Love Om Duda

Nesyria

As usual Nesya will just daydream on the balcony

every time he wakes up and there is nothing else he wants to do. Honest

he still feels devastated by everything that happened and these few days

there's also no word from Alex, he doesn't feel like he wants to live and get better

ended life. What else he also does not work here just rely

living off the money given by Alex who also hurt him, for Nesya

it was really a painful game.

I don't know if this is the karma that you gave me

god because he has been doing a lot of sins, and also all this time

he never gave any news to his parents. His life has already

it was destroyed a few years ago when he had a relationship

she should have given it to her husband later but she gave it to a jerk

which is only to satisfy his lust but he also does it because

needed money.

“Ma, pa. Forgive Nesya once again, god already

give the punishment to Nesha and see now Nesya becomes like

right now and no one cares about Nesya,” I said with tears in my eyes

come out without being told, I have been crying every day but it turns out the water

my eyes are also not dry yet he still just came out with a rush from

my eye.

It turns out that being an adult is not

wearing must go through life so strange and problems always come

just like that, even if he wants to avoid still can not.

I took a breath and moved from my seat and

walked into the room and intended to clean my body immediately

after that will go to find activities so that I do not remember

everything and that takes away a little bit of my sadness.

After I finished the shower I put on a color dress

white, don't forget I polished my face with powder and put on a little lipstick

on the lips to make them not look pale. I came out of the room and there were some

the bodyguards are on guard while my aunt knows where she might be

it's in the kitchen.

“Sorry lady where are you going?” ask one of the bodyguards.

“I'll just take a walk outside, I can

walk alone and you don't have to follow me. I'll be fine,”

I said, and they could only nod. They can't argue with me anymore, though,

because now only I can rule them, and Alex I can too

didn't know if he was coming back here or not and I couldn't either

hope him.

I was walking around enjoying the air this morning

although the clock will show at 10:00 am. There are many tourists

who had walked here and there doing his activities whether it was a morning run

or so.

“It turns out I did everything wrong,” said one

the man with all of a sudden who was already beside him walked up the equal

my move.

“Candra, why are you such a ghost anyway. Make surprised

only,” I said with annoyance and hit his arm hard, and he just

could just grimace.

“Sick Nes, I am very sad to know no,” said Candra

while stroking his hand because it was hit by Nesya.

“Can't you convince him? Or his parents

really reject you?” asked me then turned to Candra and she just

smile wryly.

“Yes, that's it. My lover doesn't love me for a reason either

which makes sense to me, but no matter how I try it, it's him

will choose the man,” said Candra with eyes of sadness that could not

expressed in words.

“Do you want to give up Ndra? Then what does it mean

your relationship that long?” ask me back. Again and again Candra sighed

heavy and looked at me for a moment.

“It turns out he just used me as an escape

because since long ago my lover only loved the man who was betrothed

to him, but it doesn't make any sense to me either, Nes, because all this time we

having a relationship as a lover in general even we always

do more and why he also prefers the man,” said Candra.

I just smiled,”For me all couples have too

doing it Ndra but does not guarantee their relationship will be happy forever or

also will live together forever,” I said.

“What do you mean Nes talk like?” ask Candra.

“But that is the reality of Ndra, even me too

I have done it and had time to make heart but several times I

having a miscarriage,” I said sadly.

“What? Why did you get Nes. Then

what about the men who have impregnated you?” ask Candra who is getting more and more

cocoanut.

“The man has now left me and now I just

alone and I don't know for my next life I don't know either,”.

Nesya and Candra were sitting on a park bench while

enjoying the ice cream they just bought, until Nesya forgot to ask

why did Candra get here.

“Oh, yes. Why did you get here?” ask me

menatapa Candra's.

“It just so happens today I just scanned into one

the villa is here, why? Is there a problem?” ask Candra to me.

“No, it's just that I want to know. And so am I too

stay one of the villas here,” said, but Candra just nodded and

fun to enjoy the ice cream, maybe just by eating ice cream pain

his heart can be healed. I just looked at her with a smile, until Candra

looking at me and clenching his forehead.

“Why you?” ask Candra again.

“No, then what about your relationship? What are you

“I'll try again, if I don't

could. Yeah, I've given up maybe with all this stuff I should

be careful choosing a lover,” he said.

I just nodded my head and went back to eating

ice-cream. The clock was showing at 12,000 noon and Candra was rushing away

because there was a sudden job, even though I wanted to take her to lunch

together but yes, I'll have lunch at home.

I returned on foot to the villa, many of the

tourists also want to return to the beach for sunbathing and that is common.

I myself was afraid of the heat but they were not, I quickly accelerated

my footsteps quickly reached the villa.

At the airport, Rehan has just arrived. He also walked

get out to the parking lot where there are usually many taxis waiting in line

to find customers, I rushed into one of the taxis and

told him to take me to the villa I ordered earlier.

All the way to the villa I was very happy

and my smile that was engraved on my lips. How not that villa

I will occupy later also not far from the villa occupied by Nesya so

it is easier not to observe Nesya and not necessarily have to walk far but

he also remained vigilant if later Nesya knew it was just that Rehan was still not

with his slightly rude attitude and will make Nesya run away again. So then

be careful in accordance with the initial mission.

I arrived at the villa but just got off

from the taxi, I saw the figure of the woman I had longed for walking

alone I smile. I miss him but I can't get close to him

and for now Rehan could only stare at Nesya from a distance, while

Nesta didn't know that.

“Still the same, but now you're getting thinner baby. What

what do you think makes your body like that? What is all

because of me?” ask me to myself.

I sighed and then I went into the villa

to rest for a while, but before that he will order a guard

villa to buy him lunch because he was also very hungry.

After having the villa guard Rehan go straight into his room and break down

himself in bed.

“I really want to touch you baby, but unfortunately

I have to hold on a little bit so you don't run away from me anymore,” I said.

The life he's been through is really complicated,

where he couldn't maintain his first marriage and now the story

his love must happen like this. Rehan never thought about why he should

through all this? This is a test for the second time and this time

god told him to stay.

“Tired? Yeah, I'm so tired of all this.

But I can't just give up because this is also for Raina's sake and also

mama,” says.

Balinese, 13.30. I just finished with the routine

cleaning my body, because I felt hotter so much better

I decided to take a shower and then went out to the kitchen to

making a cup of coffee. Maybe tomorrow will tell the villa guards to find him

the maid so that someone cleans the villa and the others, is actually here

Rehan only rented it because Rehan thought he wouldn't stay here either

longtime.

Rehan sat on the balcony holding his ipad

checking in from his client, while occasionally staring at the scenery in the

the surroundings of the village are so very cold.

In a different place Nesya even her body in

bed, he was confused about what else to do. He wants to go back to Jakarta

but he also had no purpose there, wanted to go home he was also very embarrassed by

both of his parents. Maybe from tomorrow he has to apply for a job so he will

worked here for a few years and after that he will come back home

meeting his old irang.

“God why it should be like this,” I shouted while

throw the pillow down.

I stared at my phone and intended to send a message to

Alex and I grabbed my phone and typed in a message for Alex.

“How? Have you decided on Lex?

Are you really going to leave me here alone. You really

good thing Lex, I'm still here waiting for you, Lex. But if it has become

your choice is I can do what Lex, I can't do much either. It really does

it hurts Lex because I can only be a puppet here or rather

game.”

I sent Alex that message, and then

put my phone back on the bedside nightstand. I'm spilling

back in bed, I'm really like a fool who really isn't

have a purpose at all. I can't even describe how

my future, even here I live alone without anyone

who knows me, even if I happen until later - so don't know who

will help me, maybe if I'm gone no one will find my body

when it's rotting.

Hahaha, funny huh? I see people out there very

looks happy and well and only I look pathetic.

What will be the story I would describe to my parents if I

go back to them, do I have to be honest? That's not possible because

I don't want to hurt them. I've talked about this a number of times

but I really can't think clearly anymore now fill

my head was full and it felt like it wanted to break instantly as well. I wanted to

I ended my life but I still fear death.

“Nesya, you're really stupid what's useless in

this world. It's your job that's just trying people, isn't it? Hahaha, Neshya

your life is really bad know no,” I said slowly, while grabbing my hair.