
The wedding, which was to be held in three days, made me even more agitated. This is what I was really looking forward to with Nurmala Sari first. But honey, the long black-haired little girl had stolen some of my sanity until I made up my mind to propose her.
The little girl who slowly filled my imagination from the beginning of the first meeting first. A little girl who likes to tease me about kissing her. The second mistake is impossible for me to make, enough Nurmala Sari who got no good treatment from me. Because kissing a girl in our family is an 'unexemplary mistake.
In the days leading up to the wedding, the busyness of the house is absolutely inevitable. Plus the pingitan tradition I had to go through with Rinjani, made me lose my taste. Not knowing why, just before the wedding my fear was getting excessive, not like before when I never contacted him because of the busy work.
I realized, I was ignoring Rinjani too much. My fear was hunting more and more as my mind looked deeper, I was afraid that Rinjani could not hold back when she married me. I'm afraid Rinjani will give up before fighting. Rinjani is a layman who will be a new part of my family, Rinjani will be a new figure. A person who will be born into a noble. Later he will get the title of name, Rinjani Alianda Putri will only stay memories.
*
Abdi dalem estri who takes care of Rinjani is the mother's confidant. Abdi Dalem who has served for decades like Dhanangjaya. He was given the task to take care of Rinjani, fearing that the boy would run away from home. Although actually the way in and out of Rinjani's house has been heavily guarded by my men. But I just wanted to make sure Rinjani was okay with putting people inside.
Mbok Darmi his name, a courtier whose hair is partially gray and slalu is carried plain slalu slip his cellphone in the stagen he uses. He also sent me the news that Rinjani was harassed by the royal team. This infuriated me, I was afraid that Rinjani would become pessimistic to continue the marriage. Like mother's temperament. He was the one other servant feared. He knows what to do, he will be the teacher for Rinjani.
Late in the afternoon, at home I was preparing with a makeup artist a royal elder. Doa'a's creeping sounded from her mouth, her hands that had been stuck between her bones and skin carefully twisting one by one the cloths on my body. Before the keris was tucked behind my back, he said, "Urip Sadermo Nglakoni Tumekaning Fate" ~ [Living destiny sincerely, sincerely and thankfully in order to live a peaceful and peaceful life. ]
*
Finished doing the tradition of flush and sungkeman. I went with a family of ten people to the Rinjani house to carry out the srah-srahan procession.
The trip to Rinjani's house was the longest trip I've had in my life. The house is actually only 15 km from the main house.
My father repeatedly told me not to tense up, but Naas I was no longer a reed. Gerogi spread all over my body.
Arriving at Rinjani's house, looks boisterous people who are ready to welcome my arrival and family. Including my future father-in-law Herman, he kept bowing and smiling.
Rinjani is hidden, even though I saw the tip of her ring finger I was happy. Many times I looked for it but there was nothing, until finally I had to be reprimanded Mother to behave like a Ningrat.
*
The night turned, the last night before my virginity and my might I proved. Last night before everything became one. Nineteen hours to go, I pin you down with bismillah.
"Why don't you sleep?"
"Thinking of your fate, my son."
"Ayahanda hesitating? Wouldn't Father refuse my choice? Tell me your doubts, Ayahanda?"
I was sitting cross-legged in front of Ayahanda, the time had already shown at three in the morning. Seen in the back pendopo where Ayahanda was sitting while enjoying a cup of black coffee, her eyes were staring at me. This pendopo will be the silent witness of my marriage and Rinjani later tonight.
I only slept for three hours, because this morning I had to go through the Mutihan fast. People kejawen Islam believes this fasting aims to accelerate the dignity and cleanse themselves. Even Sunan Kalijaga often do fasting Mutihan.
"Yahanda did not break a promise, my son. I'm just not sure, you and your wife will be able to replace the position of Father and Mother."
"Like Mother, Rinjani will learn. Kaysan will help her."
"My son, the depths of the ocean you can measure. In him who knows. I just told you, know it. This marriage is the first marriage of the successor family and the kingdom that has been established for centuries. I don't want you to embarrass yourself later."
"Rinjani will still be my wife, Ayahanda. Rinjani will still be my queen."
"Hard-headed, my son is really like me. Rest, my son must look handsome and dignified. Don't, like an owl that wanders around at night, go back to sleep."
I nodded, "Calm Ayahanda, believe me if Rinjani can be like Mother."
"Okay Ayahanda. Receive Rinjani as Ayahanda opened her arms wide to Nurmala Sari."
"You know what you're doing, sleep my son."
I smiled wryly, "Most of the coffee will make your eye bags more blackened. Go into the house of Father, Mother must be looking for Father."
"Your mother didn't sleep either, she thought about the girl."
"Alright, Kaysan will see Mother."
I gradually retreated, leaving Ayahanda. I can't figure out why the people in this house became owls just like me.
Arriving at the family room, Mother was swinging the rocking chair where she was leaning, with her eyes closed.
I sat down in front of Mother, and she smiled, "My son, what's wrong?" Eyes blinked.
"Sleep in Mother's room."
"Mother's having a hard time sleeping, Kay."
"Is it because of Rinjani's mother, was Kay's decision to marry Rinjani a mistake?"
"Not a mistake, but recklessness."
"Does Kay have to cancel this wedding?"
Mother moved from her place, standing behind me holding both of my shoulders. "Never change what has been your decision, continue a little more you will get the girl. Mother just did not expect what mom said first to make you really chase after her. Mother knows, there are still many things between you and Rinjani that need to be harmonized. Mother can only pray for you Kay. My blessing is in your hands and Rinjani. Mom believes she can make you happy."
I turned around, leaning over kissing the back of my mother's legs. Saying my prostration to Mom.
"Already, don't make Mother cry this early."
"Mother, rest in the room. Kay, take it."
"Kay, remember the first night. You should treat Rinjani gently."
I put on a smile, "Kaysan fasting Mother. Don't talk about the first night."
Holding her hand, I led her into her room. This room with all-white shades is a room that has never changed since the beginning. There are still many old ornaments, and old frames of marriage portraits of Ayahanda and Mother.
"Here Kay, you also rest. Remember you have to prepare yourself for later, Mother will visit your room later in the afternoon."
"Good, Mother." I kissed the back of Mother's hand and passed away.
*
In the room, my heart was worried. Depth of character with Rinjani does not take three months. It was a short time to start a marriage. Rinjani's dark past, will make her a tough girl. Will make it as strong as a coral. And I believe.
[Still flashback ^_^, greetings Rahayu π]