with beauty. However, sometimes he chatted with us like a healthy person. His eyes were not empty either. In fact, he told me to dress up. It shows that he is normal.

"Isn't this weird?" continued Tora.

Come to think of it, this is very strange. "Do we have to see the doctor who handled Yamazaki-san? Uh! Do you want to stay here with Misaki?"

Tora weighing. "I'm coming with you."

Asking the doctor Tora Kucing will at least clarify the psychiatric disorders experienced by his patients. I don't know how Tora Cat got in here. If only recently Makoto diligently looked at him, maybe Tora Kucing was indeed dumped by his family.

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I never thought, it turns out that Doctor Tora Cats is a mixed-blooded woman. His nose was very sharp and his hair was blond. Either his father or his mother is western. "Debby," he said, introducing himself. "Please sit down."

Tora and I sat in front of the doctor.

"Can I help you?" ask her good Japanese.

"We wanted to ask you about your patient named Yamazaki Nao" Tora said. "His family background, the cause of his illness, etc."

"Are you his family?"

"No, but this is related to the beating case against Tonomura Misaki."

"That means you're the girl's family. We are prohibited from providing information about patients to persons who are not family members. However, for this matter, it seems like I can help a little," Doctor Debby smiled.

There was a sense of relief because this beautiful doctor wanted to help us.

"Yamazaki-san started being treated here since last year. She was delivered by her own husband. At first, she cried even though she thought that her husband would leave her. When I first met her, I felt that Yamazaki-san was a strong woman. I feel like he can recover from his depression. However, her husband's betrayal extinguished her spirit. He almost committed suicide. Thankfully we arrived on time. He almost became the first patient to jump off the roof of this hospital."

"So right, her husband is still alive?" my many.

Doctor Debby nodded. "But Yamazaki-san thinks that her husband is dead. She doesn't want to see her husband again. Therefore, she continued to instill a presumption on her to forget her husband."

"Then, what was the reason for Yamazaki-san attacking Misaki?"

"The interest in the affair has resurfaced. As I asked, she spoke it was not clear that Misaki would seize her husband, Misaki was unfit for her husband, Misaki is evil. Now he is in isolation so as not to hurt anyone else or himself."

"Could it be that the memory came about because she saw an incident that reminded her of her husband or other factors?" Tora looked so curious about it.

To be honest, I was starting to think that the case of Tora the Cat was almost the same as Misaki. Only, Tora the Cat refused to recall. The bad memory caused negative thoughts in his head. If Misaki had also rejected her memory of Tora, it might have been Misaki who had been isolated.

"It can" replied Dr. Debby. "The idea can appear suddenly by itself, or is influenced by external factors. For example, there is someone who tries to make her recall bad events. I heard from Doctor Minami that Misaki also experienced it, but she managed to get through that period well. For the case of Yamazaki-san, the memory is a bad memory, so the consequences will be more dangerous."

"Wait a minute, Doctor. You're saying this is the same as Misaki?" ask Tora.

"Almost the same," said Dr. Debby.

"That means..." Tora looked at. "There's a chance someone might try to provoke Yamazaki-san's memory."

My mind opened immediately. "Macoto-neesan?"

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