Love Sheila

Why You Do All This

It's been the weekend and Steven hasn't come back from Kalimantan. These four days Sheila was a little heavy. Her mother-in-law was always looking for Sheila's mistakes to be able to rebuke her. And it always happened without Ricko's knowledge.

The clock shows almost midnight. Everyone was asleep in their sleep, and so was Sheila. Tired of what he felt because of college assignments and was also told to clean the kitchen by Amelia made him fall asleep quite soundly.

Chequek!

The door to the room opened slowly. Apparently Steven's home tonight. Seeing Sheila who was fast asleep in bed, he did not want to wake her up. Closing the door to the room slowly. Put the bag on the table and drop his tired body onto the sofa. Steven exhaled heavily while leaning his head on the sofa and closed his eyes for a moment.

Sheila woke up hearing the door shut. His hearing is a little sensitive especially in the silence of the night like this. Steven sat on the couch, closing his eyes. Looks very tired. Sheila woke up from her sleep.

"Mas is home?"

"Ah, sorry to wake you up," Steven replied slightly in shock after opening his eyes.

Sheila got out of bed and filled the empty glass on the nightstand. Approaching her husband and handing him a glass of water.

"Drink first."

"Thank you."

After gulping down the water Steven handed the empty glass to Sheila.

"Have you had dinner?" sheila asked while helping to take off Steven's shoes.

Steven just nodded.

"Isa's prayer'?"

He was silent for a moment, but then Steven shook his head. Sheila smiled softly, everything does need a process.

"I'm ready for warm water for a shower. After bathing Mas directly pray isya' continue to rest. I think I'm tired."

Steven just nodded. Sheila stood up carrying Steven's shoes and went to the bathroom.

Steven's heart warms. He has never been treated like this. Tired of coming home from work and there is someone who serves his needs at home.

Finish bathing Steven perform prayer isya'. Sheila was still waiting for him, sitting by the bed. The finish of Sheila's prayer helped Steven fold his alphabet.

Steven sat himself on the edge of the bed. Massaging his neck that feels sore.

"You want me to pijitin Mas, let the pegel be reduced," Sheila bargained.

Steven nodded his head. Sheila then sat behind Steven and began massaging Steven's shoulders and nape with the right pressure.

"What Mas?"

"All your attention and treatment to me, why?"

Sheila smiled slightly. "Sorry, I don't mean anything. I just want to carry out my duties as a wife well, that's all."

While still massaging Steven Sheila continued. "I know we had a deal. But really, I don't mean anything. I respect this marriage, because after all this marriage is legal and religious. And yes, I can't possibly lie to God. That's why I decided to have this marriage as best I can, as long as I'm still tied to it."

"But I can't promise you anything Sheila," Steven sighed softly.

"I didn't expect anything. I just want to carry out my duties as a wife well, as long as I'm tied to this marriage."

"But you know, in my heart there's another woman. I love another woman Sheila."

"I know Mas, and really, I don't mind that. Like I said, I just wanted to honor this marriage, because I couldn't possibly lie to God. And again, I don't want to sin by playing with this marriage. I don't want my dead parents to bear the burden of my sins."

Steven silently digested every word Sheila said.

"Please don't make this a burden. Really, I wasn't expecting anything. I just want to carry out my duties as a wife well. So that this marriage is not like a torturous hell just because I'm not sincerely living it."

"I'm sorry."

"Why should I apologize? It's not wrong. Let's go all in, let it be like running water."

"It's night, sleep."

"Yes. I also rest, I'm tired."

The two of them lay down on the bed.

"Oh yes Mas, tomorrow I ask permission yes, want a pilgrimage to the tomb of Jason's father with Mother Miranda. But if I may, I'd like to stop by Jefri's father's house. Mother Sarah nanyain continues from yesterday."

"Tomorrow I'll take you."

"Eh, don't do it. They are still tired. Let me be alone."

"I'm inter. Instead of tomorrow your family thinks nothing of it because you came alone."

"Oh, yes, too. Yes, I would follow that."

Before closing his eyes, Steven silently thought about all of Sheila's words. Everything Sheila said was true, Steven admitted it. And for some reason, his heart felt a little worried at this moment. Should Steven do the same as Sheila? But in Steven's heart is Nila, the woman he's loved for the past three years.