Magic Lantern

New Habit

Practice working twelve to eighteen hours a day. Eight to eleven hours at the office. Rest one to three hours in his room while watching television and listening to heart-wrenching love songs. The rest he worked to find extra money to organize his future alone.

Saturday he would work overtime from ten to eleven in the morning until five in the afternoon. Return to the contract to rest.

After Maghrib he will walk alone to the mall. Watch a good movie if you have one. Eat alone and or shop for necessities.

Does he enjoy his solitude?

No one wants to live alone. Everyone yearns for a life partner as well as a family life but of course with the person they love and also love them.

The tears melted again in light of her bitter love life and tragic end.

Sometimes people who do not cry when they have a problem will cry longer and more than those who immediately cry so exposed and face the problem.

Ratih feels himself tough at the beginning of the problem but is so fragile when he starts to adapt to the problem.

No good movie on Saturday night. The young couple passed in front of him. They look happy and also cheerful.

Ratih choose one cafe that provides ice cream menu, snacks and pastries.

Choose golden crust blueberry jam filling with vanilla ice cream. He rubbed his melted tears just like that. Sucking snots.

Everyone wants love and family life in their life. Humans live in pairs.

Finish enjoying the food. He stopped by the shopping. Buy instant noodles, bread, milk, butter, cheese, meises, chocolate jam and fruits.

Repeatedly couples with their children passed in front of him. The dream is getting further away. Given his relationship with Krishna that ran aground and left a wound.

When we are injured it may not feel but imprint on the soul in the form of trauma.

His broken relationship with Krishna made him unable to trust anyone anymore. It even causes trauma and fear of being hurt again.

Still imagined disappointed face Bima get his rejection. Their previous relationship was very good and familiar but it was precisely that that made Ratih afraid that love would ruin everything and make her disappointed.

Moreover, he himself was not sure whether to love Bima or not. If he loves, he is afraid of being disappointed and experiencing heartbreak again whereas if he does not love, he is afraid to hurt and hurt Bima if he is unable to repay his love or cannot be loyal.

Because everyone before finding true love can fall in love many times until they find their true love one last time. One for forever.

He did not want to find his true love in a state of sowing wounds and soreness.

Had he not found his true love then at least he had lived everything as well as he could.

Pleased to walk alone. He returned to his rented house.

Stacking his groceries into food storage racks and refrigerators.

Weekend is the time to work overtime and rest to recover energy.

He turned on the television and air conditioner.

His mind became calmer and better. Possibly because diligently draining emotions makes him become more energized and excited.

Love is an illusion. A word that all humans crave but not all can understand its meaning. Especially living.

Sometimes man cries for something that can free him from all the things that can hold him.

They no longer need to fight . Free to be with anyone.

Often people give up love so they can freely live their own lives even though they often feel lonely themselves.

Feelings give them a sense of love and affection but logic demands they have to live up to what they are.

Often the heartbroken person feels perverted because between their feelings and common sense does not line up.

Feelings say love but common sense says no.

That is why eventually many people become heartbroken and charcoal because expectations do not match the conditions.

Train fell asleep in front of the flaming television. All his physical and psychic fatigue paid off on weekends when he was out of work and had more rest.

Love is not necessarily a soul mate but a soul mate is definitely love. Ratih chose resignation and be patient waiting for God's determination on the soul mate that He has prepared for each creature.

The mark of God's power. Door handle with key. Bottle with lid. Left and right hand. Spoons and forks.

If I could just like love with food. Like people can not eat sushi even though they like to see it as well as love and not their soul mate.

It does not matter whether it has advantages or disadvantages but whether it is destined to be together or not. His heart was troubled to remember Krishna.

Love is you but life is not you....