Love Sheila

Apologies

Steven and Sheila sat face to face at the dinner table. Both of them held their own cups of tea.

"Please excuse me Shei. I'm a real jerk" Steven said, kneeling his temples.

Steven's effort was to gain his consciousness. His head feels like it's about to break, still dizzy.

"What the hell is that talking? It is I who should apologize. Sorry for refusing my wish. I know Mas did it unconsciously, and I don't want Mas to regret it later."

"You're too good for me Shei, I don't pantes for you" Steven said, looking down.

"Mas, don't say that ah. There are no perfect people in this world. Everyone must have made a mistake."

Silent. Both of them were silent with their own thoughts. After a long silence,

"Sorry Mas, if I may know, what's the problem until Mas Steven can get drunk like this?" sheila asked carefully, not wanting to offend her husband.

"Three months we've been married and living together, I've never seen Mas Steven like this. Even earlier Danny also said that Mas Steven rarely drank alcohol, especially to get drunk like this," continued Sheila.

Steven breathed a heavy breath. He could see a look of great worry on Sheila's face. Steven took a sip of his tea before finally answering.

"Nila betrayed me Shei. I saw with my own eyes she was having sex with her photographer in her apartment."

"Astaghfirullah hal adziim," shocked Sheila as she cupped her mouth with both hands.

"Three years we dated Shei. I always held back. I don't want to ruin his future. Moreover, he had a career that was going up little by little."

Sheila silently listened carefully to Steven's story.

"Over the time we were just a kiss, it was always him who started it first" Steven said, smiling bitterly. "I tried to look after and appreciate him, but it was he himself who could not appreciate his future."

"What's my fault Shei? All this time I've been trying to make her happy. Whatever he asks, as long as I can I always give it. But why is this betrayal I got?"

Sheila clasped Steven's right hand on the table, trying to strengthen the heart of her husband who looked so fragile.

"Patiently, my. Genuine. Maybe this is God's way of making you realize everything. Wouldn't it be better for Mas to feel pain now than for Mas to be constantly lied to?" said Sheila.

"Well, you're right Shei. I'd rather be hurt now than be lied to."

"It's late at night, we sleep yuk. I have to rest, still dizzy, right?"

Steven nodded. The two of them moved and entered the room.

Breaking down, Sheila then pulled out a blanket to cover the bodies of the two. They both sleep on their sides and face each other.

"I'm sorry Shei. All this time I've been hurting you and being unfair to you by still being in touch with Nila" Steven said as he looked at Sheila.

"From the beginning we agreed. I was also trying to understand the feelings of Mas who suddenly had to marry me while Mas already had a lover."

"Shei, will you start everything from scratch with me? Maybe you think I'm selfish. But please, don't ever think that I'm just making you an escape. I regret everything that happened Shei. And I want to start opening my heart to accept this marriage sincerely. So, can we start all over?" steven asked seriously.

Sheila smiled gently. "Of course. We start from the beginning. Live it, let it all flow, and never feel burdened. I never demanded anything from Mas."

"Thank you Shei, you've been patient with me all this time. And once again sorry, if I always hurt your heart."

Sheila smiled gently and nodded.

"Come Shei" called Steven to get Sheila close and padded on his arm.

Sheila inched closer and went into Steven's warm embrace.

"Good night Shei. Have a good sleep... My wife" Steven then kissed Sheila on the top of her head.

"Good night, my. Have a good sleep... My husband," Sheila replied from Steven's chest.

The two closed their eyes and began to enter their own dreamland.

...

As usual Sheila woke up hearing the sound of an adzan from the app on her phone. Wake Steven slowly then perform congregational dawn prayer.

Finish the prayer as usual Sheila kissed the back of Steven's right hand. And unexpectedly before, Steven then kissed Sheila's forehead deep. Both then smiled.

"Just take a shower, let me have breakfast, yeah" Sheila said.

Steven nodded. Then he went to the bathroom. Sheila tidied up their prayer equipment. Then go to the kitchen to cook breakfast.

"I'm sorry it's just fried rice with eggs. It turned out that there was no vegetable supply at all" Sheila said after the two sat down at the dinner table.

"No pa-pa Shei. I love your fried rice. Hmm, how about we go shopping to the supermarket? I want to make chocolate cake like that usually," Steven suggested while eating breakfast the morning.

"Not yet. Let me tell you Danny's with Ken."

As planned that morning Steven and Sheila went shopping at a supermarket in one of the malls near the apartment.

Steven pushed the grocery trolley while Sheila was engrossed in choosing what items they might need to buy.

"What fruit do you like?" sheila asked near the neatly arranged fruit stand.

"Apple the same wine. But buy a complete Shei, tomorrow you make a fruit salad for me."

"But Mas, yesterday I let Papa know that we only spend two days in the apartment."

"Yes just say if we still want to be in the apartment first. I'm sure Papa wouldn't mind."

"Yes too."

Sheila then picked up some kind of fruit and put it in Steven's driven trolley.

"Many vegetables Shei, I like your capcay."

"Yes," Sheila replied then picked up some kind of vegetable as well.

"His sausage don't forget, same meatballs, same meat."

"Yes, it's."

"Materials to make chocolate cake do not forget to know Shei."

"Yes, yes" Sheila replied with a small laugh seeing her husband's enthusiasm in shopping.

"Why laugh?" asked Steven while frowning.

"The mas is funny. Kok even so Mas the spirit, usually the most enthusiastic girl if told to shop."

"Hehe, sorry," Steven said as he scratched his nape softly.

Without Sheila knowing that Steven really likes their shopping moments at this time. There was a warm feeling running through Steven's body. A new experience that made her so enthusiastic and able to interact with Sheila without feeling awkward.

After shopping Steven invited Sheila to lunch at one of the restaurant outlets in the mall. The groceries have been put in the car because quite a lot.

The seafood restaurant was their choice this time. A high enough bulkhead between one table with another makes them comfortable because their privacy is maintained.

In the middle of their lunch, Steven suddenly heard the laughter of Nila and Joe from the table behind them. Steven stopped eating. Sekat high enough and the position of Steven who turned his back to them made Nila unaware of Steven's existence there.

"Ah, finally we don't need the cats anymore dear" said Joe.

Sheila also stopped eating to see Steven's tense look on his face.

"Mass-out"

"Sstt," Steven cut Sheila's words by putting an index finger on her lips and gesturing for silence.

"Yes, dear. But sad too, I'm not getting any more monthly rations from Steven. Not to mention the branded items he used to buy for me," complained Nila.

Sheila rounded her eyes and closed her mouth with one hand in surprise. Steven was already starting to burn with emotion.

"Darling, do you doubt my abilities? If only the same monthly allowance branded goods I can also," said Joe did not accept.

"It's not so, honey. But I'm the same Steven has been a long time, too, baby so suddenly broke up like this. Moreover, I have also succeeded in taking the heart of Steven's mother."

Sheila clasped Steven's hand on the table, trying to give him strength.

"The longer you're the same I love her than she is, we've been together since college" Joe said impassively.

"But you just dared to shoot me a year after I became the same Steven Yang. Are you jealous of me being the same as Steven?"

"Yes, I am jealous. You're my crush from college, uh suddenly dating Steven. Just yang, just aja, don't be too greedy."

"Yes yes. But I still don't take it."

"Udah don't talk about Steven anymore. We eat now."

"OK on, baby. Mduach."

There was a sound of kiss that Nila gave to Joe. After that there was still light chatter and the sound of their laughter from behind Steven.

Steven was so angry in his heart. Stupid he's been blinded by love. Many times Danny and Ken tell him that Nila is behind him, but Steven never believes. Steven was always devastated by the explanation from Nila and forward-looking effect.