MY LOVE IS SHACKLED WITH LIES

Heart Dilemma

Heart Dilemma

“Fris, like Kak Krisna there is a sense deh same you.” said Erik suddenly.

“What are you talking about? He is the same as Rudi. He also often shunned me. He also knows nothing about myself.” said Friska.

“I saw his worries when he helped you. He seems very worried. He also held your hand, you know.” said Erik.

“That,,, might just be his concern as a leader only. I'm sure no more.” said Friska.

They're silent. Friska was surprised to find that Krishna was holding her hand. He still did not believe Erik's words. He convinced himself that all Krishna did was just his responsibility to be a leader.

“Fris, if I may know, why do you want to enter Cintalindo and from the way you went through the trip, it seems you are used to being a nature lover.” said Erik.

Friska. Memories of two years ago were re-scratched in his brain.

“I can't know?” ask Erik.

Friska tried to smile. Although the ice in his heart was still very hard, Friska tried to put her trust in Erik.

“Bby kok.” says Friska.

“My father was a man who loved to explore caves and climb mountains. He always leaves the four. My dad used to take me when I was Junior High. I also fell in love with my father's son. Rio. He's five years older than me and maybe he just thinks I'm a brother. When we camped, we always enjoyed dusk together. But those beautiful memories are gone. My father and Rio died on the mountain due to bad weather. I'm very sad. Every time I am in the wild like this I feel their soul is with me and I get very happy when I am in this beautiful realm.” Friska said with teary eyes.

“The memories with them are so beautiful Rik. I can't forget all that. Every second that passed while I was in this realm always reminded me of them. When everyone looks at me with one eye I miss them even more. I feel like it's just them and my mom who always accept me for who I am.” Friska said with more tears coming out.

“Why can you feel like Fris?” erik said he wanted to know.

“Not looking for another example. Take a look at my position in this team. I was always blamed and removed. No one cared about me even when I was crying and in pain. The leader of this squad is also what I hope to be a fair leader just does not happen.” said Friska.

Erik was silent hearing that. He realized when Friska was crying and in pain no one would care about her and help. Erik felt that what he had been doing all along was wrong.

“Don't cry Fris. I'm sorry, I didn't know the story made your heart so sad. Now we can only pray for them to be calm in nature.” said Erik calm Friska.

Erik rubbed Friska's nearly dripping tears. From far away, Chris saw all this happening. But he did not dare to approach them. He could only guess what they were really talking about and felt his heart ache so much to see it all.

“So now you live with your mother?” ask Erik.

“Iya, and we are just two.” said Friska.

“Your mother does not marry again?” ask Erik.

“No. Said Mom was so in love with dad.” said Friska.

“Em, and you are Fris?” ask Erik again.

“I? Why?” ask Friska.

“You don't want to find a replacement?” ask Erik.

“Substitute??? I still haven't thought about it. For me, my love for this great Rio is enough. Rik, I've felt a sense of loss. Losing it hurts so much. I'm not ready to start love again.” said Friska.

“OK. Now don't worry about me. We're friends now. You don't have to feel alone.” said Erik.

“Still yes. You are good.” said Friska.

From a distance, Krishna grew jealous of their behavior. But what can he do. Now it's like a lie that he's made to make a lot of pain. In her heart, Krishna cried regretting her lie. After that he saw Erik enter the tent and sleep.

Friska was sitting alone. I don't know what he's thinking. Krishna actually wants to be around her and be her friend to pour out her heart. But Aldi was next to Krishna. He knew Aldi was very familiar with Jeny. He didn't want to hurt Jeny.

***

Morning also picked up. At dawn, Krishna's team was ready to continue their journey. Friska walked a little limp because her legs were bruised. The wound on his forehead was almost dry.

“Can road not?” ask Erik.

“Could be.” replied Friska with a smile.

Chris looked at them both cynically. He was upset that Friska did not appreciate it.

“What's up?? Is there a cinlok? Why can Erik turn into a gini hero?” ask Jeny cynically.

No one responded to Jeny talking. They keep walking. Krisna was still upset, but she could not be angry at his frustration.

They walk along rugged hills and wild-growing shrubs. The sun was showing his face. Friska walked at the back with Erik. As usual, Aldi brought Jeny's luggage. Moments later they passed a neatly arranged stone staircase.

“We're close.” says Friska.

“Do not know!” snapped Jeny.

“We try to think. His birth house must be a tourist route or a place that many people visit. This road proves it.” said Friska steady.

Krisna was amazed by the analysis Friska always gave. Krishna felt a subtle sigh in his heart. He wanted to get closer to Friska, but he couldn't.

“Fris, how can you know more from us?” ask Irwan from behind.

“Just try to think and guess. Yesterday I also opened a little about this city. But I didn't get to the history of W. R. Soepratman.” says Friska honestly.

“I was also looking for information about this city yesterday. But I'm more focused on the cave that's here. In my mind also did not cross that history.” said Krisna trying to come talk with Friska.

“I didn't even know he was from here.” said Irwan later.

“Yes maybe this is the surprise. Here's challenge. We can kok.” said Krisna gave encouragement.

Although Krishna wanted to always look strong and always encourage his team, but he himself was in turmoil. His feelings are still confusing and he doesn't know what to do.

On the other hand, he wanted to get close to Friska, but on the other hand he already had Jeny. In addition, he also does not know the relationship between Friska and Erik. They are so close now. His heart was filled with dilemmas. Suddenly I realized there was an unsolved problem.

“Fris, why can you fall?” krisna and all the members of her squad are now waiting for Friska's answer.