LOVE'S ANGER (Not God's fault)

57 Santi's anger

The clock keeps turning the seconds change from minutes to hours and continues like that until the day changes weeks.

The change of day and even that always brings out the beauty of nature every day.

Likewise, the people every day are preoccupied by work ranging from light to heavy as well as the burden of the mind of each different person.

Until the weather is equally erratic sometimes rain is sometimes hot or just cloudy. Likewise with the state of Panji which every day increasingly uncontrollable.

What's really going on with Panji, every day Panji does weird things. Sometimes crying, laughing, screaming and being quiet. The nature of the difficult to guess as if Panji is a crazy person who is not aware of what he is doing.

From the night Panji could not sleep the shadow of the Mamah and the Papah continued to haunt him.

How many times Panji looking for a comfortable sleeping position but still his eyes do not want to be closed until early morning.

Panji's lips occasionally smile before long pouting lightly what Panji sees as if Panji sees something that sometimes makes him happy sometimes also makes him sad.

Panji saw the food on the table that bi Marni gave.

With Gontai Panji approached the food and ate it, only a few mouthfuls of Panji immediately stopped it taste bitter food on the tongue of Panji.

After eating Panji immediately take the medicine and put back his glass. Panji walked towards the bed suddenly his head was dizzy, with a firefly look.

"Ah... "

"Ma. mama,,,,"

Panji's screams continued to hold his throbbing head.

"Mah. mamahkah it. hiks... "

Lilir Panji his hand reached for something as if reaching for the Mamah who was in front of him.

Panji kept calling the Mamah and the Papah as if his parents were in front of him.

The more days Panji hallucinations become when he is daydreaming or his mind is in chaos, making Santi feel surprised what happens with his Master as if his Master has gone mad.

"Mamahkah that... Sky kangen mah. why did the new Mamah come.. "

Said Panji as if disappointed in the Mamah who had long left him. The banner hugging tightly the bolster that Panji saw was the Mamah.

"Don't leave Sky again.. "

Santi felt pinched at Panji's cry, his heart rebelling as if something was suffocating but as hard as Santi tried to hold him back.

Santi's hand shook with something painful, making Santi immediately clench his hand.

Santi who was mopping on the top floor immediately stopped his activities, Santi wanted to call bi Marni but his intention was broken because he just remembered that bi Marni was heading, but he was trying to get to the market, every one week bi Marni goes to the market exactly on Sunday.

Santi's soul rebelled at Panji's agonizing voice making his arms clenched tightly.Tampa long thought Santi barged into Panji's room.

Degs....

Santi's steps stopped seeing the scenery in front of him, Panji as if a madman stroking bolsters with lips that continue to call the name of the mama.

The clear thread escaped just like that in Santi's eyes saw what Panji did, the shadow of events several years ago spinning on Santi's head made his chest tight, he said, his hands clenched tightly with eyes that were already reddened.

Fucking killers...

Santi continued shaking his head trying to repel the painful shadows, Santi set his breathing that began to uncontrollably.

Oh, God, not now...

Santi's screams tried to control himself by several rough breaths.

Grep....

With mounting emotion Santi pulled a rough bolster that was Panji elus as if the Panji elus was the Mamah.

React what Santi did made Panji immediately glare with a sharp gaze.

"No! he's not your Mom.. "

Santi's voice lost control staring at Panji who was stunned by Santi's clash.

"Look, this. Not your Mom, she's gone.. "

"Enough! Mama is alive.. "

Shouted Panji while seizing the bolster from earlier Santi pointers but Santi gripped him firmly making Panji stare at his new assistant .

Sretti....

Santi tore the roll until the feathers in the roll scattered making Panji tremble.

"Look.is he your Mamah... "

"You must not be so aware.... Laila needs you. Consciously stupid,, "

"What you've been doing all this time, shutting yourself up in the room lamenting the painful fate but don't you remember that your sister Laila was in pain asking for help that you release her... "

"Bas stupid.you stupid man... Lookatthis. "

Santi's snap echoed making Panji surprised to be snapped by Santi who continued to abuse him while pointing at the photo of Aunt Rose.

"Your mother is gone, your father is also so. and Amira is also. You must be conscious and stupid... conscious asshole.. "

"Ka. you,,, "

"What hah. it is true that you are not a stupid human being.cih. Do not love you that they will be sad to see your situation so. and you let your brother wretched in the hands of the enemy.. "

Djs....

Panji was silent with what his new maid said, Panji was silent not because of the snapping, and the curse that Santi gave but the voice of the shout reminded Panji of someone who always disturbed his sleep.

Panji stared at the strange aide who was staring at him sharply with lips that continued to babble, the voice was like no stranger to Panji.

If suicide gets the problem over, you're wrong! there you make God angry!

"You are a man far from being thankful, until God takes his own back, you foolish dasat!

The voice again ringing in the head of Panji made Panji directly cover his ears with Santi unceasingly continuing to scold Panji.

It is as if a mother scolds her child for doing wrong.

Panji continued to shake as Santi kept his hand away from Panji's ear making Panji's head hurt.

That voice why the same ah... why does Santi have that voice.ah.it can't be the same person, No !

Panji's inner screams retreated away from Santi while continuing to hold his throbbing head.

There is no way the girl in the dream is Santi. if it really means Santi is the girl behind the rain! but why is his voice different from the usual Santi..

Panji's inner screams tried to avoid Santi who kept approaching him, every time Santi spoke the voice so striking Panji, his chest hurt and sore.

Stupid jerk...

"Ah.. I ..I'm not stupid... "

Panji's screams clutched his hair tightly occasionally flailing his chest tight. The banner seemed to be uncontrollable making Santi frightened.

"Ap. are you not. that girl.."

"What's next? "

Degs...

Betsung...