Love Om Duda

Alex

In the evening I helped prepare everything

because tomorrow Alex is going back to Jakarta, I'm helping her fold her clothes and

put in his suitcase while Alex is still busy with his

his work must be completed mini mala as well. Actually I know Alex

the truth is who it was not long because from the first Alex always covered up about

his family, I don't know maybe I didn't really care about relationships either

we were I used to just play around and not seriously establish a relationship with

Alex then I also left him without any news to him.

I was suspicious of Alex from the beginning, I don't know

what he's like is hiding something but until now I haven't either

figured it out. But yes, it's none of my business and maybe

alex will talk to me about it someday.

I got out of the room and went to the kitchen to

taking a drink, I took a bottle of mineral water and brought it to the dinner table

and sit there drinking staring out that it was raining.

If the night when it rains like usual Rehan will appear suddenly and hug him

very closely after that there is always a hot thing.

“Nes, what are you doing here?” ask Alex who

suddenly appeared.

“It wasn't just that I was taking a drink because

I feel like my throat is dry and while sitting here, I'm going to sleep

but not yet sleepy,” I said.

Alex smiled and walked over to me,”What are you

miss me Nes?” suddenly, he sat down beside me.

“Hm, how are you? Don't miss it? Where tomorrow will be

stay to Jakarta again,” my god to Alex.

“That's so we can quickly get the blessing of people

my parents and I beg you to wait for me here. Ah, ja. It's a black card

you can use it for anything and this one is also for you so

everything is free you use and I beg you not to reject it Nes, I

sangag loves you,” he said back.

“But Lex, I don't want to use this and this is the same

just like I used you,” I said while staring at the faces of Alex and Alex

shake his head and smile at me. His hand rubbed my face with

gentler.

“No Nes, and please yes you use only. This too

I'm just making something special for you and if something happens to me then the cards

this you can still use well according to your wishes,” said Alex.

“Lex, why are you talking like that? It wasn't you

will come back here and what do you mean talk like that,” I said with

looking seriously.

“No, don't mean anything Nes. It's just me

a little afraid that tonight and tomorrow morning is a meeting and togetherness

we are for the last time,” Alex said. I shook his head and

hugging Alex tightly, somehow I like to justify Alex's words but I

I don't want this to happen either.

“I hope you get back here quickly and secondly

your parents bless our relationship,” I said, and my tears also came out

just without being told.

Alex stroked my back to give me peace of mind

I didn't think much about what he said either.

“Nes, as long as I'm in Jakarta you're fine here

and keep your safety safe if you need anything can tell aunt what

bodyguard I don't want to if anything happens to you,” he said back.

I rubbed my tears violently then

let go of my hug and nodded, looking at Alex for a moment.

“Whatever our life may be in the future, never us

regret it yes,” said Alex.

“Sure, I will never regret it. Because only

god rules our lives, and I pray for you that God always will

protect you,” my words. I don't know, maybe from now on I should

accept my life as it is and learn even harder to love Alex

in the future what will happen, I will keep trying.

The next morning I drove Alex to the airport together

with aunt, I drove her inside and parted at the door

login.”Hurry back,” I said, and Alex nodded he also did not forget to kiss

my forehead and hugged me very tightly. After that he really went in

inside while my aunt and I were walking out in the parking lot

the driver was waiting for us.

“Bi after this I will go to the beach, while

same aunt sir driver will be able to return to the villa,” said.

“But Miss Nesya, I promised you that

I just shook my head and smiled at

aunty,”Aibi need not worry, no one will bother Nesya, anyway,

so aunty can just go back to the villa with the driver and Nesya as well

promise to be home on time,”, I assured Auntie.

My aunt bullied me and smiled at me, and so did we

walk to the parking lot and then get in the car and drive me

to the beach, actually I just want to be alone anyway in my villa too

I better not go to the beach.

At the beach I went straight out from the inside

the car and the aunt and the driver returned home, after their departure

I walked to the beach and stretched out my hands.

“So, hopefully what happens next will be

fine,” I said.

“Again,” greet the men and the voice was very familiar to me

before, and I looked back and then frowned at Candra.

“Morning also Can, why are you here? What are you

not working?” my many.

Candra walked over to me with both her hands on

put it in his pants pocket.”Later, a little late is fine. Yourselves

why is it here too?” tanyakanya.

“Pacify yourself, I don't exist anyway

job. So just come here, if in the villa it's very boring,”

smile says.

I took Candra chatting while walking on the edge

beach,”How is your relationship with your lover?” my many.

“Still the same, but I will stay

trying,” said Candra.

“Good, keep the spirit do not give up,” said. Don't

up to what I've been through, Ndra, everything is so complicated and it makes me

giddy seven circumference.

Candra laughs loosely,”You could have been,

actually, your problem is as complicated as if you could know?” ask Candra

curious.

“Long Ndra, if I talk from the beginning maybe not

it will never be finished. But now I am waiting for certainty and if

that's for sure and I will really accept it and love it

sincerely and leave behind my past that I don't know if I want it

will happen or not,”.

How else do I feel for Rehan

and trying to love and accept Alex is still very difficult for me. If it is

it's my destiny then I have to accept it and no matter how I don't

could refuse. I don't want to think about that anymore which will only make my mind

getting branched everywhere.

How not all this time I've been thinking

about my situation, I don't know I'm tired of this too until the end

it makes me sick. What else will happen next

chest area I have to accept it.

“You must be very difficult to get through everything, and

I'm also amazed that you can pass through it patiently and to this day

you look very tough,” said Candra.

I just nodded and smiled at Candra, indeed

I look tough but the truth is not like what Candra said, I

extremely weak. I always cry when I'm alone without anyone

as far as I know, I'm just afraid that forever I'll just be played with

love and lust only. I'm really very scared.

“Hm, I think I should leave Nes soon. I exist

meeting with clients, I stay you are okay right?” ask Candra.

“No, you can go,” I said, Candra too

say goodbye to me and I wave my hand and don't forget to say

be careful on the road. After that I continued walking on the beach

alone there are some people who come to the beach like a bule who wants to

sunbathing.

I sat on the beach and sat down, I

took my phone out of the bag and took a portrait of myself a few times, then I

upload it on my Instagram social media that I have never opened for a long time.

I'm just a little lazy because every time I upload a picture of me there

some friend sent me a message and asked where I was

they want to be close when they used to stay away from me. Honestly, inside

my life I have friends is not much, maybe because they stay away from me

because I'm an ordinary person or something else I don't know, nor do I

overthinking it.