Magic Lantern

Lonely Days

Very boring routine. But there is nothing to do but try to enjoy it so get used to it.

Kreshna himself tries not to think too much about his relationship with Ratih that seems stuck. Cannot move forward, but cannot retreat.

Trauma to some is just a word. Wordplay. But for him it was very real.

Especially if you see the marriage of both parents. First marriage is like a trial. The success of the next marriage.

Should he marry Alicia.  Fail. Just married Ratih for more true happiness? 

So ridiculous, right? If only happiness had a pattern. Of course, he would easily do such a pattern.

Unfortunately, there are no guarantees at all. Trauma is looming. As if to be a restraint to him. So as not to rashly decide to get married and build a family.

The trauma is like a hand brake when the car is jammed on the uphill road.

Krishna looked at the photos he took. When I spent the last time with Ratih.

He liked the expression on his face. Everything was. But it wasn't enough to convince her that their relationship would be okay. Forever.

The marriage of his parents. Alicia's Betrayal. Like salt and lemon juice on an open wound.

He decided to make a photo album. Choose one of the photos to be enlarged and displayed in his bedroom. Maybe another one in his study.

Handphone reads. Alicia.

"What's Al?"

"I want you to accompany Dean."

"I'm lazy to get out."

"Please! Since returning. You don't seem excited. Please help me!"

"What's the hell helping?"

"Observations Dean. Whether he's loyal to me or not."

"You're afraid he's like your ex?"

"That's how it is."

"If you suspect it. Why get engaged to him."

"I don't suspect him. I'm traumatized. Not wanting to be rash and not making sure of everything. We want to get married."

"Marriage requires trust. Why did you marry someone you didn't trust. Torturing!"

"Will you forgive me?"

"All has passed. My answer is definitely no. My feelings for you are over. You know I love Ratih."

"I don't have any hope anymore, do I? I am so sorry I betrayed you. But I can what? I want to be happy too."

"You can choose someone you can trust."

"i like it. I have to make sure.  There is no other way. Please!"

"All right!"

Kreshna spent the whole day with Dean. As friends. Dean is a nice and fun guy. No wonder Alicia liked him so much.

The idea that initially sounded bad turned out to be a lot of fun.

They have the same hobby. Make them easy to get close to and familiar with each other.

Play games, basketball, football and road. Dean is also a very ignorant figure.

"Would you eat for free?" Dean Jahil.

"You don't have any money? Cutracts."

"You've never enjoyed life?"

"What do you mean?"

"Look at me." They walked towards a girl who was ordering food by herself.

"Cindy?"

"You who?"

"Are you Cindy?"

"I'm sorry. I don't know you."

"I'm sorry! You're so much like Cindy."

"I don't know Cindy."

"Maybe he's dead. Looks like the operation failed. Don't push it into your body. Because you look so much like him."

"You don't fuss!"

"Cindy blind girl. He suffered from a disease that left both eyes blind. The doctor has also sentenced her age not long."

"I don't know Cindy."

Dean made up stories. It made the girl interested in hearing the story. Start asking questions. You know, the three of them have been chatting and eating together.

"Sorry, I have to go now." Dean looked at his watch.

"alright. I hope you find your friend soon."

"Yeah! Thank you." Thank you."

They say goodbye. Dean and Krishna couldn't hold back their laughter.

"Why do you eat for free?"Ask Dean.

"It's better than paying for it yourself." The laughter of both.

"Yes, right?"

"You're so ignorant!"

"Not every time. If you want to find entertainment. If it's too often. Will be a fugitive."

They're back laughing.

"Is that how you met Alicia?"

"Of course not. I was in love with him. Not mean to be ignorant let alone to cover it."

"Thank God!" Kreshna smiled broadly.

"Alicia doesn't know my ignorant nature. I didn't say it. Afraid she's jealous and thinks I like to play with women. I don't mean anything but prank."

"You've never told her? He'll misunderstand you seeing you like that."

"I'm not flirting or chasing. Just just an insult. You see for yourself. There's nothing."

"Yeah I know. But if I don't know. I can misunderstand."

"I rarely do that either. Intend to stop doing it. I don't want Alicia to misunderstand me. Moreover, he had already betrayed his ex. It will usually be very sensitive and parno. If he even thinks wrong. How's it?"

"Yes already. Up yours. Who knows you better."

They spend time on the weekend. When Dean and Alicia weren't spending time together.

"Thanks. You're going to accompany Dean for his weekend. He better be with you. I'm becoming calmer."

"Rilex. Don't overshadow the past. Especially if there is no reason."

"You're enjoying your time with her."

"Your engagement. Very pleasant friend."

"Thank God, if you two are compatible with each other."

"When are you married?"

"Fastly. I thought I found my soul mate."

"Yeah! Seems like. I'm so happy for you."

"How are you and Ratih?"

"Why me and Train?"

"When are you married?"

"Married what? We broke up."

"You broke up? Since when?"

"I can't give her certainty."

"You're still traumatized by your parents' marriage? My betrayal of you? I'm sorry."

"Marriage is not a happy picture in my mind. I don't want to experience what my parents did. Don't want my son to experience what I'm going through."

"Don't be like that. Do not close the door of your own happiness. You can delay having a baby. If you want to make sure everything."

"I cannot decide in a state of doubt and fear. You don't know what it's like to be estranged in your own family."

"You never lack the material. You're successful too. Especially?"

"You can't be happy with me."

"You're so cold and indifferent. You are very loyal. But it's not enough. But I learned to accept people for who they are. Not demanding something out of reach. Everyone has a good and bad side. I've already learned my lesson."

"Yeah! Experience is the best teacher."

"I hope you and Ratih can solve both of you're problems."

"The fool has already arranged it. We can't force it. I don't want to think about love. Especially with trauma. Like a sick person or a gerd looking at a variety of delicious foods."

"Do what makes you happy. Matches cannot be forced. There is a time and a destiny."

"Yeah!"