My Sister's Candidate Becomes My Husband

CAMS - Up 29

Shut up, I just lowered my head not daring to stare or reply. The words that came out of my lips were just an apology and promised not to repeat them again.

Deep in my heart, I would like to ask her that do not push myself too much in this marriage or if I can I would like to bid her farewell. After all, this is just a serial marriage not a legitimate marriage that requires a lot of process to separate.

I was anxious to say it but my heart refused because of my own selfish desires. I want to take advantage of these times to be close to him even if it is just a look, I will not ask for much.

"She, you stupid idiot." The sings are still angry.

"Please forgive me." My request is like a static robot specially designed to put out the same words.

Dert

Dert

Dert

Deon got a call from someone. I quietly peeked at him, lazily looking at his phone screen. Instantly his hard face due to emotions overflowing somewhere was replaced with a gentle expression full of affection.

"Dear, I'm sorry I couldn't go to the hospital to see you."

This is a call from my sister, her boyfriend.

I smiled bitterly, squeezing my blanket cloth holding jealousy in the chest.

"Nothing is important. Today I have to take care of the 'trash' that has been weighing on my mind for these few days. No... everything is in order, I am a clean person so how could I possibly dirty our house? Don't worry..." He spoke as he walked out of my room, closing the rough front door without even turning his head.

I finally dared to raise my head, staring at the door of the victim from the violence of Deon. The door was now tightly shut, blocking the outside world from entering my quiet room.

Smiling faintly, I pulled out the blanket and hid in it. Drown my sadness in silence. Though I don't want to cry but.but I can't hold it all anymore.

My heart hurts, Lord.

My heart felt like it was being squeezed by invisible, tight and sore hands.

I couldn't bear to endure it so I lashed my chest hoping the pain disappeared. But..but why is the pain still not gone?

Why is the pain still not gone, Lord?

I am tired of feeling all this pain. I just want to give up.

"Lord, why.I am still alive in this world if no one in this world accepts me?" It was a question that had always filled my head all this time.

Wh why?

No one loves me, but why am I still alive?

L'm...

Tired, God. I want to live happily like your other creations, but why can't I get it?

Dert

Dert

Dert

My phone's beeping. I grabbed it by the pillow and saw the one who called was Mama. Doubtful, I bit my lip holding my thumb to pick up the phone from Mama.

I was afraid Mama was scolding me again. I'm afraid Mama's saying cruel words to me, I'm really scared, God.

I was silent for a long time. The ringing of my phone cannot stop as long as I leave it. I smiled wryly, deciding to answer Mom's phone.

Both my eyes had dried up and my voice had returned to normal so Mama could not see my sadness here.

"Mama?" Call me again because Mama didn't answer my call.

Then I heard a little stuffing down there. My heart is throbbing pain. My mom was crying.

"Rain," Call Mama in a hoarse voice,"Mama misses you."

I was shocked, my vision instantly became blurry and my tears melted back down my face.

I haven't heard my mother speak this softly to me in a long time.

"Let's go back, son. Go home. Mama promised not to be angry with you again as long as you want to go back home. Mama hicks... Mama doesn't like you living with that guy...Mama doesn't want to lose you again..." Mama cried sobbing across there making my heart even more crowded.

That guy...

Don't want to lose me again,

My mother has not forgotten that incident. Years have passed but Mama is still haunted by the incident. It's natural to be traumatized but it's not natural to blame him on Deon.

Deon still knows nothing about that day.

"Mama..." I smiled because Mama still loved me. He was just afraid, afraid that the incident would happen again because in Mama's eyes the guilty person was Deon.

But I know very well that Deon is innocent. He just doesn't know anything.

"It happened a long time ago and so did I"

"Go home, Rain. Let's go home. Mama's lonely without you, son. Mama doesn't want you to live with her"

"Who is Mama talking to?" That's Papa's voice.

Srek

There's a noise across there. I'm worried something happened to Mama. I wanted to call him but Mama and Pap's argument broke my wish.

"I talked to Rain, Pa! Mama missed! I want to take her home, I'm sorry to let her go.."

"She's definitely back, Ma, but not now." Papa's tone of voice persuaded.

"It's all because of it, Papa! I told you I wouldn't let Deon marry Rain for whatever reason but why Papa would approve! Why did Papa let Rain come back to that man?!"

I crumpled my phone, holding my sobbing sobbing so as not to come out.

Oh my God, I've been misunderstanding all this time. How stupid of me.

"He.he humiliated our daughter, Pa! She married him in series without bringing any invited guests! Just think about it, Pa, how heartbroken is Rain today? How much pain is his heart!"

It hurts so much, God.

"I know, Ma, I know. So what do I admit to doing?" I heard Papa breathing heavily across there.

"I couldn't do anything because Deon insisted on marrying Rain. In front of his family we are nothing, Ma. Just like you, Papa doesn't want to let Deon marry Rain either but I'm really helpless"

I could no longer hold back my sobs. Our phone call was broken. After that I pressed my head on the pillow while crying as hard as I could.

"Mama...Papa's... Rain missed you. Rain wants to hug you again... Rain wants to go home, hiks..."