My Sister's Candidate Becomes My Husband

CAMS - Up 44

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My eyeballs spontaneously moved to look at him, looking at Mama-in-law who was now turning her face did not want to look at me.

My father-in-law told me that if my mother-in-law was not angry with me, but today I saw that my mother-in-law's actions showed otherwise, she didn't like me.

"Papa said Mama wasn't feeling well yesterday. I'm sorry for not being able to come see Mama-"

"Stop making small talk, I told you I don't want to waste time talking to you. Remember, I never agreed you were married to Deon because to me my daughter-in-law is only one, Almira. As for you, you are only a usurper, an evil woman who has no conscience. You have the heart to destroy Deon's relationship with your own sister, even though they both always treat you well but you give them cruel retribution. Hah, alright, today you won but this victory will not last long, Rain. Because someday God will reward you for everything you do today. Remember, bad people can never live happily because their hearts and minds are blind to the light of goodness. So I suggest you put an end to all this before God punishes you, filthy woman!" After overcoming that Mama-in-law then pulled Sasa's hand away.

I saw from far away Sasa looking back to stare at me, he stuck out his tongue in a mocking style looking very satisfied with the humiliation I got today.

And myself?

I don't know, sick, sick, sick. How much pain I felt today. I feel like I'm no different from the people out there, there are but not considered to exist, afraid to make mistakes but always considered a mistake, having a family but actually having no one because no one cares.

So, what am I?

"feels exhausting. I'm so tired, I want to go home and sleep. I need a break, just for a second. I want to rest my body and my heart for a moment, is that okay, Lord?"

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Coming home I went straight into the room, locked the door and slumped down to the floor to release the exhaustion that was eating away at my heart.

"Stop making small talk, I told you I don't want to waste time talking to you. Remember, I never agreed you were married to Deon because to me my daughter-in-law is only one, Almira. As for you, you are only a usurper, an evil woman who has no conscience. You have the heart to destroy Deon's relationship with your own sister, even though they both always treat you well but you give them cruel retribution. Hah, alright, today you won but this victory will not last long, Rain. Because someday God will reward you for everything you do today. Remember, bad people can never live happily because their hearts and minds are blind to the light of goodness. So I suggest you put an end to all this before God punishes you, filthy woman!"

My mother-in-law's words kept spinning inside my head. Reminds me that here, in this house, and even within my own family and within the Deon family, no one is willing to accept my presence.

"What's my fault?" My eyes ached and my vision became blurry.

I blinked my eyes to disguise the pain, as a result my tears could not be dammed again and overflowed from the corner of my eyes.

It hurts.

It hurts, God.

"I'm a fool because every time people scold me, every time people accuse me of making a mistake, every time people doubt and demean me...I could neither resist nor simply refute all their words out loud. I..want..I want to say that I am innocent, I am not that bad, I am not that bad but.I am sick, I am sick! My mentality has been broken since that incident! My mentality is broken, but.. why do Papa, Mama, Aunt Mei, Aunt Lara, and everyone in the house not understand my condition? Isn't..." It hurts!

My heart hurts and I'm tired. Their words were all like an invisible knife that endlessly wounded me, scratching my heart as deeply as possible.

".. family? They are my family but why do their attitudes and actions show as if I am a stranger in that house?" Which I really can't understand.

They were all apathetic towards me and trusted Almira more.

"You're not fair, you love Almira but why don't I? Don't you know that I'm so jealous.I'm jealous of everything my sister got. I'm jealous of everything my sister has and I have to go to great lengths to reach her.I'm jealous.I'm jealous, God!"

God knows how jealous I am of all that my brother has and has. I'm so jealous.

"Non Rain's home?" Aunt Siti's voice outside the room.

I immediately got up from the floor and used my cloth to wipe my wet face. It was as if Aunt Siti could go inside and see my cowardice.

"Yes, Auntie. I just got home." I answered in a loud voice after crying.

I hurriedly cleared my throat to lighten my voice to sound as normal as possible. When I came home I forgot to say hello to Aunt Siti because my mood was in trouble.

"Is non-Rain okay?"

I smiled faintly, "I'm fine, Auntie, but I'm a little tired. I want to sleep in the room."

"Non Rain hasn't had lunch yet, why don't you have lunch before you get some rest?"

Last afternoon I forgot lunch because Aunt Mei came to visit first and after that we went to Uncle's grave even though I couldn't get in.

"I'm not hungry, Auntie. Maybe when I wake up I'll take the time to have lunch." I had to eat to replenish my energy after the blood donation.

I heard Aunt Siti sighing out there, "Alright, non. Non Rain just rest inside and if you need anything, feel free to call Auntie."

I just cleared my throat briefly in response. When I heard Aunt Siti's footsteps away from the room, I woke up and laid myself on the bed to continue my break.

This time I did not cry or complain because fatigue dominated me more now.

Seriate...

Sigh, I am a regular writer and have many flaws. I can't live up to your expectations as a reader because what I write is what I love.

There may be some people who object because I am always repeating the same topics and dialogues, the monotony of the term. I did that because following the character of Rain, he was gentle and cowardly but because of the mental disorder he received 5 years ago.

Because his psyche is disturbed, his thoughts and actions are often fickle, he is tired and wants to give up but because the 'past' makes him reluctant.

Sure enough, he does have flaws but not really stupid and stupid to want to receive injuries.

There will be a day when he says ops, can not spoiler wkwkwkwkw...

And well, since many don't like my writing style, after this maybe I will try to reduce POV Rain, well...

But it might take a few days off because I need time to write 😬