LOVED MY STEPFATHER
MISS IS HEAVY
There are no ideas today. Ideas to make you happy. Seeing you laugh or just smile, I'm happy. How not? You have become the most important part of my heart and mind. I will be sad when I hear the sadness you are experiencing. I was burning with the flames of anger when your emotions ran uncontrollably. I smiled, as you vented your happiness in a burst of laughter.
I will be a toy of children, which gives joy. I will be a paper boat, which without burden follows the flow of flowing water. I will also be a white cloud that coagulates giving meaning to shade. I will be the water that drains the dry land. I will be your paradise, your most beautiful place of rest.
Have you been a prisoner of my love? Handcuffed by a taste that is difficult to get rid of. Imprisoned by thick high walls.
Strength does not only come from punches, kicks, slaps or anything else. The greatest strength comes from a great heart. Even a gentle wind can destroy the universe. Like the solid foundation of the highest mountain, it can be destroyed by the terrible shock of the earth's grandmother who wriggled. That is how love. If that love has controlled his heart, subconsciously he thinks he is incapable of common sense. The world is like a hot worm, if the longing tickles the soul. A day of not meeting feels thirsty all the time. A thirst that is insatiable because of his love that has not been seen.
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Inside her room Sinta was still in her uneasiness. Back he was back and forth unable to close his eyes. His mind was completely chaotic, between the shadow of Om Mukid and the man who was newly known by Sinta, namely Radit. During this time Sinta still often takes her sleeping pills because of loneliness and also her mind that is still raging with the shadow of om Mukid. For Sinta, even though he has been disappointed and hurt, but to forget the figure of Om Mukid takes time. Moreover, the scent of his body that often crosses in the cavity of Sinta's heart feels thick. That man was the first time to drive Sinta crazy and forget about her. Sinta is willing to do anything good. But it all turned out to be stupid. Sinta was ultimately harmed over everything.
Currently there was another male figure who originally made Sinta growled and snarled. But often the man looked at his house, Sinta became concerned about him. Starting because asked by his mother to deliver food for grandmother and also finally grandmother also asked Sinta to deliver food to Radit's house. Grandma Wati makes any food in the end must arrive at Radit's house. Under the pretext for Radit's mom.
Often Radit and Sinta meet finally they like getting used to the road and chatting. Unprofitable small talk further erodes their distance. They were getting closer, especially Bang Radit often drove and picked up Sinta from home to campus and from campus to go home.
But this day is not as usual, Bang Radit no one contacted Sinta either chat message or phone. Moreover, his usual come home to deliver to campus, this is nothing at all. And Sinta was still reluctant to look for news and ask about it.
" Is Bang Radit okay? Tumben no news today? Is that brother sick? Usually, if you want to come pick me up, always call me. It doesn't exist at all. What's wrong with you? Ahkkkk." muttered Sinta busy with her turmoil.
Sinta picks up her phone and emboldens herself to start texting Bang Radit.
"📱📲 Hi again what?" fill in a chat message for Bang Radit.
Sinta again flipped her body waiting for a reply from the chat message, but already almost half an hour no sign of read even reply.
" Where are you, Bang? Tumben really, there is no silliness you today." murmured Sinta.
Until late at night and the clock showed at one in the morning, Sinta finally took her sleeping pills and swallowed the medicine. For a moment Sinta thought for tomorrow before her eyes began to dim because the influence of sleeping pills had begun to relax her brain nerves.
" Bang Radit! Tomorrow after college I will come to the branch management office. May you be there." thought Sinta while turning off the lights in her room and closing her eyes.
