MY LOVE IS SHACKLED WITH LIES

Does This Feel Lost?

Does This Feel Lost?

“I want to see Friska.” says Krisna worried.

“Neither! Why the hell you care so much with him.” said Jeny angry.

“I'm leader!” snapped Krishna.

“I did not have time to think about the jealousy of you who missed the blind. You are beautiful but you are blinded with that uncivilized jealousy.” said Krishna running towards the river.

Krisna did not care about Jeny who was getting more and more insolent. Jeny sat by the girls' tent. Irwan and Aldi sat down next to Jeny.

“Sabar yes Jen.” says Aldi.

Erik stood confused. He knows everything now. But he was confused to say all that would worsen the atmosphere. He knew Jeny was really a bad girl. But for now this situation will get worse if he says everything.

Erik walked around like a confused person.

“Why you?” ask Aldi.

“I'm worried about Friska.” said Erik.

“So sister Krishna is now you. Or maybe you like Friska?” ask Irwan.

“You don't be from Nudu. I just consider him a friend.” Erik said defensively.

“Then why did you think of him? Think of yourself just haven't settled yet think of others.” said Jeny cynically.

Erik directed a sharp look towards Jeny. In his heart he was very angry with Jeny.

“Can't you guys not think of yourself. You have no pity on Friska? We in Cintalindo this is family.” said Erik.

They're all quiet. Erik saw his watch was half six. The sun began to sink and the air began to cool. But Friska and Krishna did not come.

“I want to follow Sister Krishna. You guys here take care of Jeny.” Erik said. Aldi, Jeny and Irwan were silent.

Erik went towards the river with a flashlight. Irwan set up a campfire assisted by Aldi.

***

Krishna ran to the river. He was very worried about Friska. He realized he had never felt anything like it. He panicked and wanted to run quickly to find Friska. Nothing happened to Friska. In fact, he admitted that his attention this time was more than the attention of a leader. Krishna's heart was pounding. He ran faster.

“This is all my responsibility. Why is it all like this.” Krishna spoke for himself.

Friska is struggling. Friska felt grateful because her reflexes were fast enough so that she could hold on to a tree trunk that was not too big. He caught his breath and panic. He tried to reach some grass around him.

Friska looked down, but the bottom of the cliff was nowhere to be seen. His hands were no longer strong enough to hold on to those plant stems and grasses. The ground on the cliff began to fall. Friska tried to climb but failed because the land she stepped on fell down. Friska no longer knew what to do. He is ready with what will happen.

He took off the hat with his left hand and threw the hat up. He just wanted to signal that someone was looking for him. But he also did not expect much if anyone would look for him. Friska didn't know if anyone cared about her.

Friska is too aware of herself who never looks good in front of her group mates. He wasn't even sure if anyone would help him. So he still imagined all the treatment he received so far. He sighed, closed his eyes and prayed.

A moment later Friska screamed loudly. The ground he was holding fell down and the trunk he was holding was no longer able to withstand his weight. Krisna ran faster and louder to hear the voice she knew. Suddenly Chris shouted

“Friska!” cry Krishna.

Krisna saw Friska's hat near the road where the ground collapsed down. He approached the cliff. His heart was relieved when Friska was still holding on to the root of the tree that had the abyss.

“Defend I will help you.” said Krishna.

“Neventless. Why do you bother to nolong me?” friska asked coldly.

“I'm worried about you.” said Krisna trying to reach Friska's hand.

“Because you are the leader, you try to pay attention to me?” ask Friska.

“Not only that. I love you.” said Krisna.

“Because in one group we are all family. Especially when we are in the wild this.” Krisna quickly added her words.

Krishna didn't know why his tongue was so easy to say. Krishna also did not know when he planned the words to be issued through his mouth. Friska's heart was overjoyed to hear those words. But he had his hatred for Krishna appear and led the feelings within him.

“I don't need lies. You are also one of the people who often cornered me. When you were with Rudi, you didn't defend me. When Jeny slapped me even twice you were ordinary. Heart hurts. Don't you know what it's like to be hurt when we're insulted, reviled and hurt with harmony.” Friska said in tears.

Krisna has reached Friska's hand. He looked down at being guilty of letting Friska suffer like that. In her heart she felt pity and wondered more and more, what made Friska's heart so fragile.

“I'll save you.” says Krisna.

But Friska shook her head.

“It was enough that I felt the pain that had been given to me. I don't need your mercy.” said Friska.

“Fris! Listen to me!” krisna put on a serious face.

But Friska paid him no more attention. He took his hand and fell down.

“Friska!” krisna shouted very loudly.

At that time Krisna could no longer see Friska's face. All he saw was the darkness of the night. He was confused when he felt a great pain in his heart. It was like losing something valuable. Unknowingly, Krisna dropped tears.

Is this what is often called loss? Like this? I'm not ready to feel this loss. Friska, why are you so desperate? Are you vengeful for me? Krishna wondered in his heart.

At once Krishna's body was limp and slow. He was leaning on one of the tree blocks. Quiescent. Seeing the darkness of the night made his heart even more empty and feel lost.

“Arrrggghhhh!!” cry Krishna.

He feels so stupid. All the responsibility but everything's fucked up. Krishna held her head. He felt like he was failing at everything that happened. Even as a leader, he failed to make his group compact. He regretted mixing up his personal affairs in the middle of this journey.

“Friska!!!” yelled Krisna with all her might.

No one is coming from under the abyss. Krishna was panicking. He kept shouting to call out Friska's name. But there is no answer. This time, Chris felt the loss of someone. His heart was so sad that he could no longer think clearly.