LOVED MY STEPFATHER

YUK MARRIED

Sometimes want to think of as a lover but at the same time not confident. A true lover never asks but only gives. And where is there a lover like this? Too often to hurt and betray. Say love but there is something else. Remember, only to ask not to give. I am just a servant of perahaya not a true lover. Let me serve with hope - please be anxious to be loved.

Sinta was sitting in the guest room with Radit. This Saturday afternoon Radit actually visited Wati's grandmother's house. Of course, Radit's habit always brings souvenirs to Wati's grandmother. If Pomegranate mama no longer makes cakes, Radit will buy them at the cake shop. This time Radit bought Wati a typical Malang serabi grandmother. Now they both enjoy coffee with a snack that is already on the table. While Radit, began to light his cigarette items and slowly smoked cigarettes in the crack of his finger. Sinta noticed Radit who was already a cigarette addict.

" Have you been a cigarette addict for a long time?" ask Sinta while watching Radit who really enjoys every pull of his cigarette.

" That's good! Maybe when third grade High School has started smoking. And love this brand of cigarettes." said Radit shamelessly admitted.

" Men if not smoking kok effect kok less maco well? But I myself do not like to see men who smoke." said Sinta while sticking out her tongue.

" why? You're afraid that if you become his wife spending more and more because to buy cigarettes?" accuse Radit. Sinta poked her lips.

" You don't worry, if I become your husband, I'll work harder to make a living. I don't want you to live in deprivation. I will make you happy with the sufficiency of matter and inner living that makes you calm" Radit said unfiltered.

" What? Is it the spirit that makes me calm?" sahut Sinta with widened eyes. The eyeball was like it was about to plunge from its petals out of there. Radit chuckled at Sinta's expression like that.

" Yes dong! In a marriage, the goal is to get offspring. And to get offspring it must have body intercourse. Must do a union of give and take between husband and wife" said Radit.

" stop! How did your conversation get there anyway? Would I want to be your wife? Being your boyfriend and lover has not been." said Sinta with a frown while playing her fingers. Radit chuckled at the adorable expression of Sinta.

" Otw, dear Sinta! But you like me, don't you?" radit said as he blinked his eyeballs.

" Nothing! You GR! Where do I like you bang?" sahut Sinta by sticking out his tongue.

" really? You don't like me? Wow, it turns out I've clapped dong's hand!" radit said he was playing his eyeballs again. Sinta rolled her eyes puffed.

For a long time both of them were silent in each other's minds. While Sinta is currently really becoming upset and worried about her feelings. Now back his mind is fixed on the figure of om Mukid. Why men are like ghosts that always disturb the peace of Sinta's soul and mind. Whereas together with Radit, Sinta can laugh and cheer. But the distance that is far from Om Mukid is also what makes Sinta's heart still bound by that name.

The twilight had passed and it turned dark. Your name still hangs in your heart. It gives color and meaning to life. Like stars that always emit their light. Even though it looks very small in the eyes.

Just the last apology for you. But don't worry! I always pray for your kindness and happiness. Not just for you! But all who know me and do not yet know me. I'm in a falsity between me and your shadow.

Do you know? When you started being a hard thing to know. At that moment I started to get used to it. Learn not to worry, learn to accept whatever destiny has planned. I don't know what's at the end of this story. Separate or start again from the beginning. I don't know, what I know now is that I'm not the one you're prioritizing.

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" Sinta, just daydream!" said Radit which made Sinta surprised.

" Are there what Radit is?" said Sinta while sipping her coffee. Radit sipped his coffee. It was the second cup of coffee after the first Radit coffee had been used up.

" I'm here but your mind goes where - where!" radit Protest. Sinta took her breath in.

" Oh yeah sorry!" said Sinta.

" Have you ever had a boyfriend? Or in Jakarta your lover or the man you love?" accuse Radit. Sinta stared intently at Radit. Both look serious.

"I am lazy to spell out the word. But I tried to force my heart to always focus her shadow. Instantly I had to wake up. You're not the only top priority for me right now. The purpose of my life is that I belong to all who are ready to share the service of the needy. Not a pair of eyes but a soul - a soul that is sick because it is restless thinking about the world's problems. The moment I had to go back to hijrah and step back into a new life towards the original goal." muttered Sinta in her daydream.

" Sinta, marry me!" radit said with a trembling voice.

Sinta who heard the sentence that was thrown from Radit's mouth suddenly choked because he was enjoying the black coffee presented from earlier. Sinta's eyes widened again and was about to escape from there.

" I'm serious, Sinta! Marry me! I always wanted to get married young. Don't worry if I can't support you and provide for you. I am currently working even though I am still in college." explained Radit.

" What did you say? You serious? You're no longer delirious, are you Radit?" say Sinta.

" No Sinta! I like you! I'm comfortable with you" Radit said.

" But I'm still in college." said Sinta.

" You can still go to college, even if we're married and you're already my wife" Radit said.

" Did you accept me Sinta?" said Radit again while grabbing Sinta's wrist. Sinta looked right and left, afraid that if Grandma Wati saw Radit holding her hand.

" But! Why get married so soon? I haven't even thought about it. Married young and still haven't graduated from my college." Sinta is still worried.

" Now I ask you. You like me no?" urged Radit. Sinta was confused to answer her.

" Em, I I don't know." said Sinta. Radit took his breath in.

" Is there still another man or another name in your heart?" accuse Radit. Sinta shook her head quickly. Sinta is afraid of being caught lying.

" Then, you must like me, Sinta! Come on, let's get married and build our household." urged Radit.

" Radith! Aih, don't rush why? Then we go out first." said Sinta. Radit smiled happily.

" Nah, so dong! But we're not going to be dating for long, two weeks. Okay well? For two weeks we take care of our wedding preparations here." urged Radit force the will.

" You're the one who talked about everything to Grandma Wati. I'm ogah. I'm scared!" say Sinta at last.

" Ready!! As a man, I am very ready. The important thing is that you have to be sure that you want to marry me. Okay?" said Radit who now recklessly grabbed Sinta's body and hugged her. Sinta quickly pushed Radit.

" Later to see Wati's grandmother." protested Sinta. Radit chuckled while looking at Sinta's face without blinking. Sinta lowered her head looking at Radit who was like he was about to prey on her.

" Find me! I will make you love me and judge me. And if you had that past and you haven't told me and been honest with me, I'd make you forget that bitterness. Together with me, I will make your world feel beautiful." inner Radit while staring at the face of Sinta in the night that began to light with the moonlight.

Not far from the two of them were sitting seriously talking, Grandma Wati noticed the two. There was a prayer in Grandma Wati's heart for her grandson and the two of them.

" May you be a match. Hopefully Radit can accept all the shortcomings and past Sinta. Hope so. You need to get that happiness, Sinta." murmured Grandma Wati.